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Hi S,

Love the colour of your outfit lol, and you skate with such delicance (another new word lol).

Hope you legs aren't aching too much today, with all that exercise, I'm doing round 2, conservatory windows, today lol.

Have a good gambling free day and stay safe.

Suzanne xxxxxx

Wow. I can't skate. Admire your skills though!

Thanx ladies (it's a shame it's not real me lol..but gotta train harder to get those skills in future 😉 )

Dear diary,

Monday. Decent sleep if i can say so. Listened to the music most of the night cause overriding thoughts about work just refused to leave me alone...did think about the escape route and not go in tonight lol..would make a good impression on my first day in new shift lol...so will put lid on my anxiety, nerves and get on with it.

Nice outside so a little run is lined up and hopefully a little shut eye later on before "fun" starts.
No thoughts of gambling...just rising pressure of the unknown which is awaiting tonight. Hey ho..get on with it Sandra.

Take care all and stay safe

S x

Sandra,

You are going to rock the joint tonight, and you go in and show them why you deserved that promotion. Anxiety, nerves....I believe young people use the expression "fake it until you make it" for this kind of thing. Glad you slept well...I've also been experienced using different types of music to help me sleep, but not quite found the answer yet.

Enjoy your run, and I'm sure your first shift will be fine. Just remember all of the things your manager did that you don't like, and try to avoid them! 😉

Ryan

xxx

Thanx Ryan xx

I think its a shame you deleted the last post. It was honest it told people of a struggle many of them deny they have. Your diary should express how you feel do not worry how others may take that

Dan x

Hey you, no idea what time you are starting but the 1st I've managed to slip away from my desk all day & I just wanted to wish you good luck with your new team 🙂

I know you can handle them - ODAAT

Hi S,

Thanks for your message, and ongoing support, I hope your shift went without too much stress, and you feel calmer today.

No window cleaning for me today all done and dusted lol.

Have a good calm gambling free day.

Suzanne xxxx

Oh Sandra, what a lovely thing to say about feeling safe on my diary 🙂

You may have no Eenglish when it suits & but you have such a brilliant way with words 🙂

I am very intrigued as to what I missed & I hope you find a way to re-post it as it sounds like you could have done with a bit of support! These are our diaries for the good & the bad & like no-one has judged me for anything I have written (if they had, I would have ignored them), no-one should judge you! The comedy has been good this week but there are no expectations from anyone that we will always be jolly as there is no hiding from the evil that has bought us here! I too battle with my sleeping & I was trying to figure out whether it is better or worse these days. I seem to be spending a lot of time on here when I should be sleeping & I'm genuinely not sure either way but without the stresses of gambling (& maybe the reduced caffeine), I do feel much better in myself! Apparently the glare of computer screens etc is not condusive to sleep so methinks we are not helping ourselves (eek)...Tonight when I hit the sack, I will not log on for @ least 8 hours no matter what I am thinking or how many times I wake up (when you get to my age, you'll know what I mean)!

Hope you are getting some good shut eye now & each day @ work just keeps getting better & better!

Stay strong ODAAT - Juuuuuune

Hi Sandra,

Thank you soooooo much for your very very kind words on my diary. They really made me feel good. xx

Keep strong and enjoy the run!

Hope the job went well too...

Ade xxx

Hi 5 right back @ya Sandra.
I just thought the post was beautifully honest & in no way would lessen anyone elses early recovery. Quite the opposite in fact i think it would give them identification. Your diary is for you & never ever censor your feelings

Dan x

Sandra, just checking in before I have my 8 hours of abstinence from the site! I read that you have been stitched up @ work (boo, that sucks) but you are strong enough to beat Mr Gamble so I know you will find a way to cope!

You will need to save your pennies for when you go to Milton Keynes in July...I have just discovered a whole new world out the back of the stadium :-0 I'm pretty sure they don't have Primark (or as we like to call it Pri-mani) in Sandraland (if you have one near you, play along or you'll hurt my feelings) & here you will be able to buy a whole new skating outfit or some lovely accessories to really show off the one that you have for about a fiver - good or what 🙂

Stay strong girlie & I will check in on you sometime after 0930!

Keep working it ODAAT - Juuuuuune

Thank you Sandra x

The bear x

Hi Sandra
Thanks for your support. Just in from my night, don't think we are in the same line of work lol.
I am not a woman of the night really, more a lady with a lamp
Take care
Cheryl xxx

Morning Crazy, can't believe you were organising the gathering behind my back after all the effort I put in 😉

Never heard of Cooneys but George have nothing on Pri-mani I tell you 🙂

I hate to say it but I think knowing I had banned myself from my phone may have helped with my sleep :-0 I still woke up & did my little old lady thang but I checked the time (on the cooker - downstairs loo, boo) & just crawled back into bed to sleep! I think the same is in order tonight!

Hope you are sleeping well & not letting 'work' (I'll see if I can tempt Rachel out of hibernation to fill this in properly since I'll only get edited) grind you down!

Sleep tite, don't let the bed bugs bite - Juuuuuune