Have to start afresh for my son max bear diary.

Hi Bear

Sorry to hear this, try to keep busy and in those moments of solitude concentrate on how you will make the life's of Max & Alex even better when they return ! this will help you. It's another test for you but to date you have done brilliantly, you simply do not need all the hell and heartache of gambling anymore in your life.

Dark Place /

Struggling last couple of days been turning racing on looking at odds my family away the devil turns up to take their place he holds my hand strokes my back my god he's clever he keeps whispering in my hear about all the money I can win for what? My soul ? My family ? My sanity? Getting through this is my biggest test yet. day 147 still fighting ...

The bear x

Hey bear,

147 days that is a really big achievement, it really is, think of all your hard work, think of all you have achieved, within yourself, and your lovely family, yes this is a big test for you my friend, but you can do this you really can, it is only nasty thoughts, you can get through this, stay strong the nasty thoughts will subside, and you will feel on top of the world, keep starving it, it will give up, think of when your family come home, it's not long the days will soon go by.

Sending you positive and strong thoughts bear, and hold on tight.

Suzanne xxx

Thank you suzanne for that lovely supportive post it helped me yesterday 🙂 really appreciate it x day 148 got through no more to say really just hoping today is easier 🙂 x

The bear x

Hi bear,

Well done on yesterday, 148 days today, WOW, keep strong and stay safe, it's Thursday already.

Suzanne xxx

Thanks Suzanne day 149 struggling a little but still clear x

The bear x

Day 150 horrible sore throat to wake up to but all good in bears life no gambling today 🙂 x

The bear x

Well done Bear - 150 days is a great achievement and a really good milestone. Sorry to hear you have a bad throat but try to remember how bad gambling make us feel. I am sure like me, you will agree that it makes us feel much much worse than any bad throad. Fight it off Bear and carry on what you are doing. You are doing great.

Take care and look after yourself.

Feb.

Hi bear,

Another wonderful milestone reached..keep on keeping on and be proud dear friend!

Ps. Hope that cold will clear soon, look after yourself. Little bear will need a huge hug from big bear on a arrival back home 😉

Sandra xxx

Well done on a 150 bear. Great acheivement. keep it up

150 days, simply an amazing achievement bear, another big milestone, and sooo pleased to read all is good in bears world, NO GAMBLING, I know it's been very hard for you this week, but you are doing it bear, be very proud, it's Saturday already, not long now, proud of you my friend.

Suzanne xxx

Thanks all much appreciated day 151 alls good have nice Sunday everyone x

Hi bear,

Well done, keep strong and focused, you are doing just fine.

Suzanne xx

Day 152 after the toughest week I've had for few months I got through just the picture of my little boy and girlfriend on my phone helped massively why didn't I place a bet I had access to money I just couldn't go through the mental pain and put my family through the mental pain either, my 10 month old can pick up negative emotions what more reason do I need I'm not tarnishing his life as well no way have good week all x

The bear x

The bear.

Fella I have just posted on two new authors threads here, their stories raw and their lives are freshly devastated by their gambling.

152 days ago you arrested your own self gifted misery.

It took huge courage and will do for the rest of your life.

Take great heart, keep adding to the distance between your life today and what it was when you were actively self destructing it.

As you wrote, what better motivation do you need.

Recovery is the one selfish act that will have a positive impact on the folk you hold dear.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back.