Fireworks

My 6 days off work is over, I'm sadly back in tomorrow. Money is extremely tight and it will be until next months payday but I've had a lovely family Christmas, been really busy and most importantly not gambled. No Boxing Day urges, I've avoided all online and on tv about the big races. 

The aim of this diary was to get to next fireworks day gamble free and make positive and long lasting changes to my life. It will only happen one day at a time but I've made a really good start! Just for today! 52 days!

So I have made it from starting this on Fireworks day to the end of the year without gambling. Taking things one day at a time is key but its amazing how quickly the time passes by. Today is day 56 and I won't be gambling today. Thinks are still hard as I don't feel much difference because I'm still skint. However I'm not having sleepless nights worrying about what I owe and what bets will get me out of a hole. All my bills are being taken care of as soon as I get paid rather than blowing it all in a bookies. 

Hope everyone has a great New Years celebrations. Just for today!

New Year brings new challenges, trying to cut back on the booze and get healthier. 56 days without a bet sure feels good! Really enjoying the xmas sport, football has been good and loving the darts. I remember one new years day placing £ on an odds on to win. It lost and then of course won every race going in its next few runs. I felt so bad that day, so sickening the things I've done. Got to leave it in the past and focus on taking things one day at a time and beating this horrible disease.

Just for today!

Time is flying by day by day bet free, money is extremely tight though, its been a hard month in that regard! However time will fix that so its not something I need to stress about. Its just hard going at the moment. Just over a week till payday and it can't come soon enough.

Just checked my app and its 63 days without a bet. Made up with myself! Just for today!

69 days gone and I'm doing really well. No urges at all and no thoughts about gambling! Payday is on Monday and its been a massive struggle through the end of the month. Totally skint and can't wait to be paid. Should be a slightly easier month but money could still be tight. 

Got another busy weekend with the kids and need to make sure each day is taken one day at a time. Just for today!

Gosh its quiet on here, not many threads and no replies, but I will keep going. Day 72 and payday and a successful payday without any urges. I hope I can make my wages last longer this month, I'm sure I will. 

Feels amazing not to be gambling and I can do this one day at a time. Just for today!

Day 75 and still going really well, no thoughts of gambling and a calmer mind. Just got to keep it going one day at a time. Just for today!

Still going strong, feeling great, Fireworks night is a long way away but I'm on the right path. Just got to do this one day at a time. Just for today!

Day 83 and feeling great, finances looking better, no urges and sleeping better. Day by day things will get better, I just need to keep making the right choices and avoiding complacency. Feeling great, just for today!

This forum used to be so busy a few years ago, really strange the way its so quiet, where has everyone gone? Anyway I'm absolutely flying along 89 days bet free and absolutely no urges! Its all about today and one step at a time. Just for today!

Day 98, still going strong, won't say too much as nobody seems to use this anymore. Its lovely to be doing so well though! Just for today

You are doing so well! Well done to you. It is great to read you keep on the right path.  It encourages me to keep going. It is so hard! The addiction still takes over from time to time and I feel as I have no will… but reading stories like yours sure helps. I’m making tomorrow the first day of my new life! 

Thanks Serendipity, I hope you are still going strong, keep the fight up, life is better without gambling! Its day 102 for me and I feel great, another payday and no urges to gamble. Money is still tight but its getting easier month by month. Just for today!

Day 108, doing really well without any urges. Sadly feeling rubbish with tonsilitus and its half term so I have to entertain the kids. Still rather have tonsilitus than be obsessed with the bookies and gambling. Onwards and upwards, just for today!

Day 108, doing really well without any urges. Sadly feeling rubbish with tonsilitus and its half term so I have to entertain the kids. Still rather have tonsilitus than be obsessed with the bookies and gambling. Onwards and upwards, just for today!