Got to be strong

I am on Day 6, okay at the moment, but reading these posts really helps. I am going to be following you Firststep and Loxxie as my Mentors - hope that is okay

Sounding good first step....look forward to that night out at the end of the month....even ex gamblers need to party..Lol...well done on firming up the blocks...just makes you a bit safer....and hi chipsdog and welcome....thanks for your kind words but there are many more ex gamblers on here with many more gamble free days under there belt who can offer you way more help than I can.....but feel free to read and comment on my rants of it helps....xxx

Just wanted to check in......day 4 I think, doing okay. xx

Where are we now? day 5 I think. So I've joined the gym, filled my car with petrol, booked my car in for a repair, bought some nice new things to wear, had a night out, got another one planned for end of month. d**n all that doesn't even come to the £450 I blew last Saturday. Got to be a big lesson in there. Going to take me a bit longer to get out the overdraft but at least I have some things to show for my money this month. Spent the entire day cleaning like a mad woman, didn't even think about slots, just looking forward to a weekend with my kids.

Hiya first step , your doing fine , just take one day at a time and deal with things as they happen . Well done on making those blocks a bit bigger, the more doors you close and bolt tight , the less chance mr Gamble gets to come in when he decides to call ! Have a great day and enjoy time with your kids ! Take care for now. Alan

Well done firststep....lovely to hear you enjoyed spending cash on normal things....like you said it's crazy compared to what we chucked in th slots.....but that was then....and this is now...so have a wonderfull weekend with the children....and be proud x

So Saturday was a trigger for me again unfortunately. I had a couple of accounts still open and one I must have increased the limit at some point. I gambled Saturday and lost £200, gambled Sunday to the tune of £180 and for the grace of God managed to recover my monies and get out. I know now that I need to make sure everything is closed, I also need to make sure that Saturday isn't a trigger for me as that has been the only day in weeks. I'm not pleased to be saying that I gambled but I have just been feeling really out of sorts lately since I've made the decision to stop. Feeling sick in the pit of my stomach, almost like I'm dealing with everything at once rather than brushing it under the carpet. I know I'm getting there though, even through the slip ups.

Hey firststep...sorry to hear about your bad day...but it's not the end of the world....maybe you were trying to deal with to much to soon...remember litle steps. ..brush yourself off and try again love......up those guards a little bit more maybe.xx
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Hey firststep...sorry to hear about your bad day...but it's not the end of the world....maybe you were trying to deal with to much to soon...remember litle steps. ..brush yourself off and try again love......up those guards a little bit more maybe.xx
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Morning Firststep and thanks for your post , yeah , normals a word I love these days ! . Just looking at your post and hopefully you can see what I said about leaving doors open rings true , admittedly you didn't do any damage financially but it could have been a lot worse !.

I'm not here to preach but you know what you have to do to stay safe now , close everything ,leave nothing open so at least when an urge comes there's nowhere to available to do any damage .

You are getting there so don't beat yourself up over it , just take as a lesson learned about how easy we can go back when thiose doors aren't locked ! .

Hope you have a great gamble free day !

Best wishes .......................Alan Compulsive Gambler !

Well blocks are stronger now, changed K9 code and don't know it. It's good as the impulse has been there to play but I can't.

It's all a learning curve and I feel I'm getting there.

Yeah...you go girl..xxx

What a difference not knowing that code. It's out of my hands now.

Feeling positive, read a few diary's and some peeps doing well. Seems to brush off on you.

Got money in the bank and that's where it's staying. Got my car repair done, was nice not to put it off any longer.

Got plans for the weekend and none that involve gambling. 🙂

I'm doing okay and feeling happy. Things are going not too badly. Busy day today, friend for coffee, gym, swimming, sauna, study. Tomorrow, kids to a soft play party, Sunday day out with the family. In a little over 2 weeks the overdraft will be gone then onwards and upwards with replacing savings.

Feeling positive.

Well up and down and now I've got to somewhere I feel comfortable. In the end I got round to installing K9 on 3 laptops in the house as I needed to after gambling. I think I'm okay now, got other things to concentrate on and somehow feeling different now.

Have to say my emotions where all over the place and it is very unsettling, you would think making the decision to stop would be easy but it's not as simple as that.

I'm a bright, even intelligent woman (if I do say so myself) but to find that something has got a hold of you and it's not easy to control is the strangest feeling ever.

I don't know if it will ever really be behind me or if any more slip ups will come but I do feel that it is finally over. Will pop on again with an update in a few weeks and see where I am.

Good luck peeps.