Here I am again.
Like that perennial loser in life. I have said so many times (normally when I'm all out) that I am going to give up, I want my life back, I can beat this... To be honest, I'm not sure if I can. It's like a drug, just when I feel I have it whipped something comes along and bang, back to square one.
Normally it's great, I start winning, it's easy, I can make this work this time.... What a deluded fool sits writing this tonight. You can never win...I should know this by now, so why can I not listen to the mantra...I cannot win because I cannot stop...
So right now, after another losing Sunday, I attempt again to start from the beginning. Twenty years of this has really taken its toll. I haven't even got any money coming in at the moment so tried to win some. Did just that for the first hour but couldn't stop and ended up, 8 hours later with everything gone. My fantastic wife knows I have had problems in the past but I think she feels it is under control. I hate all the deceit. When is life going to take a turn for the better? Actually dreading the start of the football season because that is normally my worst vice.
Thanks for reading...
Hi mate,
I know how you feel... good luck with your gamble free life
Good luck on your journey to recovery. I only started 10 days (its a lot for me) but the advice i would give is to post on here as often as you can or when you are feeling gambling urges. The second bit of advice i would give is to set goals or targets so that certainly you and your family feel by you abstaining from gambling. And the final bit of advice is to put any necessary blocks in place to stop you from gambling once the footie season starts.!!!!
Thank you both for the quick replies and the advice. 10 days is a great start. I managed 9 months once, that seems unbelievable at this moment. Let's hope I am always 10 days behind you.
Hi Vespa
Just wanted to say welcome aboard and to wish you well
Best wishes
Suzanne x
Hi Suzanne, that's very kind of you, thanks x
believe in yourself and you can do it , i dont want to do this anymore and i am going to stop and you can to , maybe open up to your wife and get self excluding ready for the football season, all the best
Thanks tryer, I will do just that. we can beat this.
Much more positive today, but then it is only Day 1 and I have no money.
Hi Vespa
Day 1 well done as I have just posted to nick abstaining each day will build up your strength and each day will distance you more from gambling
Use this time As a positive to move away from something that can totally destruct you and your family
Think positive and take one day at a time with all of it
Suzanne xx
Good luck mate. Be strong and don't let those demons win! You can do it! I am in day 111 and like yourself been giving the bookies free money for over 20 years. No more mate, don't do it, keep busy ans retrain the brain.
All the best
Jason
Thanks Jason.
Day 4 today. Small steps and all that.
Hi VB
Keep it going mate, you can and will beat it! It's a horrible illness and one we all can do without!!
Vespa,
Fella sounds from your title that you are a man after my own heart,I have owned a few in my lifetime and am building a fifty special for my youngest who turns 16 in november.
Recovery is a gift in my eyes,embrace it with the same effort you gifted your gambling and the results are something to behold.
Best of all the cost??
Not a single penny,a re education of the mind,a choice for life
One that gifts every compulsive gambler the same outcome
We all become winners
Enjoy it
Abstain and maintain
Duncs stepping forward never back
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