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Day 143,

Yesterday was a bit s**t cant really articulate it better than that lol. Today is a better day. Still no smoking coming into week 5 now the dieting is confusing me im going to order some new scales, i weigh myself and ive lost weight then i weigh myself again and i havent, cant work it out.

Anyways im not fretting to much about it, Im feeling healthier although i think all the cr** is starting to come off my chest now so feeling a bit weezy.

So i cant post any pictures from saturday there all on my facebook though but i have a video maybe i could post that ?

I climbed mount snowdon on saturday 3060 feet and 8 miles we didnt climb it when we was on holiday in wales, we got the steam train.

Saturday was a beautiful day, sunny and clear, It started as a bit of a joke in the week with the BF he loves the mountains so i said i would do it in jest. I never ever thought i would get to the top but then actually thinking about it over the last few days I knew i wasnt going to stop and even if i had to crawl to the top i would do it.

I have never really understood when people say "You hit the wall" but i wasnt even at the top and i did, i felt like i had been run over by a bus a few times and wanted to cry felt quite emotional , so we stopped I ate some fruit pastalls, full of sugar and some nuts, took my shoes off and rested for a while and then was ready to go.

We was still about 45 mins walking time from the top but it was the hardest bit, the steps where made for Giants i think, a man was coming down and we asked how long to get to the top and he said about 45 mins, I asked is it easy and he said "No i wont lie its not" But every step you take is a step nearer". That comment at the time hit me and somehow gave me the determination to carry on.

Appropriate I think for this journey. When we reached the top I realised it was worth every step and the massive blisters that i had gained on the way up. The view was spectacular, clear and you could see for miles and miles and the feeling of achievement , well ive never experienced anything like it.

My boyfriend had said all the way up we could ge the train down, but we couldnt as it was a 2 hour wait and then you wasnt guaranteed a seat, so we walked down as well, it was much easier.

What did i learn from this, A million things.... Im stronger than i think, Im more determined than i ever thought possible if i put my mind to something. Im totally unfit lol..

Mental strength beats physical strength, My body was beyond tired but my mind made it carry on.

Would i do it again. errmmm ask me in a few weeks when i have recovered lol.

Was it worth it. 1 million percent yes.

Blondie. or edmumd hillary as my BF keeps calling me lol

xxx

A brilliant thread Blondie. Totally inspiring and a delight to read. You're as tough as that mountain you climbed. Don't worry too much about your weight, you've probably lost fat and replaced it with muscle due to the walking etc. Muscle weighs a lot more than fat so it's perfectly possible to look toned and slimmer but weigh the same before you dieted or even more.

Take care

Steve

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Shiny xxxxxxxxx

whooo hoo..Ms Hillary....and maybe Ms Bonnington??...sounds more northern but will have to Google...lol

Well yes the journey started with taking that once small step and now look at ya!

Everest next? or Kilamanjaro?....

Great to see your in such fine fettle lovely and look forward to hearing more of these inspirational stories...

Forget Blondie...Your Goldie today....a medal for ya xxx

R and D xx

ps...Im going to be just off Deansgate/King St end

Hello lovely.

I remember when my hubby quit smoking (about 7 yrs ago now, so proud of him!) he too had a horrible cough as all the gunk cleared out. Didn't last long, couple of weeks if I remember correctly.

As for the mountain, most of us are climbing ours figuratively, trust you to go and do it literally!! ;P I walked up Snowdon in my late teens and can totally connect with how you found the experience. Well except the view as it was really cloudy so we couldn't see much of anything! The thing that sticks out most in my mind is 'the wall' point, I desperately wished for a helicopter to appear out of the sky and rescue me but given the likelihood of that happening had no choice but to keep going! I almost crawled the last really steep bit embarrassingly - heights are not my forte! Had to walk back down too for the same reason, how mean of the train passengers to all buy return tickets eh lol.

I know I don't post as much as I should at the moment but I do pop on to read from time to time and just wanted you to know I always look in on you and am so proud of how you are doing. Truly amazing. xx

Hey,

Thanks for your post to me, and thanks for your post on your own diary. The inspiration people draw from you is pretty much endless. The ultimate 100mph girl and always ready to take on a challenge. I do feel I am getting there with motivation and wanting to achieve but baby steps, not climbing Snowdon lol!

Still gamble free, still smoke free and still weighing yourself too often by the sounds of it. Give yourself a chance and don't weigh every few hours 🙂 always weigh naked and if the results are not what you want you could try Kilimanjaro next I hear that's pretty high!

Great to see you ever moving forward and 150 is a good day to stop the count you know I always have you covered if you ever need to know the number.

Flagg

P.s Barcelona fund going great at least £157 as it's £1 a day every day I have not gambled 🙂

The start of the climb, Snowdon.

Shot at 2012-09-12

The view from the top. Worth every single step.. and have the blisters to prove it. x I forgot Jonb shown us this little gem how to upload piccys etc.. thanks jon.. Hope all is well with you.. we miss you and your terry pratchett quotes.

http://img823.imageshack.us/i…38/48mbrspudmmirykoticmiw.mp4

Hi Blondie,

Absolutely bloody fantastic?

Love the story and the vid. Looks like it was blowing hard up there too!

I am sure that was very exhilarating, more so than any gambling could give you.

I had a similar experience when I was in Morocco and climbed one of Atlas Mountains, only went 2000 ft but was 100 degrees that day, was difficult with altitude too. Every time I get an urge now I am gonna think about what it feels to be at the top.

So thank you Blondie and very very well done! Next for paragliding?

Take care,

A.N. xx

DAY 144,

No bet today thank you very much. Just got in from work its been a mad day. I have a very stressfull few weeks coming up as its results time in november and I need to make sure everything is in place before then. Next week I have a couple of fun days planned for my teams before the madness begins.

I used to operate at 500 mile an hour when i gambled and never really give 100 pc attention to anything.

I find now that i can focus better, plan better and still multi task but with much more focus, gambling sucks all the life out of your soul and leaves you life-less.

Just for today I will keep claiming mine back.

Blondie No bet today.

XXX

Blondie

Wow what a difference a day makes!!!! Yesterday you had a shadow lurking today the ray of light shines from deep within, well done you.

Just for today my friend.

Duncs stepping forward never back

Hey Blondie,

Thanks for the post. I relate to your latest. I have a very responsible job but was more interested in the racing and football results. Now I can give the job the concentration it deserves. Spot on.

Day 144, great stuff! Well done.

Blondes have more fun. Tempted to do a blonde joke but need to test the water first. 🙂

A.N xx

Morning Blondie,

Thank you for your messages. All is well this end - still playing the waiting game but hope to have some news for you soon! Nearly a week overdue now!

Great to read that you are doing so well.

I hope that you have a great weekend.

Take care

Dave X

Hey Blondie,

I had forgotten how much I love that track you posted on paulds diary. I will now use that as my latest signature tune (borrow it) in my fight against the demon. I'm not going back. Only a few more days to the big 150 for you! So thank you for that, I will post you something back that I hope you will like. It's something I like to sing along to but hey I am a rocker! Thank you. A.N x

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qhtgxS6z9yo

day 145.

Not sure i will be climbing snowdon this weekend lol....

Today has been a bit like the weather dark and grey in places, I fear a stressfull weekend coming on and it hasnt even started yet, but im not projecting i cant influence tomorrow.

Ive been speaking with my mum and my BF for the past few days about my mum moving in with me at the end of october, I am willing to compromise slightly to accomodate her, ideally my house isnt big enough but with everything up in the air re my boyfriends house not selling its difficult for us to look at the future as such. The plan is we buy something bigger together if his house ever sells.

But life is short and can change in the blink of an eye, I know my mum is struggling and she doesnt really want to be on her own and she has someone that will rent her house, but my bf thinks it wont work, its to small and things will be tricky, im willing to go with the flow.

SO its stalemate. I feel frustrated about the lack of movement but im trying to also make sure my mum is ok, hence her moving in short term .

This is where my bad behavouir comes out and i have to be carefull, my attitude is well f*** you.. but i know that is childish and selfish... So chewing lots of nicorette gum and trying not to work myself into a frenzy that an argument is brewing...

Day 144,, a bit of a s*****r.

blondie xxx