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Thanks both.. and yes Dotty the kind of support I offer to my clients at work reflects the kind of emotional and social deficits in my personal life. I feel i am quite good at empowering my clients to relax and be themselves and to feel good about themselves. I am less good at empowering myself and being able to relax and be myself and to feel good about myself.

I am on a level today though and have no thoughts of gambling. For the first time in quite a while i don't feel tired. I even started to do some cleaning this eve. Just a bit mind lol. Am kinda realising how knackered ive been recently what with all the running in the build up to the races and also the running around after the clients at work. Rest is a good thing isn't it. I need rest.

Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

Two gambling episodes this year.

night night...r and d xxx

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ctL3zA0vCO4&sns=em

everybody wants to run the world xx

I am angry with myself. My impulsive nature got the better of me yesterday. Drunkenness last night with collegue from work. Sky high blood pressure today and sudden classic symptoms of a mini-stroke (lightheadedness, not able to smile properly, slight weakness on one side) which have now passed thank god. Ive been debating with myself whether to go to casualty or not but have now decided not to. If the symptoms come back i will get help i promise. I will visit doc in week but i know whats caused it... its 6 pints of bitter, 2 pints of cider and lots of shorts to wash it all down together with and an evening meal that comprised of crisps. Not good when you have a history of high blood pressure.

I am motivated now not to do this occasional binge drinking s**t. I am a fool for toying with my health like this. Feeling upset.

Thanks for listening... S.A 🙁

Hi SA

Hope you feel better as time goes on...and hoping you get some rest as your body must have taken a battering...

Hopefully those symptoms arnt anything sinister and are just not enough oxygen getting round your body..I used to get same when my blood sugars crashed during panic attacks...

If you still feel weird maybe give the NHS line a ring..

Thinking of ya..

R and D xx

Thanks Rach... I feel more normal today. Am gonna start recording my blood pressure again. Yesterday was a wake up call. I took a real battering of mind, body and soul.

Note to self: no more self-destructive behaviours. I am ok. Be good to myself.

Thanks for listening.. S.A 🙂

Morning SA

Glad to see you on page one...hope you slept ok..

Must admit..I don't drink much these days as it takes me 3 days to recover...not sure if you take any blood pressure meds but if not check out Hawthorn on the t'inter bobs... and chromium and vit B5 for adrenal and blood sugar balancing with all the running you do ....

Could be useful for you to keep body mind and soul strong ....especially round Xmas..

Am also going to have to watch it as have been invited out on a few works doo's and not used to drinking heavy any more ..

R and D xx

Bloody hell SA. Just read yesterday's post. Take care of yourself. Like you say don't mess about with your health not worth it just for a few drinks. You look after your clients. You need to look after you - but I'm sure that's easier said than done and a lot of people are like that, great at helping others while forgetting about themselves. Don't forget about you. Take care SA.

Dear me SA!

that is some scary s**t! you are only in your 40's aren't you?

I reckon your GP deffo needs to know about that. These things can be managed.

Watch what you are doing, you crazy banana.

f x

Thanks all. I am 40 Freda and yes i don't want to end up as a stroke victim. I will get back on the blood pressure tablets and talk to doc in week and no more drunkenness. I often struggle this time of year and this year is no excpetion

Am ok today. I was st work and went for a long walk with a client which was quite therapeutic. No gambling problems. Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

Your life is a crazy banana?..mines a bizarre blackberry.......We are all nutty as a fruit cake but safety in numbers...lol

R and D xx

Self-pity detector detected self-pity in this post and removed the self-pity.

Ive just been for a delicious 90 minute run. Excellent anti-depressant. Six months until next marathon. Training has started. 🙂

Keep on runnin SA...sounds like it is also your medicine xx

Thanks Rach.. and yes running is good medicine.

Difficult days at work. I am feeling very insecure and vulnerable. Manager is absent most of the time but she still manages to effect the morale in the centre in not a good way. Also not enough of the staff team care enough about what they do. Poeple can be very self-centred, very me me me!! Challenging behaviours are likely to increase. I need new employment but still have done very little to find it. I don't undertsand why.

My mate at work was going to the pub tonight. This time i declined. I came home and have just eaten a healthy meal. trying to look after myself. No gambling. Off to check my blood pressure Thanks for listening... S.A

Hiya SA..

Thanks for your kind words hun...xxx

Hope your BP is coming down ...good on you for resisting the pub ...just a quick look at your recent back posts are a reminder for you of the hangover....

Just thinking on the job front and if your not ready to look at alterntives specifically right now, as I know its a pain in the b*m and feels like huge energy when your not in the right mindset .........maybe just whacking your CV on Monster.com or similar may be an easy way to cast your net wide and see what comes back?

It may give you some ideas for next year ...I know what it feels like to be in a rut with work and think 'the devil you know" and all that xx

R and D xx