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Thanx Rachel, Lisa and Rideyobike.

Day 59.fantastic - 8 weeks, everything is possible if you want it a lot.

Another glorious day, already on a go, no matter how tiring it gets i like to get myself in gear.Actually time goes quicker when you constantly do something, what a fool i was spending all those precious hours infront of the screen....well not anymore, i found old me aswell as getting to know new me and i like the change.

Last night i was brought to think about God and holly spirit. We all got diferent believes on this topic and no matter i blame 'him' for my experience in my past i always turn back to 'him' on a darkest days...it's strange, do i believe in 'him' or it's just something i was made to believe while raised up.

Probably not much sense in all of this, just a little thought.

Anyway back to reality, feel good, rushing around(which i like) and getting ready for a challenge tonight:-)

All good - i won't gamble today!

Take care all and be brave stepping into new future

Sandra x

Hey Sandra

Makes sense to me Hun....the diarys are a good way to dump all of our thinks and feels ...sometimes those things don't even have to be acted on and can be here today gone tomorrow xx

Keep strong and I know you will meet your challenge later xxx

Dots is a little jack Russell ...lol equally scary as her mummy ..lol

Only kidding...she is absolutely beautiful and the cutest thing even though i do say so myself .

Blondie posted a piccy of her in one of my diaries ...

She's the best thing to have come out of this mess ..

Keep posting Sandra...it's not hot hot out there xx

Fantastic Rachel. Lovely to hav 4 legs friends.

Had to edit this post, because it was very inappropriate of me to put what i did put.

S x

Good morning diary,

Well another glorious morning, just i'm going to miss it being asleep 🙂

Don't feel too well, got sore throat, my luck to get sick just a day away from trip to London for my lovely carnaval event:-(

Oh well, can't put myself down like that.

The main thing is -day 60, too tired to think of any urges so it's all good. I'm safe for now:-)

Take care all, have lovely day and i will catch up with you later.

Ciau for now

Sandra x

hey Sandra,

well done on reaching another mini milestone. Sorry to hear that you are a little unwell, hope it clears for you trip to London, as that sounds another positive event in your new life!!

take care

Phil

Thank you Phil,

Well can't even talk today, not if i'm moaning, i'm not too talkative person in general. I'm afraid that's what i get for running that extra mile yesterday and jumping in freezing shower straight after lol.

Trip to London...got tickets about 5 months ago, exciting, can't wait actually, last festival i went was 2 years ago, because something more 'exciting'(gambling entered my life at that time)...ant there i sat, like a mole infront of computer screen day and night...

( lol actually my mate called me like that haha, no wonder, me shut in a bedroom 24/7.)

Anyways, i'm glad i'm out of that horrible state and not a 'mole' anymore...c'mon bring it on London- i've got my glowstick at ready haha

Still day 60, sun is shining, still sore throat but nothing will stop me today or tomorrow:-)

Take care all

Sandra x

Hey Sandra

Have a great time at your festival ...I used to go to the music ones but now I Iike my comfy bed lol xx

We allegedly have the weather now until end of August so you should be guaranteed no rain ...keep the sunscreen handy and enjoy.,,.no more mole in the hole for you xxx

R and D xx

Thanx Rachel,

Ok, before i go to work just few final thoughts for today. Feel very greatful for this site, i start posting more often, it's not if i haven't got anything else to do...i'm quite busy, but will always find a minute to record how i feel, and support others. It helps me a lot with my feelings, and as i said before, i need to stay close to this site, it's a big part of my recovery. I think the only time i stop posting is if i lapse....i know it's normal and it can happen, but i could never forgive myself for leaving recovery road and turning to the dark horrible alley.

Anyway, better don't think negative, i'm doing good, and while i'm here i just enjoy every day and share my thoughts.

Another little thought worrying me about my journey to London is....train and tubes..i don't like to be in too much crowdy closed up places....i even can't fly anymore....not too much paranoyed ey? Lol i'll be fine, if i leave now and put my feet in gear, i might get there by Saturday hahaha!

No more thoughts...take care all, stay strong and take a step at a time!

Sandra x

Hi Sandra

Congratulations on 60 days! I love reaching a day ending with 0, or a multiple of 7.....I use them as an excuse to treat myself- nothing extravagant or expensive just a wee reminder that I'm doing good lol.

You'll have a great time on your trip I'm sure and be able to tell us all the stories on your return 🙂

Keep up the great effort- you're doing brill!

Take care

Irene

x

Thank you very much Irene, i shall catch up with you diary when sun goes up:-)

Good morning diary,

Trying to find a peaceful place for myself, away from mayhem here. Beautiful sky and won't b long sunrise. I love watching sun go up.... Really calming...

I think i don't treasure my days as i should. Don't need a lot, a bit of sun, freedom and good emotions.But it's easy to slip in depressing routine, ppl around me affects me a lot. Maybe thats why i like my own company....no need gossip, arguments or misunderstandings.

Live today and don't think about tomorrow - sounds very easy, but everyday things don't let me to rest....always something on a mind...

Well, getting in trance here as i see lol, getting a little tiny bit tired, been busy and in pain, couse did something to my leg running today. God, i-m full of it aint i, flu, leg haha.

Ok day (morning) 61 and finally long weekend off. Lovely, hopefully weather stays nice...

Ok, enough for now

Please all take care and just enjoy and treasure the moments you feel happy and peacefull with yourselfs....life is too shirt for regrets - hav to live it in full and obviously excluding harmful things eg.gambling. it's more to life than that.

Take care lovely people

Sandra x

hey Sandra

brilliant- well done on your 61 days FANTASTIC!!!!

yeah you are right- live for today, its a good motto. Every day is an adventure daring us to be more fully alive.

Hope you enjoy the sunshine

take care friend

Stux

Hey Sandra,

I think a common theme among cg's is that we can be isolated people and like time on our own, I recognise that even though I am in a house with 3 others and my closest. I think our brain begins to think that we are, because we have spent a large part of our time wanting to be on our own gambling. Well no more, hope your illness has improved and have a super weekend.

Phil

Hi sandra

Well done on your 61 days and hope you have a great time at the weekend.

Take care lisa 🙂