Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

Hi ,

Thanks for your post on mine, it really helps

You are going great and it's good to see you have been able to talk with your mum and shift some of that superwoman from your shoulders.

This is about finding you again and by doing that it will make you stronger each day

Your doing really well and keep it up

Keep Strong

Smiling Lucy 🙂

I somehow missed your last post, think I must have been typing whilst you were! That chat with your mum sounds very positive, well done as it can't have been an easy conversation to have. Hope the day has been kind to you. x

Hi Blondie

Thanks for your post its boosted my morale no end.

Glad that you were able to open up to your mum, I kinda know how it feels to share your 'secret' with a loved one. I opened up to my son, and I promised him I would never hurt him or let him down again, and now he's one of the first thoughts that comes into my mind when the urges are upon me.

Im still inspired by your strength and your words are very poignant. Im sure I speak for many of us on here. 🙂 stay strong and thanks again.

Cameron

Hi Blondie,

Thanks a lot . Wow 17 days. Your doing great buddy. You sound very positive yourself. Runnings a good thing. Break a sweat, read a book, climb a tree. Whatever it takes to get the monkey off of our backs. But the support that we all give to one another is incredible. You have mine Blondie. Thank you for yours . Good things are headed our way. All of us here. I feel it.

Keep doing what your doing. Good things will keep coming!

Day 18.. And i really cant beleive it,

I attended my 3rd on line G.A meeting last night and like here the people on there tell our stories over and over again, i think its good to keep active with other peoples stories it brings home what this addiction can do and stops me from getting complacent.

The topic of the meeting was about listening and putting things you have learnt into practice, I think i am doing that all be it slowly ( see post about lowering my expections lol ) but i still had a pang of guilt that im not doing enough.

I need to get my motivation back its gone and left me the past few weeks but i suppose how ive been feeling its to be expected, so again i need to work on not beating myself up to much.

I have had no gambling urges yet and im not sure if im happy or worried about that, i know they will come.

Anyways I am off to london later today im going to the 02 ***** comedy night, that should cheer me up somewhat, a good laugh is exactly what i need.

I wont be posting until sunday which will be day 20 woo hoo, and dont worry i wont be gambling. I am not going to ruin all the hard work i have put in so far.

Just a side note.... I really love reading all my new friends posts and seeing how they are doing it really lifts my spirits when i see how well your all doing. Im proud to be part of your journey also.

So i wish you all a peacefull weekend from the gambling demons.

Stay Stong. One day at a time

Blondie day 18... slightly flat but i know that it will pass. x

Day 18 - go you!!!

The o2 sounds fun, have a lovely time as you totally deserve it. Look forward to hearing all about it on Sunday. 🙂

I would go with happy about the lack of urges, although that's easier said than done I know. Cross that bridge when you come to it and remember that we will all be here to help. I'm counting on that myself!

Take care of yourself and here is a quote we both need to remember:

“Patience and fortitude conquer all things”

Ralph Waldo Emerson

Hi Blondie, thanks for your post on my diary.

You are doing a fantastic job and every day is a new achievement in your epic journey, and as I read your words I can feel your strength and resolve jumping off the page.

Have a fantastic time at the O2, well jel !!

Stay strong onwards and upwards. 😀

Cameron

Hi Blondie, thanks 4 ur kind words and support on my diary 🙂

U r doing gr8!

Have a gr8 time at the O2, u deserve it 🙂

Stay strong

Leaving you a message to find when you get back from your trip. 🙂

I thought you'd like this one:

“People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is revealed only if there is light from within.”

- Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

With everything you are going through you are there for everyone else, posting really supportive messages on so many diaries. I think everyone on here would agree your light is shining. 😀

Hi Blondie!

So glad to hear your doing well, it brings me confidence and drive to do well.

I dont just want to let myself down, everyones comments would be all in vain if I went back to my old ways.

Keep it up...all the best!

Hey Blondie, just been reading your diary - you are doing so well! Hope you had a fab weekend and keep strong x

Day 21... wit wooo an looking good.

Well i had a fantastic time at the 02, they say laughter is the best medicine and it sure worked for me. Lee evans and michael mcintyre were brilliant Its on TV this sunday at 9 watch it if you can.

How do i feel on day 21 like a different person or is it more like the old ME is coming back.

I cant explain how good it feels to have a clear mind from the gambling demons, I was thinking this weekend about all the torture i would of put myself through the past 21 days if i had still been gambling and how much calmer and happy i feel that i have chosen not to do that anymore. Life can be complicated enough without making it worse.

I have my second appointment with the counceller tomorrow and i hope that i can continue to heal myself in small steps. I know my dad would be proud of me.

Was a bit gutted about the footie results but as RED runs through my veins and always will theres always next year, sometimes you have to feel the pain to make you that bit stonger.

I hope all are keeping strong, and thank you as always for your messages. I love the sunday saying littlebit.

Blondie day 21 3 weeks.. Onwards and upwards x

Well done on your three weeks, you are a few days behind me and I can relate to how you are feeling at the moment, it is lovely to think clearly again isn't it and to feel like your old self again.

Sounded like your had a great time watching two classic comedians, Lee Evans is my favorite of all time and I am very jealous. I watched Peter Kay there the other year.

Sounds like the counselling is really working for you, I too have had 3 weeks and for me it is so warming to have that one on one time, with a professional.

Keep up the good work and have a strong week, your dad will be proud of you, I am.

Wilsy (Andy). x

well done for your 3 weeks blondie00!

its great that you had a laugh this wknd, we gamblers need that more than normal people!

keep going, nothing will stop you now from your goal to remain bet free!

take care

mike 36 days gamble free

Hi Blondie,

Congratulations on reaching your 3 week milestone. Amazing !!

Your weekend sounds like u had the bestest time, its heartening to read your diary coz we can feel your happiness in your words (if that makes sense).

You've come so far in your journey, you've had a lot to contend with, and you've shown that it CAN be done. You've given your dad so much to be proud of and you should be so proud of yourself. He'll be up there looking down on you saying "thats my girl".

Have a good day, stay strong

Cameron - day 19 no more slots.