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Well that's addiction for you.... some of the reasons I relapse are...

1. Despite everything that has gone before I still convince myself that I can win some money... somehow that this time it will be different, and..

2. I simply get excited at the idea of gambling... the anticipation of gambling can feel intoxicating.

3. I get to switch off from life and stress whilst in action... in my own little bubble

4. Remember that gambling in all its forms is designed to be addictive. Its designed to keep you playing...

I crave the buzz of a win. When that bar lands in the green bit the thought is it might be a big win. But all I did yesterday was lose money and embarrass myself. All the money I have lost in the past but yesterday was just plain stupid 

I totally get the embarrassing bit. The last time I gambled I was the only one in the shop sitting at the machine like a complete numpty watching the reels spin whilst the cleaner mopped around me. I think she wanted me to move the stool a bit but I didn't. I desparately wanted to get the hell out  but I just couldn't untill all my money had gone.... let us not do these stupid things anymore

When we are in that zone SA the place could be on fire and we would still sit there stirring at screen hoping for a win. It’s quite pathetic really because we are both decent people and deserve better. 

Many years ago I was gambling in an arcade in central London. Suddenly armed police came in and ordered us all out, cos there was an armed robbery in progress next door.

I was the last to leave...didn't they realise that the jackpot was the next spin!!

Like you say... quite pathetic.. we deserve better!!

Mam and brother having a go at me. I don’t need it I really don’t. Me brother gambles ridiculous amounts of money on horses so he can shut the f**k up. Me mam just concerned but I don’t need people having a go at me. I feel sick myself 

Sometimes we have to block our families out Boro, I did. Jus surround yourself with folk that are on your side x

Feeling better today. Yeah it just hurts even more when people have a go.

Gamble wise things all good. But everything else pretty s**t. Ex girlfriend mother having a go at me for the way I treat my children. The only thing I have done is ask everyweek if there are coming over but there is always an excuse for them not to come over. It’s really starting to P**s me off especially the way her daughter has treat me which her mam knows nothing about. I feel used because there always come over for a birthday or next week because it’s Christmas. I’m pretty sick with whole situation 

No fobt gambling since I lasted posted. Things going ok at the minute 

Good to hear that! 🙂

cheers Sa appreciate it mate.

Life without playing on fobt is so much better. Still get that urge now and then but with me been basically kicked out a few betting shops because I was banned it’s made me realise I would have to drive a canny distance to play on them. I have no doubt if I wasn’t banned I’d have been on them again just need to stay strong 

No gambling at all. With betting shops shut it pretty much stops gambling at all,. All blocks in place online and never been a big gambler online anyway. Life great apart from this coronavirus and working in a supermarket. But everything else going well got a woman in my life now. Everybody stay save and we must stay home wear possible 

Hello Boro

Well done on remaining gamble free. Sounds like your life is getting better. Do keep updating us on your progress!

Take care,

Deirdre
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