No problem sue. Start of another week and only got a week and a half to payday. So at least i have a bit of money to live on. But gambling for me is finished for good. Dont need it my life. No point in looking back and what i have lost. Got to look forward.
Hi boro, so pleased you managed to start a diary, you already have made a massive journey by staying gamble free for this long well done!!! Just think in a couple of months you will be able to buy the kids more sweets than you have in a long time now the money isnt going elsewhere, i will keep following your recovery and wish you all the best sarah x
Cheers for the support sarah. Well just when i thought thing were getting better i check my online banking and a company called finance facility has taken 70 quid out my bank. When i lost a lot a lot of money a couple of weeks ago i did try and get a loan with a few companys but did not agree to pay that to any company. This 70 quid has taken me over me overdraft. Been on phone to bank like they going to investigate it. This has put me on a real downer. When are things going to start and go for me. It just shows what gambling has done to me
Hi Boro,
You doing all the right things.......Things will improve because you dont gamble anymore....right!!!!
Keep fighting!
Sue x
They have to sue surely. Had a real bad day not with gambling but the concequences of what i did 2 and a half weeks ago when i was gambling. But i keep fighting and i will eventual see light at the end of the tunnel. At the moment like its pretty bleak
Just had my first counselling session. So they another step in wright direction. Just hope they are no more nasty shock money wise. Cant take that anymore like
Hi Boro,
Thats great that you had the counselling session.
What you said about shock money worries.......Yes they probably will come BUT at least with not gambling you can dig yourself out of that hole...........You CAN do this.....think of your little girl Boro!
Sue xx
All quiet today no real problems. But still thinking about all the money i have lost. It really does sicken me. The things you do when you have this awful illness is unbelievable. People dont understand unless you been threw it. At least it only a week to payday and 3 weeks since i last gambled.
Hey Buddie,
You know from reading the forum...the losses are gone....they aint comming back!
You have gone 3 weeks...I know you have had no money but soon you will....Please just focus on your recovery...don't let anyone take your hard earned money again.
Sending you positive thoughts through the computer................
Just think how you can spoil your little girl!
Sue xx
Cheers sue i really do appreciate you given me encouragement
Hi boro
I get days when I look back on all the cash I've lost, easily over 10 grand! Yet you can't change the past. You can only look forward. If you don't gamble again imagine where you could be in a couple of years. Your doing really well. 3 weeks is a great base to build from. You will hit a month before you know it & then a year & so on. Keep it up good work. All the best
Cheers westsider
Today has been pretty calm. Still got a feeling they are going to be hard times ahead. Im worrying about every little thing at the moment and its getting me down.
Hi Boro,
Me again....like a rash...lol
You know at the moment you are finding things tough....But......Keep going the way you are and your thoughts will eventually turn around to being far more positive.
You will then look back on your diary and see just how far you have come.
We all recover at different rates....as long as you don't gamble you will eventually feel sooooo much better.
As I always say to you mate...think of your gorgeous wee girlie!
Hugs
Sue xx
i apreciate everything you say womble
Day 22. Still feel like everything is getting me down. But i supose im going to have this feeling for a while. You cant lose 8 grand in 2 months and not feel sick. But they one thing i can guarante i NEVER GAMBLE AGAIN. Its really got to me this time
The past is in the past and we simply cannot do anything about it.
What we can do plenty about is our future.
And by reaching day 22 gamble-free, you are doing everything you can about YOUR future.
Keep going!
Enjoy your weekend.
NT
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