Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

Morning,

Not sure whether I should be sympathetic because you are poorly or horrified you turned to Jeremy Kyle :). One of the things we are told is to tie up our time and I guess technically even Jeremy fulfills that. Not that I have ever seen it but must agree with the dentist comment and oh my life what a savagely ugly bunch they tend to be too.

Anyway, absolute thumbs up for you. Feeling a little low, feeling cr**, lots of empty time on your hands I know for me in the past that would have been gamble day, wild stab but I reckon same for you. Weird but sometimes it takes a tinge of adversity to remind us how far we have come. You my friend have come just about as far as anyone.

Flagg

The lergy has gone and im feeling much better, still lacking in energy somewhat but im hopeing that will continue to get better.

Had a really productive weekend, All new bedroom carpets now fitted upstairs which match the hall and stairs one I got done a few months ago.

Paid for my holiday today Yikesssss..... 950 quid lighter ouch !! But i know it will be worth it getting quite excited, what does any of that have to do with gambling you might ask ?

Now that i dont gamble I find that I will committ more to spending money and plan things because I know i dont need to save it as my gambling money.

My little girl is also going away on new years eve with her step grandad and his wife and daughter who is the same age as my daughter but its a surprise, me and her dad have gone half on it which has cost me another 350 quid, having to shell out this kind of money months ago would just have drove me to gamble to try and win it,

There is such a sense of acheivement from saving it, I do still sometimes think about the money I have wasted on gambling but its just a fleating thought and one that wont drive me back to chase it.

Today I will not gamble Today I will have a programme i may not follow it exactly but I will have one.

Blondie x

Hey Blondie!

What a brilliant post yet again!! I am soooo jealous of your upcoming holiday but know that if anyone deserves it, it is you, my friend!!

Lovely new, lush carpets and a holiday for your little girl to boot!! My, my oh blonde one.. you really are showing us the benefits of being gamble free!!

Thank you mate.. you never fail to inspire!

Have a good week!

Lmm xxxx

Blondie

Another great post, I for one with honesty can say there was countless where my addiction led me to believe I should get something for no input, except loading a machine with notes or a till tray!!!! A fella at my GA once said to a new member, what do you get when you go in a shop?? Us we go to the betting shop, come out with at best tommorrows stake at worst a pen!!!! And for what we pay, it should be mont blanc!!!!! For me very apt.

Keep making the choice, lifes delivering results for your emmense efforts.

Well done, thanks for sharing.

Duncs stepping forward never back

Hey Blondie,

Just thought I'd check in on your diary and say congrats on whatever you are up to (170ish days?). Awesome effort.

Where are you going on your holiday? I went back quite a bit on your diary but couldnt find where you might have said. Anyway I'm sure it will be nice. I'm hoping to have one before the end of the year as well.

All the best and thanks for the posts on mine!

Dom

Evening Blondie

What a fantastic post about paying for your holiday ...you should be so proud of yourself. That must be a great feeling to know you have not only bought new carpets but also holidays when once that money would of gone on gambling...so well done Blondie!

You deserve happy things in life

Keep strong

Forwards not back

Jewels x

It must feel great buying stuff that you need, want or will enjoy. It's great knowing that because you've stopped gambling you have the funds to enjoy things you never could've done before. I'm a little off that stage but know it'll come and I know with gambling i'd be in much worse shape.

Well done blondie it's great to see your recovery going so well and your enjoying your new gamble free life. Following your diary is inspirational. Your a real success story on here. Enjoy everything good that comes your way you deserve it.

hey Blondie..

Thank you so much for supporting me today..its been up and down...hey! bikini time sooooon....!

You deserve it hun and you have worked so hard with recovery and to get into a place where you are now back in th driving seat....you must feel really proud and a sense of achievement...

I shall keep me old humour going and try not to lapse into cockney rhyming slang as I start mimicking people within seconds...

Only just started talking normally after doing impressions of Vicus from that film District 9 for about a month!

Anyhooo my lovely...you take care and I shall catch up when i can this week...if not writing..i shall be reading..

((((hugs ))))

R with no Doo : ( ......lol

Yo,

So pleased you are feeling better and new carpets up the apples and pears . ( threw that one in for Rach)lol

Today I recon we are beginning to count our blessings , when before its was so difficult to believe we had any .

Hugs

Shiny xxxxxxx

still feeling a bit rubbish and now have 2 cold sores coming up.... Great !!! Just in time for my friends wedding on saturday 🙁

Another gamble free one chalked up but feel some kind of black cloud looming over me... Had a few tears last night miss my dad so much and maybe that has spilled over into today.

Thanks for all your posts. I am off to try and catch up on some sleep will try and post to all when im feeling a bit more positive.

Blondie x

I hate cold sores, the oldest herpes virus on the planet, it was around with the dinosaurs and feeds of practically every vertebrate on earth, even the fish in the sea are susceptible to it. This useless piece of information is probably cold comfort right now. When I get them, and I'm due one soon, I feel lousy and overwhelmingly self conscious like I've got a sugar P**f stuck to my lip. And when I look into the eyes of those whom I'm talking too they flash back at me with poorly hidden disgust or so it seems. Oh, God this isn't very comforting, where am I going with this ramble? The beauty of cold sores is as you know they don't last, they raise their ug I mean materialise when we are run down. In a few days you'll be back to your bouncing, bubbly beautiful self again and the misery and lethargy that's enveloping you now will be a distant memory. Get well soon Blondie, rest well, keep positive, Cape Verde and beautiful sunshine is just over the horizon.

Steve

Yo,

Had to chuckle a bit at the stegs post there .

Can just imagine one of his poor students going to him with a problem , please sir I have an enormous boil on my b*m , can you tell me what to do ????????

Take a seat son,..............

I really hope you are feeling a bit better today and that you do not have to go into work .

Hugs

Shiny xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Blondie.

Let me top that glass back up to half-full

A WEDDING!!!!!!!!!!!! must mean new shoes,dress and a new doooo!!!!!

Hello,bring back my Blondie!!!!!!

There topped up again!!

duncs stepping forward never back.

Hey there lovely. Methinks you should listen to your body, you sound run down and in need of a bit of pampering hun. I'm the same at the moment (except my stress signs are persistent headaches and indigestion issues) which unfortunately only serves to make me feel even more miserable! The time of year doesn't help I don't think but also I don't think it's surprising that you (we!) are struggling physically with everything you have been and are going through emotionally. Definitely time for a big helping of 'be kind to yourself'.

I know this isn't much help but I'm keeping you company under that black cloud - here's hoping it lifts soon for both of us! x

Yo,

You know mate , onwards is ok, if we went upwards everyday we would be in mars , or Venus or god forbid your an us ( opppppps wonder if that will get the star treatment )lol

So pleased I made you laugh , cause we both know that was my aim. And recon the STEG might have a little chuckle himself . Cause laughter is the BESTEST medicine .

Hugs more hugs and even more

Shiny xxxxxxx