Hello folks

Good afternoon, 

I Just had a grilled steak with mash potato, sprouts, garden peas, roast potatoes and gravy. Very very tasty.

Why do we need to know what toad had for dinner you ask?

BECAUSE I want to highlight that it's the simple things that matter in this life. A nice dinner is so much nicer when you realise you aren't  gambling and there's more to life.

Wishing you all a gamble free day and get yourself a nice meal and enjoy oneself. 

Toad ? 

Good morning all, 

 Can I just say if you have 100 doors closed and you leave one open you will gamble.

Just had a toasted crumpet covered in marmalade washed down by a very strong coffee. ☕

? Good morning all amphibians and land based mammals.

Today is the day.

After two and a half years me and Mrs Toad will Foster 2 children till this Monday. 

There is more to gambling. I was able to send my bus travel refund to my wife so we can both use it for better things.

I have only 3 bills I manage. Tesco loan, payment to credit union for savings and equifaX. 

 I wish you all a gamble free day.

Toad ? 

Hi everyone, 

Me and Mrs Toad busy fostering 2 children. No time to think about gambling but I want to pay my last loan off by Christmas. So I won't spend much this month.

So if things go to plan I will be debt free by Christmas. I never want to borrow again. I'm done with borrowing and drained by my past but I will move on from the past and let the past stay in the past. From my lily pad I can stay safe but I must budget moving forward. Toad says time for Change.

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Good morning, 

1st November 2020 new start today. Time to move on and be positive.

I 'm in a really good mood today. I am going to enjoy Sunday. Heading to the beach today. So much better than the dull bookies.

When I look back in my early days I would eat my lunch in the bookies and watch the greyhounds. Not ideal and I would not recommend it.

 I wish you all a gamble free day.

JOVIAL TOAD ? 

Good morning, 

No gambling to report. This week I am going to focus on my work and diet. My manager is doing my work review today. I'm back in the rat race trying to make my way through this week.

Best wishes everyone in your own personal battles.

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Good afternoon. 

Toad leaped outta bed in Toad Hall at 6am. I had a very productive day at work and I'm feeling okay.

Wishing you all a good day,

Toad

Good morning, 

I hope everyone had a good weekend and no losses. The weekends can be tempting to bet with all the sport and racing on.

I did not bet over the weekend. I'm feeling bored today.

But...... 

 I would rather have a bored feeling than the sad feeling of a severe loss over the weekend. Why did I bet? Why did I not save that money? Why did I not treat Mrs Toad. Why why why why why why. What if what if what if what if. If only if only if only. I am so stupid etc etc etc.

I have no regrets because I didn't gamble. I have cash in bank so can spend. The money is not gone!

I am slowly learning but I cannot get complacent. Best wishes,

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Hello Folks, 

Toad fell off the lily pad tonight. But I could have lost so much more chasing. I stopped!

So I joined Gamban.I'm with gamstop for five years. I only get a small percentage of my wages Mrs Toad manages our money. I also froze my bank card to gambling. I will self exclude from my last online casino. 

I 'm finished with it. I stopped in time to save Toads ? Christmas.

It s over.

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Toad uve just slipped but  got back up stronger xx

Toady,

What are you like?

In the past i would have booted you off that pad and into the pond head first !!!

Need a mindset change mate cause it aint working.

You know what to do Toady and i know you will conquer your addiction.

Nothing changes if nothing changes

Best 

Hello Folks, 

I feel very deflated tonight. My goodness I was so close to emptying my bank account.

I did do some damage.

Can i just thank Bal, Stace and loulou for their kind words and advice. I feel pretty low tonight and you all cheered me up. Thankyou.

So tomorrow I will get on my lily pad. I don't normally set targets but I am going to set one now.

No gambling the rest of this year. Enough is enough.

I now need to take it one day at a time.

I have all the barriers in place.

I can't gamble if I want to.

I will post daily now.

Toad. 

Hey toad so glad you have put all the blocks in place. Now be kind to yourself and recover. Hope you have got up today feeling a bit brighter

Good morning all, 

Just had a nice breakfast of bacon and egg ? in a wrap washed down with a strong ☕ coffee.

Thankyou Charlieboy for your kind words. 

Day 1

Feeling just okay today. Last night I had the strong urge of 'all in' which is depositing all in my bank account trying to chase losses.

I thought long and hard. I went in to freeze my bank card against gambling. Then I thought 'all in'. Then I thought freeze. All in, freeze all in, freeze, all in. My brain fighting with itself.

I froze my card ? and I am thankful for that.

My bank increased my overdraft but it was my fault taking it. I can only blame myself. I have cash now for an emergency.

If I stay safe I won't spoil Christmas.

I fell off my lily pad but I have leaped back on. Toad rises up and let's out a loud Croak. 'I can beat this', croaked toad and the creatures by the pond stood up and cheered. 'we are behind you toad we know you can do it'  The wildfowl by the pond sang 'don't stop me now' by queen and the creatures from toads pond celebrated through the night with some sore heads this morning.

Best wishes,

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Day 1

I was in foul form today. Six month review went okay. Then later in day a boss questioned if I'd reached targets.

Then had a video conference with five staff regarding a complaint which went terrible.

I sit here with a busting headache  but no gambling today.

Totally and utterly completely fed up.

Toad

Good morning all, 

Day 2

I really don't know what's got into me. I'm in such foul form.

It didn't help two days ago with my slip. Maybe when I'm gambling my problems are bigger. I have money on my mind and regret. Hating work at the minute. Not in good form with Mrs Toad. Just life in general feels glum. I don't even care if I don't come outta this feeling. I'm just fed up and using here to vent.

I won't gamble today. Two weeks until payday and I will probably purchase Mrs Toads Christmas gifts. The money I wasted two days ago Christmas was sorted. Now I have to wait to payday.

My boss is ringing me today to discuss targets.  I just have to get on with it I guess.

My weight is creeping back on but I haven't been drinking and won't be until I get my weight down

It 's amazing how a slip with gambling has turned out like this. Its like a snowball at the top of a hill rolling down and getting bigger. I'm usually optimistic but I feel negative, sad, angry and fed up ?

Anyway nobody else to blame but myself.

It is what it is.

Toad