Determined to keep a diary

Day 352

Big spanner in the works. Not gambling related (although if I had been gambling, I would be in a terrible spot). I have to find a new home. Landlady has decided to sell up. I have a few months to find somewhere, but this still comes with huge stress. Finding somewhere to rent involves credit checks. Due to my DMP my score is still horribly low. I'm hoping if I stay with my current letting agency I can bypass this. I've been a model tenant, so hopefully that goes in my favour. Next issue is the money. Deposit and months rent in advance. A huge sum for properties where I live. Then moving costs. Removal company, new phone, utilities etc. I have money to cover this but was hoping to use it for a holiday. A treat for getting to 1 year GF. Looks like my treat now will be a huge bill, stress of finding somewhere, and them moving.

On the plus side, if I had been gambling, I would now be looking at having nowhere to live. I would be homeless and in a world of bother! Proof that quitting gambling is the right move. Being able to save and have a contingency fund for events like this is such a relief. Not the end of the world, but will certainly knock my plans back for a while. I could insist on my ex paying me the money she's owe me for the house, but I wouldn't do that as she has her own issues at the moment. Am I too kind? Well, no. I put her through the torture of my gambling, so I'll find a way to move on. 

Anyway, apart from that, life is good. Still going well in my personal life. Still have a job. Still have money, although not for long! I cant really complain. Good to read others diaries and see some people still pushing on and reaping the rewards. Sad to see new stories too, but we all have to start this journey on day 1 so it's positive to see that journey begin.

Stay strong 👍