Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

hello my lovely Blondie,

ah honesty. I'm in the same boat, being honest with myself but no closer to telling anyone. In my case I truly believe it would only cause problems and not solve any. Can't speak for anyone else but I know deep, deep down what is the right thing to do in any given situation even if I don't like it or want to do it, so I know I'm not just being a coward.

I think at some point your inner voice will tell you what the right thing to do is, it might just take a while longer before you can hear it. Small steps and all that.

many hugs. x

Hi Blondie.... thx for input in my diary, brought a smile to my face, btw i do not mind wait for you with counting the days and go together further :)))) very well done on your nearly 50.... recently i went through very similar stage, thinking a lot about honesty, emotions, difficult questions.... in my heart of hearts i think there is a lot of good from asking many questions only if we do not try to answer them at once 🙂 you will do it your way obviously, but i also think, if for any reason you do not feel comfortable with sharing of something with somebody you should not do it and by the way i would not bother too much about "image"... the way, we, most of humans, not only compulsive gamblers, look at ourselves in the mirrors of eyes of the society, is just weird sometimes.... basically these mirrors show fake pictures and really nothing to worry about... thasts my impression and way i face such things... all the best for you, whatever you decide to do.... persevere. K.

Hi Blondie,

Thanks for your post on mine 😉

Just reading your last post and can defo relate to shattering the illusion, a really hard one to deal with, my family thought i was this great intelligent woman who have achieved good things , ha ha little did they know!

It is hard because my relationships with them is very differnt now but i also realise that it is us that is most important and not what others think, for us to move on, stop gambling and really start to live a life we deserve then we just have to sometimes shrug our shoulders and say ' i'am doing this for me, this is me and if others don't like it then it's their problem because i'am going to make the best of what i've got'

So Blondie just be the good , honest person you are, you have found your fairytale and that bought a real tear to my eye, and i know you are getting stronger as each day goes on and your life will just become better and better 😉

Keep Strong

Smiling Lucy xxx

How on earth can you task for today be easier - solving the mysteries of life?! I know you were only joking, but still...!

If I was able to tell every single person about my past woes then plenty of illusions would certainly be shattered.

But I am pretty sure that there are many others that I know who harbour a secret addiction.

Who knows?

NT

Day 47 and guess what its raining. Thank you for all your posts everyone its always good to get other peoples view on things . I still havent solved the meaning of life or found answers to the questions so I think if I dont know what to do I wont do anything for now. One thing I do know for sure I wont be placeing any kind me bet today as I approach day 50 again I am quite excited. Been looking at holidays think I am due one somewhere hot and sunny the hunt begins. Enjoy your day all. One day at a time has got me thus far. Blondie day 47

Hope you have a little treat planned in store for yourself on day 50. After all, you will have deserved it.

NT

blondie, one day at a time and keep at it, be kind to yourself, 50 days is in sight and a holiday to book now that would be a great way to mark that milestone! Well done from me! And although the rain pours outside in here our family beams! ! Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hi Blondie

Ahhh a holiday.. sun, sea, sand.. bliss!

I reckon you deserve a holiday after your relentless efforts to rid yourself of this demon!

Coming up to the big half century.. go girl!!!

I'm cheering you on big time! xxxx

Day 48 and the holiday hunting turned into doggie hunting I have wanted a dog for a long time and registered with a rescue centre a while ago but I wanted a puppie but wanted to rescue one rather than buy one. In about 2 hours I am going to look at him which means I am bringing him home lol. He is ten months old a black lab called woody. Oh a little bundle of cuddles to say my little girl is excited is an understatement . Its seems that without gambling I can make decisions quicker , I know it is a big commitment but its what I need to get me a bit more motivated to be up and out I might even start running with him. I am very excited. No thoughts or urge whatsoever to gamble,i am getting on with living thank you very much. Just for today I will make the right choice . Blondie day 48 onwards and forever upwards xx

Hi Blondie,

U r doing brilliant and u go from strength 2 strength 🙂

Ahhh a puppy that will keep u busy, they r gr8 tho.... I bet ur little girl is excited, seeing that is sooo much more rewarding than gambling hey 🙂

Stay strong and keep going xx

Hi Blondie, thanks for the post on my diary.

Yes.. Hitchhikers Guide to the galaxy. It's actually 5 books...( 6 if you count one written by somebody else)... and as they say.. the books are better than the series or the film

Ahhhhh a little puppy...* clenches teeth and prepares to lie*... they are so cute. Sorry not an animal in the home type of person... but on the good side, you'll be able to re read the newspapers that you have to spread on the floor. Good luck with that... sorry to put a downer on this obviously exciting day for you and your little girl.

Glad to hear you upbeat and buzzing.

And give the .... puppy... a cuddle from me.... but wash your hands for me too after.

;O) Jon

Hi Blondie,

Oh Im well jel, u getting a puppy !!

Your journey goes from strength to strength, and you have come so far, a truly inspiring diary 🙂

So happy for you and your family, keep posting and spreading your infectious words.

All the best

Cameron 🙂

Blondie,

You are doing so well. 48 days is amazing.

Great to read you are getting a new puppy. Isn't it amazing how we are all wanting more for ourselves now that we are not gambling. I read many diaries and so many people including myself are now making plans for things that we think will make us happier or better our lives.

And the puppy is lucky to have you as its new parent.

Tomso.

Day 49, And another big milestone looms.

So my life has now changed beyond recoginition with my new member of the family, Me and my youngest daughter was up and out for 6.30 this morning walking round the country park with the big bundle of fun, back home showered, breakfast which is unheard of normally and out by 8.am to drop daughter off at school and doggie at nana day care or (my mums to you ). We loved every minuete of it so im not complaining. 🙂

So its day 50 tomorrow, 50 days and NOT OUT, not one penny lost on gambling, not one ounce of self esteem lost to gambling, Its my second payday on friday and i still have money in the bank from the last one.... Life is looking really good on all fronts and continues on that upward curve.... 😀

Its my 4th session of councelling tomorrow, not sure how that is going to go but im never sure what im going to say until im there and it just comes out but painfull as it is, its also worthwhile.

The holiday hunting went out the window well the holiday hunting abroad did, but i have booked a week in a caravan in August so its something to look forward to with the family, may get something hot and sunny later on in the year when the winter sets in.

I am very happy today, bouncing round the office full of the joys of not gambling and thats the way its gona stay. Just for today i will make the right choice , I will not gamble.

Blondie day 49, excited, happy and lots of other things rolled into one. x

Hi Blondie my pal.... You are so upbeat and on such high... Obvoiusly fightning this addiction brought good in abundance to you and this is brilliant news... Keep it going keep strong and there is more good just round the corner...

Having the big black fat cat cant totally share your puppy excitement ;))) but certainly it s another shot of well going recovery... Will keep champagne on the ice and strawberries co we can celebrate your 50 2morrow. You deserved everything what is good, nice and loving. Well done. Stay safe. K.