Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

hey hun

i have no idea how I keep missing peoples posts so apols for missing yours...

first of all well done on the smoking hun....and wit woooo on the kini..

second of all...your bf gonna love my dot..shes the prettiest of all russells..

thirdly...hope it goes ok at the docs hun,..sounds like a cyst or boil but the quack will sort it.

thanks for posting hun and yes...its raining..still!!!

2 days now...pretty much constant.

love to woody and licks from dotty xxx

R and D xxx

Hi Blondie,

You are certainly tackling all things head on, abstaining from gambling, smoking while dieting - give yourself a massive pat on the back because the willpower that requires is huge.

Thanks for the support over the past few days, absolutely invaluable and I am willing you on to achieve all your goals in life

Take Care

Blues

Bf didnt leave for down south till this morning and i have been working from home today had the doctors earlier, its just a wart on my scalp so have an app in a few weeks to have it removed.

Had lots of urges today to gamble and to smoke, im fighting my way through them as i have no intention of doing either but its been a tough day, off to a G.A meeting later i think to calm the old head.

I try not to get annoyed now if they come but i havent had an urge for a while now, I try to understand where there coming from and just ride the storm out, I hate giving them any more power over me, gambling took that away from me and im not giving it back.

Im an addict get that into your head blondie and work through it, Im no better or worse than anyone else somedays this thing has me gripped no matter how easy I think its been so far some days its a battle one which i have won for the past 160+ days.... No surrender.. Im not giving in today either so foookkkkk off urges lol.

Blondie xxx

Blondie, as youj advised me, get to that GA meeting - you will feel that familiar inner peace and calm when you come out. It is the ONLY thing you can do today, however much I admire your resolve by telling the urges where to go!!

Remember, you need three things to gamble - time (absence that you dont need to explain), fuel (money) and location (ie computer, bookies etc), take one or more of these away, and you have it licked for today. Getting to a GA meeting takes away at least two, location and time - No bet today Blondie, keep strong

Blues

Hi Blondie,

Be Strong girlfriend, bf going home and worry about the head prob bought the buggers out today !

Keep remembering all your achieving and just how bloody strong you are!

Quitting smoking too , i just couldn't do it tbh so a huge congratulations!

Your doing just fine and i'm sure they will subside again soon

Hope the meeting helps tonight too

Glad nothing too serious at the docs too

Keep Strong

Lucy xxxxxxxxx

Hey Blondie...

Thinking you may be in your meeting right now hun....glad you can get your scalp sorted and as for those urges as they say "this too will pass"

Your probably just a bit run down..detoxing takes a hit on your bod too...in a weird way you have to build up to detox and your packing in so much change right now in a relatively short space of time..

Take it easy hun...no rush ...(like the pot calling kettle black...lol)

hugs

R and D xx

Hi Blondie.

Thanks for popping by on my post and taking the time to comment. Well done on not giving in to the urges today. I'm strugging like mad trying to give up 2 vices at the same time, so i know how difficult it is for you.

All the best for your continued recovery

Keith

We'll all have days like this Blondie, the odd urge etc, the secret is to just get through them and not give them the power or attention they desire. As long as your barriers are in place and you stick to your routines you'll be fine. You've took on huge amounts of positive change in the last six months, change which would have tested the strongest person but you've came through it this far, your willpower will be tested from time to time but that surely is a price worth paying. I also believe that in the next few months many of us will be put under more pressure than usual, Spring and Summer have now past, the darker colder days are returning, people may return to gambling through lack of activity or boredom in the winter months. Also with Christmas on the horizon people need extra cash, this may trigger the 'easy money' gambling route option. We all have urges but different triggers, use those urges to get to the source of your trigger. Understanding gives you power and further control.

I've every faith in you because I know you won't go down without a fight. Take care

Steve

ps ....

Check out Betty and Butch doggy boutique in Chorlton...lol...it's bling central for wuffs and they have some amazing clobber in and loads of treats (like antler chews!!) plus lots of add on services...

R and D xx

Hi blondie. Thank you for posting on my diary. Read your last few posts. As you said, pilot light is always on with this addiction, we have to be carefully not to fuel it. You've been so strong so far, I'm sure you'll be able to say 'today I've done something amazing!!! I didn't gamble!!!' for many days to come. It's just an urge, it'll pass. As you do wisely said once, we have to deal with the underlying problem that sends our thoughts towards gambling. I'm just like you, I can go for months and months without even thinking of gambling, and then, bang, I used to just go, or enter a bookie without even thinking, for a 'bit of fun' which 99% of the time transformed very quickly into a disaster that engulfed all finances that were available at the time and left me so empty inside and disappointed. Don't give in, like u said in ur first post, do whatever it takes... All the best blondie. If it helps, whenever I feel very low( that's almost all the time) I listen to 'I will survive'!!! Kind of helps me with my depression, which is the aftermath of so many years of gambling, so many financial and emotional losses. Chin up and keep on the straight and narrow.

Hi Blondie - thx for your kind words of support in my blogging corner. I hope you went well through yesterday. Glad to see how politely you told your urges what they can do and where they can go :))))) Keep it going that way and they will go for good - at some point obviously. Weather still terrible but hope you have got nice, warm, comfy and gamble free shelter to survive such treacherous conditions. All the best.

K.

Yo,

Recon and feel free to correct me if I am wrong ....

That you only needed a quick squirt of raid to send that urge packing .

More importantly you have woken up today , feeling nothing bout that fact it came at all . Which if I am right is a massive step forward as the last one you had stirred up much more emotion and a bit of disappointment that it came in the first place 🙂

Do not think they will ever completely disappear which is a shame but it is what it is.

Hope you are ok ,

Hugs

Shiny xxxxxxx

Blondie, my old China!

How’s it going? Thank you as ever for your post 🙂

Those bloody urges eh? They paid me a visit at the weekend and stayed around for quite a while! Reminds me of that old neighbour, the one that knocks on your door when you least expect it and hangs around like a bad smell no matter how much you hint that you want her to b*gger off cos you’ve got better things to do! The trick is to ignore her until she gets the message.. 😉 Sometimes it takes a while, but you get there in the end!!

Glad the doctors appointment went well and it was nothing serious.

Love the new diary title… Shawshank… my favourite film of all time bar none! Anything is possible eh? Even if you have to crawl through a tunnel full of s**t, there is always light at the end if you persevere hard enough!!!

Well done mate on your continued success with the gambling and the smoking… hats off Blondie.. you continue to inspire, although I have yet to tackle the smoking issue 😉 Also glad you are still on track with project bikini!!

Love reading your diary mate.. keep it up!!

Have a good week buddy!!

Lmm xxxx

Hi Blondie,

Great job fighting off those wicked urges. Like a villian in an old 80's horror flic -- you think you've killed the bas tard and he sits right back up!! Thanks for your example of strength my friend! Keep fighting and stay strong! -joan

God yesterday was a real killer had urges coming from all directions. It was quite confusing for me because I think there was a lot of smoking urges in there as well which is weird because i think this is week 7 for me on that addiction.

But i didnt give in to either, I put off going to shop at all because i would of bought some cigs and all my gambling blocks protected me from gambling.

I went into a bit of poor me syndrome yesterday which happens but quite rarely now as I try to pull out positives in everything I do.

Today i have smacked myself round the head and although still feel a bit urghhhh I am counting my blessings and thankfull that yesterday I made the right choices all round.

160+ days ago I wouldnt have even thought them through I would have just jumped back in the gambling washing machine and not given a toss.

Today I value me more and the people I love and the commitment I give to my diary and G.A to ruin that.

Taking it easy today, I fainted last night after smashing the back of my hand on my patio doors whilst trying to open it, woke up on the floor with woody licking my face. o*g never known pain like it think thats why i fainted .... Have the makings of a spectacular bruise on my hand, but i can move all my fingers just about so i dont think anything is broken.

Thank you everyone for your supportive posts yesterday it was just what i needed to stay focused and remain strong.

Take care all.

Blondie xxx