I wrote a post yesterday sayin how I had hit rock bottom and how I needed to stop my gambling before I lost everything
Late last night I took the step to admit everything to my partner.
As you can guess it went down like a tonne of bricks but I was expecting that.
She wasn't angry, she didn't raise her voice. Just a Simple comment stating that I now have one choice
If I set foot in a bookies, casino or play any sort of gambling. I'll lose my family.
I know the old saying. The night is always darkest just before dawn.
Now that the hardest part is done I feel less anxious about it all. It's going to be tough. But I'm stubborn and I don't want to lose it all. I can do this!
A new day
I can feel a smile coming on. 🙂
Well done clazepeg - that was a big step to have told your partner. Her reaction has brought everything into sharp focus for you with no grey areas - you have to stop, now.
Try to come on to the site every day - you will find lots of support and understanding.
Remember - you can do it, however hard the journey.
Best wishes
Joanna
Clazepeg Great news come here daily as i will. I believe this is a harder step than just closing down accounst or self banning. So i think one of the hardest hurdles is done now follow through with the rest. You can make it you will make it.
Day 2 almost finished
Been a good day
Been to the docs and spoke about depression etc
Gave me a ticket for medication although I may delay it a couple days as I have big exams coming up this week and I'm worries about the initial side affects
Oh well.
One day at a time
Clazepeg, well done but i admitted it to my partner two years ago and yet I carried on, this time in full deceit mode. You MUST either give her your cards or get a joint bank account. Get rid of any easy access to cash. It will make life better and easier. I wish I had done that.
Well done Clazepeg, please keep it up. my wife left me and gave me so many chances, coming back, but I kept gambling and she finally had enough. learn from me.
So today was day 7.
Pay day too..
Kept myself busy by studying for my exams next week
Then had to walk home from the library through the city centre which is packed with bookies
But I am happy enough that I walked past all of them and didn't go in. Quite please as I Thot this was always going to be the difficult part with having money in my account.
But nope not today
GAME ON!!
Fantastic, clazepeg, to have been able to walk past the bookies and have money in your pocket - that shows how far you have come - keep on with the journey!
Joanna
Hi guys. Sorry I've been away from this for a while. Been sorting out a lot in my life
As I had previously mentioned I had been having a rough time of it, I was very close to losing everything
I admitted everything to my partner, did everything that she asked of me, went to speak to people about depression, gave her my bank cards, and vowed to move forward.
Since my original post I have stuck to my guns and I am gamble free since March, been a lot happier, passed my exams, got a promotion, sorted my debt, and my partner and I haven't been in this good a place for a long time,
I can definitely say a corner has been turned, it's still crops up now and again due to to sporting events that are on but I don't have that urge to do it like I used to.
So to sum it up, IT CAN BE DONE, it's hard at first but positivity is the key, also so is having a stubborn partner with a zero tolerance haha
Stay classy people!!
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