Feeling sick.

@gadaveuk hi, hope your doing ok. Not really sure what the recovery programme is but it sounds promising. Hope it works well for you, good luck 🙂 

@herewegoagain20 

Thank you for your comments.

I am fortunate I stuck with the recovery program.

Recovery has very little to do about luck but more about our dedication to find a healthy life and a healing process.

Thank you

Dave L

@herewegoagain20 Thanks, I really appreciate that, we’re all here for a reason and that’s to get support aswell as helping each other. Yeah it does become part of your daily routine and that’s why it’s so hard to get out of your mind which is why a change of routine is a massive step in the right direction. Stay strong, you’ve got this!

14 days gamble free! 2 weeks!! Been lots of temptation but trying not to think about it, the weekends coming up again. Looking to just get through this weekend, one step at a time. 

@herewegoagain20 

Hi

14 days gamble free is a great achievement. Well done.

Please decline the unhealthy temptations o emotional triggers.

Exchange all unhealthy habits in to healthy habits,

One step at a time.

One day at a time.

Your sharing helps you and other people.

Love and peace to every one.

Thank you

Dave L

@gadaveuk thank you, made it through the weekend and not once did it cross my mind. I do know it will eventually though and determined to do my best to ignore it. Had a lovely Mother’s Day and no gambling to spoil it. 

@herewegoagain20 

Hi 

Well done I am pleased for you and that you are more at peace with your self.

Dave L

Struggling today and I don’t even know why. Feeling very agitated and fed up and keep thinking about the slots ?

Hi

I am sorry to hear you are struggling today.

For me there were very testing days.

It really helped me get focused on writing down my needs my wants and my goals.

Each time I went back to gambling just indicated that I was emotionally vulnerable.

My emotional triggers were my pains I could not heal, my fears I could not face, my frustrations due to the fact I had high unreasonable expectations of people life and situations, feelings of loneliness and boredom.

By going to meetings and hearing therapies I would identify my pains in other people.

I would identify my fears in other people.

But in time I find ways to find inner peace by processing my emotional vulnerability in healthy ways.

Therapies helped me understand more about myself.

In time the books were not the things that deeply helped me but the in depth therapies would help me reduce my fears and my trust grew with in me.

I am no longer the loner, the guilt shame and regrets have been resolved.

The hurt inner child comes out to play and have healthy intimacy with all people.

No more escaping in to unhealthy habits.

For me to exchange very unhealthy habits and change them in to healthy habits.

Just for today I will not Gamble,  just for today I will not smoke, just for today I will not get drunk, just for today I will not drink tea or coffee, just for today I will not lie, just for today I will not hide in any fears, just for today I will not give up faith or hope in myself. 

Just for today I will be the healthiest person I can be today.

Before my recovery I was angry most of the time.

As time goes by I am angry less often and even find it hard to remember when I was last angry.

My life today is less about reacting in unhealthy ways and more about interacting in healthy ways.

I got sick of being sick and unhealthy.

Love and peace to every one

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham UK