Another long shift in work, another day ticks by gamble free, I’m up to 79. Still focusing on doing the right things day by day and if I can do that then it will reward me with a free mind and the ability to live a normal life. I can’t ever afford to get ahead of myself, this illness will never be defeated, the same daily task is always there. If I let my guard down I know where I will end up. For today I’m going to steer well clear of that first bet!
Day 80 is here and the time really has flown by, I'm so much of a better person when I'm not gambling, albeit not perfect as the poison the addiction left in me will take a long time to go, but I'm progressing. I will always be an addict but being an addict in recovery will allow me a much better life. Today is another day and the fight starts again, one day at a time I must beat this.The progress in such a short time is impressive, the progress needs to continue!
DAY 81 !!! Boooooooom
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Day 81 and my last shift in work before a well deserved few days off. Had no urges to deal with today and I’m looking forward to some time with the kids while I’m off. If I wanna we still gambling I wouldn’t have the funds to do anything with them while I’m off. Onwards and upwards!
Quick post on a busy day 83 with the family. It’s the day before payday and I’ve money in the bank to pay for lunch. A small and basic thing, but something that the old me wouldn’t be able to do. Small steps day by day are making life much more manageable.
Earlier today I had a few fleeting urges to go and place a bet, no idea why as deep down I know the damage this would bring to me. Fortuately I have got my head together and won't be acting on any urges. Just shows how hard this battle is, got to keep on fighting this one day at a time!
Day 86 and I had a real slump last night and felt really down and incredibly bored, I think in that mood there was only one thing that would have cheered me up and that would have been to place a bet. Fortunately I fought it and struggled through the night and today has been a much more manageable day. Just got to keep on fighting this, its not easy but the rewards from staying gamble free make life so much better in every area and I don't want to slip back to being the same person I used to be. Things will get better the longer I avoid that first bet!
86 days is not easy but as you say “ if you don’t place that first bet then there won’t be a second “ and you’ll get to the point where the urges become easier to fight until there dismissed just as easy as they arrived 🙂 Something that’s had a grip and has been a part of your life for so long is going to give up without a fight now is it ? . Keep pushing forward one day at a time and it will get better:)) All the best 🙂
Thanks for the post A9 very good advice. I just have to fight the urges hard and get used to doing it. It’s worth the fight, the alternative is unthinkable. It’s now day 87 and I’ve got a block of four days in work ahead of me which should keep me out of trouble. Thankfully I’m feeling a lot more positive today!
Day 88 has been spent in work and then when I finish I’m off to the match. Not much to report today, been too busy to have any urges and it’s going to be another successful gamble free day.
congrats on 2 fat ladies 88 mate, we are both approaching the full century. I also Had a wobble on Monday but no damage was done which im thankful for. what match did you go to ? checkatrade? thats dedication! I go away Tuesday for 11 days to a non-gambling part of the world so just need to get through to Tuesday and im home and dry for the big 100. Well done on your progress and keep fighting the good fight. Take Care
Early hours of day 90 and I’m on the night shift. Still going strong and still making the right choices. More of the same is needed and day by day the days can further accumulate.
Day 91 is the first of five well deserved days off work, these are the days that are more likely to deliver urges to gamble so I need to remain focussed. Life is still very busy though and this does help keep me away from that first bet. Its amazing to think I have now gone 13 Fridays and 13 paydays without a bet. My finances are so much better and I have made much better use of my money, Its great not to constantly be thinking about debts and where the money will come from to make repayments. So much has improved in so many ways and I can only imagine how much better things would be with a full year behind me. Long way to go to get there but one day at a time anything is possible!
Day 93 has been spent with the family and its been a safe day with no urges and no gambling coming to my mind. The ability to hit the shops with my family and treat them to things is something every normal person takes for granted. Had I still been gambling I may not have had the spare funds to treat my kids. Life on this path is so much better and life has improved in every way possible, it would be madness for me to step into a bookies again!
End of day 94 and have been watching some documentaries about 9/11, it all puts things into persepective. Got to *** life with both hands and make the most of each day. Today and tomorrow I will not gamble!
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