First step

Thanks Lu x Day 10! Felt it yesterday but got through it. Feel like I have done nothing but sleep but that's me probably catching up on all the nights I got very little. Definitely feeling positive. I am not going back to that black hole!

Afternoon Tommo , Just wanted to stop of and say Hi and welcome to the forum , sorry it's a bit late buddy :)).

You need a while for things to become clearer and sleeps really important , you come here and your mind's a mess and your life's an even bigger one , I think all the time were locked in addiction and your minds swirling you don't rest properly so the catch up on sleep because your a littl more relaxed will work wonders .

I wish you well mate ad if you ever need a chat you know where I am :))

Best wishes Alan

Thanks Alan. I have read your diary you are an inspiration x

I feel I have to share this. Its my diary and I need to know i won't go there again. this is not now but it was in the past. I hit rock bottom but I am so glad I didn't see it through . We can all feel there is no return. But there really is so much help.

That's so touching tommo , I've been at that point too before I came here and I know it's a terrible place to be and wouldn't wish it on anyone, thankfully my wake up call was at my daughters 30 th birthday when I realised things had to really change , That was ovrer a year ago and I haven't looked back . Let that letter written from the past be the turning point that spurs you on to a gamble free life , if I can do it then so can you Hun , it takes s bit of effort and a lot of fight but is soooo worth it :)) sending you a big hug and a bucketful of positivity xx

Thanks Alan. I had to post it to never forget there again. We have to succeed if not for us but for our kids x

Hi, thanks for sharing, certainly hits home how low this addiction gets you, so pleased your having the strength now to fight and win each day your gf. I can relate to the loss of a child as I too lost one, mine was a very long time ago and whilst it does get easier you never forget, you cope better as time goes on. Best wishes and take care x x

Thanks Anon. I really appreciate your words. Start of day 12 and it feels like I am on a roller coaster. Positive one day and right down again the next. All brought on myself I know. I will beat this!

Day 14 and managed to pay bills rather than blow it!

Well done on two weeks. Great work. Keep it going!

RA

Thanks RA. Day 15.

Day 17. I am really getting there. Been years since I have gone so long!

Well done tommo on 17 days keep fighting 🙂 Lu x

Day 18. I can hardly believe it. Small steps though. The urge is still there fighting to get out. Suppose it always will be but this time I am going to win!

Morning Tommo, you've made my day! Thank you for writing in my diary and thrilled you're feeling abit brighter and can see a little clearer. The horrible urges will probably in some way always be there, but we just have to find a way to fight them and fight for the gamble free life I want. Huge well done, stay strong! C x