Hope

One thing that I really don't want to do is to work out the percentage of my hard earned money being wasted through gambling in all of my working life.

It's got to be stupidly high.

GT

Thanks Guys.

Time to whined down this diary I think. I don't especially enjoy having the longest diary. Some how i feel like I stick out like a sore thumb. I feel a little vulnerable.

On a positive though am not ending this diary because ive gambled. This is day 96 since my last gamble of any kind.

I'd like to thank all those who have contributed and supported me through my trials and tribulations over the best part of 3 years. Your support has been much appreciated and it has helped.

Am not going anywhere I still need my online support so I will start a new diary when the moment feels right. Thanks again folks your all lovely.. S.A 🙂

Hi S.A.

Your last post made me a bit sad.

""Some how i feel like I stick out like a sore thumb. I feel a little vulnerable.""

Your diary is your life so far, your past struggles and successes. Don't feel vulnerable, feel proud of all you have achieved.

It's funny how all of us at some point seem to come to the conclusion we must stop writing here; for a while at least.... I did it and so have many others...only to then realise.. that actually, this diary helps, it's just a tool, one of many tools in recovery, but it's a very useful tool...

I for one have very quickly realised that, no matter what anyone else writes or says, my diary is my diary and within the gamcare guidelines, I can write what I like. I can read what I like and take advise or leave it, if it doesn't do my recovery any good. Newcomers would find it very hard if we all started new diaries for they wouldn't be able to read about the struggles and successes and the hard work it takes to stay stopped.

I hope you change your mind about starting a new diary because I think this one is just fine as it is.

Sending hugs

God Bless

Sabine xx

hey sis !!!! dont let other posts wind you up mate....the fact they say we aim to be "celebrity status" is because people actually sit up and take notice of our diaries mate...it obviously helps others what we say going by the amount of "snorefest" feedback we get from others !!! so as charly says dont close your diary !!! ive maybe gone all quiet just now but al be back sister ...as for "gamcare pride lions" thats laughable mate coming from someone who clearly wants to be lion like ;-)...lets roarrr our way on my friend,lets hope its your usual morning blues,we can do this OUR way because at least it works. 😉

Hi SA, i know exactly how your feeling at the moment:),and i have also been giving a great deal of thought to the value of keeping a diary any longer.

What is also clear is that someone has been using/abusing another unsecure forum to create unrest both on this forum and on that forum.I notice i have posted on that forum in the early hours of this morning,trust me i haven't:).In fairness to that site they have closed the forum down.

All that matters in recovery is that YOU do what is right for YOU,.........use your diary if you need to:),start a new one if you feel this one makes you vulnerable,just do what helps you mate.

Very best thoughts to you SA.

Seano.

SA,

I too have given a lot of thought to the diaries and have had a moment of clarity over the past day or so.

I'm a compulsive gambler. Simple as that. No baggage to carry around.... just like being a diabetic or asthmatic... I need to obey simple principles to ensure continued happiness. My diary helps me to grow and stay happy. Yours does too and your 96 days is evidence of the success of it.

Keep it going SA. We are all very good at giving ourselves a hard time and I think you are doing that at the moment. If you feel self conscious about having a 'long' diary, then start a new one straight away. I want to see you continuing your success. If it ain't broke, then don't fix it... and I don't think it is broke. (the opposite, in fact).

Brian

Brian, Seano, wp, SA et Al,

There is someone trying to sabotage both sites so it would be great if we could just see it for that. The same person (same IP address) is using Gamcare names to wind both forums up which has to be pretty pathetic.

I'd hate to see someone with such a small minded mentality succeed in convincing anyone to stop posting or writing their diary on here . It would be great if we could all stick together on this and the other site will soon be sorted with a higher level of security to avoid and negate this type of idiot.

Just my thoughts

Best regards

Deeds

sorry s.a for imposing your diary but deeds doesnt have a diary..so deeds are you saying your "im saying nothing" cheeky remark on the same thread wasnt you !! and all your other "gamcare" comments on the said website were nt you.... as you say lets "ALL" put it behind us and move on 😉

Hello to all my recovery friends. I wasn't expecting such an immediate set of replies. Your all such lovely people and so very supportive. I feel empowered and i thank you.

Just goes to show how vulnerable we can all feel sometimes. Ive never really minded being open about my life and recovery here on the forum but then suddenly the last few days i was. To be honest it had absolutely nothing to do with what other people were doing or writing or how they were reacting to what I write but much more to do with how I was feeling within myself.

Anyway the end result is this...

1. I continue with my diary

2. I take no notice of those who choose to act like children might.

As wp says lets just move on with life and recovery. Luv to all.. S.A 🙂

wp

The "I'm saying nothing" remark was NOT me and I don't believe Mincer's post were his plus the one re the site closing down was also proven to be false. I DID make the comment re how I think the site is good for venting off frustration at the industry AND expressing alternatives views/methods etc without getting "attacked" as I had just been on here. I'm not aware of any making any other Gamcare comments other than positive ones re how I think both sites are very definitely needed but for different reasons (ie one to clear up the mess and one to try and lessen the mess happening in the first place) which is how I feel about the 2.

Happy to move on

Regards

Deeds

So glad to hear that you have decided to continue with your diary.

This place will not be the same without you and I need someone to compare running times, etc!

GT

I'm glad too your keeping up your diary 🙂 You've stuck with it and that you should be proud of.

Love Del x

Hi SA

thanks for posting on my diary, i too thankyou for all your support and kindness.

I too am glad you are keeping your diary, this forum would not be same without you!

Keep those great postings going mate - odaat, take care and all the very best. ands

oops soz double post

Just a quick post to say hope things are o.k and that you have proven in the past on various occasions that you are able to abstain for long periods so keep going and keep posting. Take care.