Givingup4good recovery diary

Thanks ODAAT 1 full week today. Working tonight and normally I'd gamble 'for something to look out for' and end up chasing loses. Not tonight tho. This night can drag in all it wants.

Day 8 - Saturday, normally another football bet would get placed. Followed immediately by a horse bet. Not today. Don't have the urge too today either. Just looking forward to watching the football.

enjoy your Saturday guys

Day 9. Unbelievable urges. Glad I'm self excluded from any accounts I held online bcos it's the only way I can gamble today as I'm working.

Keep fighting, every fight makes you stronger 🙂

Don't throw it away now with double figures knocking @ your door! It's hard but oh so worth it!

Stay strong - ODAAT

Thanks ODAAT really appreciate your support, advice and words of encouragement. Hope alls well with you and you've enjoyed the weekend.

Finding myself contemplating setting up accounts with sites I've never gambled with, even opened the sites and had a look at what offers they do for new customers. I won't. But I need to say it here. Is there blocking software for iPhones? Don't think even if there is that I'd be keen to run it on my phone mg battery life takes a hammering as it is.

Anyway. Only a few more hours until day 10.

It's an app called K9. You need to get someone else to put in a four code pin. You then can't use safari but can use K9 search and it's as good as safari to be fair.

Thanks change. I've things in place which are stopping me from gambling right now, I went browsing (almost like a form of self torture), if I get the point where I know I'm going to sign up ill get k9. I've a friend who would put a code in and never give me it so he might get a visit.

Keep giving up 4 good pal and never ever look back and thing of placing a bet. Just one single bet ends up with disaster. You can do this. Stay strong.

Glad to hear you are still going strong!

keep resisting the temptation....all setting up a new account will do is start the all too familiar spiral which ultimately ends up with a substantial loss of money!

getting though weekends are always tough to begin, especially as a fellow sports gambler, but you've done it so be proud and look forward

Thanks change. Thanks fighter 1. I'm annoyed with myself for even thinking about gambling. I've won a fortune in the past few months and lost the heap and more bcos I can't stop at a win. I'm in debt and I have a payday loan coming out of my wages. These reasons for any sane thinking person would be enough to not think about gambling. Not me. Mr blasГ©. I've been in this situation so often it doesn't even stress me out anymore as much as it should do. I need to keep going. Make day 14, then 21, then 28 and onwards. It's the only way to get out of debt for me now. I can't rely on 'winning' bcos I never stop. I only lose.

Just needed that last late night rant. Ill get complacent far too quickly if I don't vent and remind myself how stupid I've been. How serious my situation is. And stop pretending it isn't. Would be great to be 'normal' and stick to a fiver once a week. I see people posting their bet slips from turning 5 quid into 100 quid and think I'd of put 50quid on that, 100quid on that. And that's exactly the reason I'm in the situation I'm in. A win isn't enough for me. Always chasing. Even when I've 'won'.

Anyways tomoro is another day.

Thanks for the continued support it really does make a difference to me and reading all your stories that you've kindly and bravely shared have helped a lot too.

GU4G

Completely agree with you about not appreciating the financial implications of the situation....I had overdrafts, credit cards etc and each month I just paid the fees, interest as though it was normal and then just began gambling with the rest.

The money situation improves when you start reaching those targets and you won't believe how much better it will make you feel!

Day 10. The day before the big one. Day 11 is payday. I'd almost wish payday was another week away. How crazy does that sound? I'm skint so it's easier not to gamble at the minute. Tomorrow tho I pay back a payday loan (the last one I'll ever take hopefully), book flights to take me and the girlfriend away somewhere for a weekend and pay my bills. Whatever's left WILL NOT BE GAMBLED. Not this time. What's left will put petrol in my car, food in the cupboards and be used to live a proper life with. If I don't gamble I'm fortunate enough to earn enough money to live on and pay back my debts (hopefully promptly). If I do gamble I won't have enough to get by and accumulate more debt.

Rant 10. Over and out. Ill post tomorrow night and let you know how successful I've been.

GU4G

Just dropping by to say great work on reaching double figures 🙂 & be strong crossing that bridge tomorrow! I get that you wish you had another week under your belt but you don't need it, you can do it now!

Lots of talk on here about removing location from the triangle but can you get the money for the month somewhere inaccessible so that you can't use it online? That way temptation can knock as hard as it likes but there won't be any giving in!

You are doing great! Keep it up - ODAAT

Thanks ODAAT appreciate your words of encouragement.

Day 11 - Payday.

Instantly a quarter of my wages away because of a payday loan. Sickens me to think I was 2k in the black 8 weeks ago and I'm now over 1k in debt. But this is only a little compared to how much debt I used to have.

When I've had payday loans in the past normally what I would do is deposit money instantly into my betting accounts and try to win the money back.

The urge to do that this morning is there but I'm not listening.

Even if I was to 'win the money back' I know now that it still wouldn't be good enough.

I do miss being able to gamble, having the rush, but I don't miss the feelings of guilt and hating myself when I don't win and delve further into debt. I'm just going to continue to remind myself every day that if I don't gamble and can beat this I will make it to the next payday with enough money. A couple of months and I'll be out of debt and feel better about myself.

Ranting on again here. But it helps to get it out there. Keeps me accountable. For too long this has been a secret. My family and my girlfriend deserve better. They don't need to be worrying about me and I don't need to be adding to their problems.

Day 15 is my next target to meet.

GU4G