I am stronger than I thought!

Charl I asked to be deleted from 90 day post we dont need it we are doing well without it hey. You should do the same eh. Take good care

Thank you charlotte xx

hey Charlotte just wanted to say congratulations on the job ! you have done great and should be very proud of yourself . have a fab weekend and catch up soon : ) x

Thanks all 4 ur support 🙂

Did not post yesterday, I was sooo busy!

Firstly I am proud 2 be part of the 90 day thread.... A huge thank u 2 Flagg 4 setting this up. It as helped me 2 stay strong and focused 🙂

So things have changed alot 4 me this wk, as of Monday I am no longer a full time stay at home mum. I am going back 2 work part time.

It all happened really quickly tbh, I saw a job advertised that was way out of my league tbh... but something I have always wanted 2 do. I mentioned 2 my dad about it but was not gonna apply. Neway the 1st step was a telephone interview my dad encouraged me 2 phone them I thought I had no chance well I passed that 🙂

The next stage was a group assessment.... now this is my weakness. Around my friends and ppl that I know I am full of confidence. But in a situation with others that I do not know and I usually crumble. This is because of my past, being with my violent ex... He always made me feel worthless, like I had no control and I have never felt good enough 4 nething really!!

Well I almost did not go 2 the group assessment out of nerves, my dad was the only 1 who knew I applied... he told me 2 go and try my best and that I had as good a chance of getting it as neone.

So I went to the group assesment it lasted 4 and a half hours, there was 35 ppl there... I felt so nervous. The first stage of this was a written test, spelling test and listening test.... The 2nd stage was a role play and a presentation. In the room I felt like crying 2 be honest I did not feel worthy of bin there and I thought everyone there was better than me. I nearly did my usual and ran away. But then something hit me, I thought 2 myself I am stronger now... and I only have one shot at life and if I did not get the job it would not matter because I tried and that is the main thing. So I did the presentation and I surprised myself. Only 8 of us passed this and got thru 2 the one 2 one interviews. I was 1 of them.I could not believe it. An hour after the interview I received a call 2 say out of all of us ....3 ppl had got the job and I was 1 of them. I was shocked but yesterday I learnt a huge life lesson 🙂

I got 2 meet alot of new ppl, I spoke 2 one of the other girls there and we went 4 a drink after. She also got the job so I am looking 4ward 2 working with her and as part of a team.

This journey as taught me soooo much, I have 2 be honest at times I have felt like giving up and running back 2 a machine but I realise now. That's just cus it is the easy option and easier that facing my past issues that I had not dealt with. But gambling is not an option now, everything is possible if u want it bad enough! Nothing worth achieving in life is easy 🙂

So yesterday I smiled... I felt in control of my life again. When I got the job I realised I am worthy and I can do this. I always try my best at everything. This job will be a real challenge, there is alot 2 learn. But I will give it 100 %.... I will miss Maddison soooo much... But my parents will watch her. And I do not feel guilty about this new chapter in my life. I am doing this so Maddison as a better future 🙂

Without this site and the ppl here who r all amazing!! I think I would have ended up doing something stupid and I may not have even been here 2day. So I will not list names, because even if u have not supported me directly just by sharing ur stories it as helped me more than u will know.... I want 2 say a huge thank u 2 u all 4 being there thru the good and the bad and 4 keeping me strong. U have all helped me believe in myself and now I am able 2 provide a better future 4 me and my family. It means the world 2 me 🙂

Finally, it doesn't matter if u r at the start of this journey or have a good amt of time gamble free, wot matters is everyday that we do not gamble we r making a better future 4 ourselves and our loved ones!! Life is 4 living we only get 1 shot and nething is possible!

So a new chapter in my life begins 🙂

Hope everyone as a gr8 wknd x

Yo,

WOW WOW WOW!

What I post , I can not put into words how proud of you I am . On sooooooo many fronts .

But I will name two,

COURAGE what a great deal of courage you showed , even when it got uncomfortable , even when you thought you could be facing failure to carried on .

Thats shows tremendous courage , I have seen this in you before .

BELIEF , as CGs and I suppose as a victim of abuse , we spend our lives thinking we are worth less than everyone else , our view of ourselves , our confidence in us as a person hits the floor . To find out way back from that is one of the hardest things to do, in my opinion must more difficult than giving up gambling . But you proved yesterday that you are starting to turn that around , and by getting the job I hope it showed you just what a great person you are . With many talents and attributes that previously you may not have seen in yourself.

Today I can feel your happiness , todayi can feel your positivity about your future andi take my hat off to you . Cause you should be really really proud of yourself , although your dad ( sounds like a pretty sound guy to me ) encouraged you , you my lovely did it .

Gone on a bit here , but I am just blown away by your post , so I am waffling on writing what I feel , 🙂

Big big hugs to you today , you have the Shiny smile from ear to ear , for that I thank you .

Shiny xxxxxxx

hey Charlotte..

Just pullled the car over as I was too busy writng my own diary and just saw yours before I drove off...

FANTASTIC NEWS lovely ....you deserve the best and all this hard work you have been putting in is really paying off ....your confidence is high and your resolve is high!

I hope you are SO proud of yourself and your dad sounds like a great man too,...

No more being in the shadows for you Charl its up and up all the way and congraatualtions !!

chink chink...I shall toast your success later with my pal..

keep smiling and keep on keeping on ....

HUGS and more

R and D xxx

Hi Charlotte

Fantastic news, congratulations. It's extremely difficult conditions in the job market just now, and well done you on grasping the opportunity! What a great feeling you must have felt after you received the call to say you had the job...

There are so many positives to take from this, some obvious, some less so:

1. Working takes time: Less free time in the day will make you more focussed on the tasks that you had all day to do, including time with your child. It might be an emotional strain on you at first, but you will get used to it.

2. Working gets you paid: That's more money in your pocket to treat whoever you like: You, your bf, your child. If there are debts involved, you can start to slowly chip away at those as well.

3. Working provides structure and routine: One of the big problems for us all is the down time - when we don't have anything planned, anything to do, it's when we can be at our weakest.

4. Working is a social interaction: Doesn't matter whether someone if self employed or works alone, they will have customers to deal with, managers to report to, all will improve a person's social skills and for your more importantly your confidence in the workplace 🙂

and that's just off the top of my head. Really well done on getting the job Charlotte!!

Stay strong and free of gambling.

I can't praise you enough Charlotte, it is lovely to see or read about people achieving something and turning around their lives. Inspirational and I'm made up for you, you must have qualities that people look up, qualities that most people do not possess. Maddison will be proud, your family also as well as all of us reading your posts. Take care, keep doing what you're doing because it sure is working. Well done!

Steve.

Hi Charlotte,

I wanted to thank you for posting on my diary. Your kind words meant a lot to me. Like "a rose in the winter time -- when they are hardest to find". Keep being you! -joanxx

Charl hun wow what a last post. Everyone should read that you are an inspiration. Take good care hun x

Morning Charlotte,

I've just been catching up on your diary. I am SO chuffed to read your news. Congratulations on your new job! It really couldn't have happened to a nicer and more deserving person.

Enjoy the rest of your weekend.

Take care

Dave X

ps Still no news!!!

That was a lovely post charl. I'm really happy for you. It took a whole lot of strength to go there and it's great that you realise now that you have that strength. Good luck with the job. No need to say no more. But it was great reading that post and I really am happy for you, you and your family.

hi charlotte

carl

Charl you are doing well hun. Everyone should read your last post inspirational. Onwards and upwards.

Hi charlotte

Fantastic news and a real positive change in ur life , u did so well out of all those people not surprised though the person u r now is so strong and has the belief maybe at times u just don't realise it , well from now on start believing it's such a great achievement

Really really proud of u and that's for everything not just the job ur one amazing person

Well done and take care

Castle2