Hello everyone!!
I am here for the final time! I am a failure! Gambling has consumed my free time for years and I can't take it anymore. I am in a place just now we're gambling is priority to everything. I would put a spin on a slot first before I think of consequences of bills etc. I got a good bonus is month which has made it more accessible to feed my habit.
I am 28 and have been gambling for 15 years only in the past 6 or 7 being high amounts of my wage, if I look back over the years I have never won, I ask myself why? I have no answer other than you are an idiot martin! I have nil debt (apart from a few payday loan which are controlled) as I have already been down the route of trust deed/IVA. So as of the June 2014 my credit rating is improved. I need to nip this in the bud before I do something stupid.
I have self excluded from bookies, and internet sites going I spent my last £70 pounds on an internet gaming site tonight and this must/needs to be the last time. Any advise would be immensely appreciated! Tomorrow is day one of my new life and being 100% committed is the only way. I am going to read further into your diary to get an inside into how to abstain from gambling and improve everyday life! I have house I rent a good car and a good job. I work do hard extra hours for extra pay and I do it all for gambling. I want to be normal when you get a wage and the disposable income is actually mines.
Hope everyone is doing well and I will wake up a new man with only one goal in mind to get back into my bed 100% gamble free. I have money left so it starts from day one! Here goes!!
Thanks for taking the time to read.
Martin đŸ™‚
I'm really sorry!! I don't know why this has posted 3 times.
I will stick to this thread!
Thanks
Martin
Hey Martin,
Your story is very very similar to mine... It seems the only problem that exists is gambling and all the rubbish it brings us.
When i think about it, i dont think ive ever won either, nothing big any way, never a big accum or a decent sized lucky... But month after month i keep feeding the bookie with my hard earned cash. Its just so stupid.
I'm only a week into my abstinence but i truly feel something has clicked this time - I don't know if its because this site is absolute brilliant and reading all the posts and stories really puts the whole thing into perspective. I also feel its now or never, i have to do it. Your around the same age as me mate and although we aren't young-young, we have still got a load of years in front of us and i think the thought of being gamble free from this moment here on in is a right exciting one.
I hate gambling mate, i hate what its turned me into, a cheap, sneaky, lying failure and im going to prove myself right and change this rubbish behavour.
You've got it in you boss.
Keep strong, check into this forum as often as possible and just try be positive with your life. Because things will get better once gambling is gone forever.
Take it easy man,
Drew
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