I am stronger than I thought!

Hi charlotte

What a tough long hard journey this is , no one is perfect and from time to time we will make mistakes and thats life , what we do next is what's important and u got straight back on that journey that ur doin so incredibly well on , yes it hurts the pride takes a knock I know all so well and so do others but u av nothing to be ashamed of , what u av achieved so far is amazing u fight and fight and u still are

This is an illness something that lies inside us something we can never can beat all we can do is contain it , u know this but ur stronger u know what it will do longterm and thats why ur back here and not goin back to all that misery , it was one day a bad day accept it and move on from it

For me ur still the same charlotte the one who supports so many others puts so much effort into everything u do. I for one feel on different towards u than I did on my last post to u

I still feel so much pride for u even a little more for been so brave and finding the strength to get back on track , this time u may not av won the fight but u will win the war

As I said at the beginning its a long hard journey but ur still on it and ur still fighting and for me that counts for everything

Take care

Castle2

I think every man, women and child has posted some love, advice and support. Just goes to show what a terrific person you are and shows how many others you have help and supported. You are no failure that's for d**n sure. Slips happen, I think you've done amazingly. I consider myself to being doing well and I've had a hell of a lot more slips than you have. So don't let it get you down. Remember how your feeling now and remember that feeling every time you have an urge in the future. You can't control it so you can't do it. Your boy friends angry, ofcourse he is but give him time and he'll get over it as he knows how hard your trying and how well you've done. It's a slip, let that be all it is and don't go chasing. Charlotte you've helped so many on here, you were an inspiration and your STILL an inspiration. This minor bump on a long road can't change all that. I wish you all the best Charlotte. Stick close to this site. I know it's harder now your working. Get through this week and the next will feel so much better.

Hi Charlotte

You must be feeling pretty rubbish about now but please try and be easy on yourself, this is a strong addiction that you have which can drag you back anytime it likes if you are not aware.

You are not a failure , you have been hear over 6 months now and carried on regardless of slips that isnt the sign of someone who is a failure, that is a sign of a fighter.

re-group, re-charge your energy and come back fighting.

One day at a time charlotte

Take care

Blondie xxx

The single most important thing is that you learn something from it. Why did you gamble ? What was your trigger ? Can you put a block in place for next time if your in that situation.

You have/ are and will continue to do well, Remember your human not perfect.

Take care

Blondie xxx

Hey charlotte

Im sorry to hear about your slip and I know how you feel as when that urge comes sometimes there is no stopping it. I hope you're feeling a little better today and I see ypu have so much support on here. Just start a fresh and don't look back. I know its hard to get over but you will. Your not a failure at all, getting past this addiction isn't easy and I and Im sure many people have slipped in the past your not alone.

Take care

n

Hi Charlotte,

Good talking to you in the chatroom - wasn't as scary as I thought it was going to be! Sorry to hear about your slip up - as I said don't let this put you off. You have made excellent progress and shouldn't let your slip put you off. I let my slip up last for months, losing money left right and centre. Stay strong honey - I am off to restart my diary - wish me luck! x

I get so busy and I shut you out

And you don't have a clue what that's about

You're probably thinking that I'm getting mad at you

I should take the time to just explain

That you're the only thing that keeps me sane

Cause that would really be the kindest thing to do

Even though there's no one who is closer to my heart

I can see that I have kept you in the dark

Sometimes I forget

Sometimes I don't think

To show the things I feel

and to tell you what I mean

But there is not a day

That ever passes by

That I don't thank god

That I've got you in my life

If you have any doubts of what my love is about

I just wanted you to know

I wouldn't blame you if you turned away

But I'd be begging you to stop and stay

You're more important to me than I ever show

So if you're thinking I don't care as much

That I don't appreciate your love

Well, I'd be devastated if you let me go

Oh, I hate to think I didn't give you the attention you deserved

So I'm hoping now that you believe these words

Sometimes I forget

Sometimes I don't think

To show the things I feel

and to tell you what I mean

But there is not a day

That ever passes by

That I don't thank god

That I've got you in my life

If you have any doubts of what my love is about

I just wanted you to know

I just wanted you to know

I just wanted you to feel what I feel for you

I just wanted you to know

Sometimes I forget

Sometimes I don't think

To show the things I feel

and to tell you what I mean

But there is not a day

That ever passes by

That I don't thank god

That I've got you in my life

If you have any doubts of what my love is about

I just wanted you to know

Apg- Mike passed on ur message 2 me in chat 2nite. It was so kind of u 2 think of me. It means a lot 🙂 I hope u r ok xx

Wot can I say... Thank u does not seem enough, I am touched by all ur lovely messages and support on my diary. I was so close to giving up on this journey 2day I was feeling gutted. But ur messages have kept me strong. It means soooo much 2 me 🙂

I have 2 be honest, this is the worst I have ever felt after a slip... Maybe that is progress!

Do I know wot lead me back 2 gambling yesterday , the honest answer is yeh, problems with my ex and trying to cope alone with this instead of sharing this with my bf or family so I could have their support. Lesson learnt!

Yesterday, just showed me I cannot go back 2 gambling it effects me and my health 2 much and my relationship with my bf. I want Maddison 2 have a happy Mummy so 4 that reason I cannot give up on this journey!

My bf did a kind thing 2day, he bought some tickets 4 another firework display that was on 2nite, so we could take Maddison... cin I missed out last nite, she loved them and she kept pointing at the sky bless her. I love cin her happy. She is my life, my world, my inspiration 2 keep on even when it feels like I am falling apart!

On a positive note, in work 2day I worked something out. I started 2 try and stop gambling just after my 19th Bday in Jan, so in just over 10 mths or aprox 299 days. I have had 3 slips,gambled on 3 occassions. B4 this I was gambling nrly every nite. So thanks 2 this site I have done brilliant. And for this achievement I feel very proud of myself!

2day, was a really tough day 2 get thru... It was so hard not 2 chase my losses. But I got thru it.

This site is brilliant, u r all gr8 ppl. Thank u from the bottom of my heart 4 all ur support 2day. U all helped me 2 believe in myself again 🙂

Take care all xx

Dear Charlotte,

You post some lovely comments on my diary, I sincerely hope you continue to win the battle with this addiction, keep having faith and belief in yourself that you can do it.

Thank you so much again for your words of support.

My best wishes to you and ur family.

Kathy xx

Morning Charl,

I am so pleased to read your diary this morning and see you are going to stay on this site and keep fighting! I came out of chat really gutted Sunday night because I genuinely wasn't sure you would come back on here yesterday! As so many others have said you are a real genuinely lovely young woman and you are far better than this addiction!

Stick close to the site and the support it offers so many of us are here for you and I will help you in anyway i possibly can whether that be with your diary, chat, or a thread!

So pleased you are still here!

Flagg x

Hey Charlotte...

Great to see you here and love seeing your posts about your feelings and that you are on the chat service keeping close...

It may not feel like it right now but your feeling the worst after slip this time I see as a good sign....

In AA they used to say 'I cant do it any more on a belly full of booze and a head full of AA"....meaning that you have come so far along the road of recovery that betting and your wise head of recovery cannot live in the same space any more...there is no pay off anymore....Recovery is winning!!!! Yeeehhaa!

I know for a fact you will be free of this lovely.....and am chuffed to bits you are still with us....only promise I ask you to make is ...no walking down dual carriage ways at night...; )...us Aunties worry y'know...

Unconditional...as always hun..

R and D xx

Good morning dear Charlotte,

I'm sooo sorry I missed your post yesterday as I would have joined the ranks in reminding you how very special and wonderful you are! And, brilliant. Why? b/c you learned from your mistake. Albert Einstein said, " the definition of insanity is making the same mistake over and over again expecting a different outcome each time." A lesson that you learned darlin that may take soooo many others a life time to learn. HUGE HUGS Charlotte!! -joanxxxxxxxx

hi char

Carl

Thanks all 4 ur support and kind words on my diary. I am touched and it means a lot 🙂

I am feeling really sad 2day, this would have been the day I reached my target... I always looked 4ward 2 Tuesdays cus that was another wk gamble free 4 me... But not 2day and I only have myself 2 blame 🙁

I left work early 2day as I was feeling really faint and had a really bad headache... So just been chilling with Maddison this afternoon.... I have so much I have 2 do and get done... It is hard 2 relax!

On a positive note... I am still gamble free 🙂

Hope everyone is ok xx

Hey Char

I know its tough having had a slip and even more so knowing that you were so close to the target you had set yourself.

Your a strong minded and wonderful person and you will beat this.

Sorry to hear your not feeling so well health wise please make sure you get back to eating properly and getting back into a routine.

Glad you managed to spend some time with Maddison this afternoon makes you realise whats important in life.

Well done on getting through the last few days always tough after having a slip the days, weeks and months will soon mount up for you again honey.

Hopefully see you in chat later

Andrew xx

hi char

just wanted to say you are really inspirational, and i think maybe you shouldn't make a target this time just take everyday as a day won, 😉 when i had my slip i felt really tired, drained, poorly really, but i'm starting to come to terms with it and we could of done a lot more damage than we did do, like Andrew said before you no it you will be on weeks/months before you no it! i'm so proud that you came back on here and told us you had a slip,that in it's self show's strength some people including me would be tempted to just leave this site and gamble again, keep going!

speak soon