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Hi SA,

It is good 2 see that u r staying strong and not giving up that takes a lot of strength 🙂

U can do this SA!

One day at a time!

Have a gr8 wknd 🙂

Day 7 and thanks all for your support 🙂

No gambling or thoughts of gambling. The gambling switch in my head is very much set to the OFF position. I just gotta keep it that way.

My 3 gambling binges this year have all been drink related and have all happened between the hours 10 P.m and 6 a.m. Something of a pattern going on here! Time to stop this pattern of behaviour.

Anyway am galvanising myself to get out on my long Sunday run. Tis a bit windy in the outside. Cheers for now... S.A 🙂

Jst run it mate to windy is jst an excuse! We have all had plenty of them! Lol good to see that swich at off ma man 😉 mines is at off and av jammed it there. Haha

Still betfree and running in the wind! 😉 lol

Scottyboy

Lol.. cheers Scottyboy 🙂

I was always gonna run. I have excuses for not doing many things in my life but running tis not one of them. A steady 90 minutes (10 miles) being blown about a bit but enjoying it. Like ya say, bet free and running in the wind! 😉 lol

keep running SA...thank you for popping in and your kind words as always...

will take your advice and ring and start asking for help

R and D xx

Day 8

No gambling problems. Some health problems though, that ive decided to get investigated. Came back from long run yesterday and 2 hours later my eyesight was horrendous.. zigzaggy lines in sight and not focussing properly. I think its something to do with low blood sugar/ high blood pressure/ dehydration/ hormonal imbalance etc etc.. but it was a bit scary to be honest. Ive had it before and its lasted for just a few minutes but this time it lasted a couple of hours. I always recover but i want to know if its something more serious, clearly. Doc says it might be an occular migraine. But anyway am getting a bunch of tests.

Thanks for listening folks... S.A 🙂

hope you are not overdoing it with all the running SA...those tests will give you reassurance at least and then you will know what it is...not knowing is worse as youre mind works overtime..

no gambling problems is the main thing xx

R and D xx.

Yo S.A,

Sound's like your ok to me, just maybe overdoing the Health regieme. Treat yourself to a chinese or something, somthing totake your mind of it. I mean, you work hard all year round, a couple of interuptions aint too bad? You need it, your body needs it.

Nothing wrong with you I can tell by your writing style, your just overdoing it. Chill out, you beat one problem. Beat this one, take an easy course.

Your tiring me out just thinking about it! lol. I am actually thinking about training again, however i am not that comfortable doing it infront of others. Don't know why, just a self confidence thing I guess... Can you reccomend any advice?

Pete JP.

Hey thanks Rach and Pete.

Health is fine just now. Ive not been overdoing it with the running. Theyve taken my blood and traced my heart and in the next couple of weeks I should find out whether ive got any underlying health problem. But the more i think about my couple of recent health scares is that its a sugar thing. Low blood sugar after strenuous exercise, especially strenuous exercise after having got drunk the night before. The more i read (if you can believe what ya read on the tinternet)my symptoms fit well with very low blood sugar being the culprit. Good excuse to eat lots of chocky! 🙂

No gambling problems... 12 glorious clean days since my bust and that event feels like ancient history now, even though its not. Am under no illsuions though. The silly season fast approaches once again. Need to keep my guard up.

Pete... as for the training thing. If your not comfortable training with others then don't train with others. Do your own thing. I run on my own most of the time and that suits me fine. If you train at a gym, try to go in quiet times or in parts of gym that are quieter. Most people don't bat an eyelid if they see soembody who is out of shape (not that am saying that your out of shape ;-)) training... as us humans are pretty self-absorbed don''t you think?

Anyhow thats me, living life day by day and getting by as best i can. I feel like the nearly man when it comes to this d**n addiction. Its like I almost haven't gambled for many years and yet i have. I am daft but hey ho onwards and forwards. Regards to all who ponder my words... S.A 🙂

hey SA

am also on same page with the hierarchy and for me I am aiming for "self actualisation"

I too only feel able to be myself alone and that is where i feel most relaxed.This latest fiasco has put me in my weakest area....sharing living space with someone who destoys my confidence...i managed a week.

Alone...i mean with dot..cos its unconditional...i dont need to be strong...In my job i have people breaking down in front of me all the time and i never have become immune or hardened to that and i never will.

I only become hardened to arrogance and all that other cr**.

keep being you cos thats more than enough xx

r and d xx

Day 14 Decided to delete my thoughts... not sure why lol

No gambling problems thats the main thing... S>A

hey hun...just wanted to say "hey hun"

take it easy

R and D

xx

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O3EAhvLgxIo&sns=em

perhaps this could be your next sport SA...xx

Lol... not a chance 😉