i will not play poker for money again day 1

It's clear you don't have many barriers in place to help you. How can you go to a pub, get drunk and blow 150. If you had simple barriers in place like handing over your financial affairs to a family member and not having a cash card, it wouldn't have happened. Stopping gambling means making major changes in your life and lifestyle. Some will be really tough and life changing. Using will power is often not enough, we need more help. Seriously think about how you are going to change your life and do it. Good luck

Time is not a good healer. You now no longer have the feeling of despair you had so are more likely to gamble again. When you feel good again you will have the urges again. If we could bottle the feeling when we are at our lowest and take a sip every time we want to gamble it would be easy.

​one week tomorrow

Thanks for ur posts trotty im giving my money on pay day to my parents and getting an allowance now.

Sounds like a good move Adam. Well done and best wishes

Well done Adam. We all need help to beat this

I've gone thru many eras in my life and done many different things whilst growing up. I started at school where I was a sports enthusiast playing for every sports team going then passing my gcses, then went to college and got my a levels and started some of my vices in the forms of drink and drugs, then went to uni where I passed a bsc Hons in retail and done some more drugs and got addicted to canabis, then I finnished uni and

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Started working fulltime. I've been through many jobs but the one I loved was working for fat face however due to smoking too much cannabis I went mad and was too scared and paranoid to go to work. I then got institutionalised for a month due to hearing voices in my head and lost my job at fat face. I got better and then managed to get a different job not the same as fat face but still a job. I I now work for high and mighty fashion men's shop and am still on medication and have only had one relapse due to coming of medication, luckily I didn't loose my job that time. I haven't taken any drugs for five years now and

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Am still on medication. I've travelled a lot holidays snowboarding every year even when I was ill and paranoid. I've come thru a lot and led an interesting life and have most of my good friends who I met at school.

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Thinking about all this tonight has made me think that altho gambling has been a bad thing to do and has lost me a lot of money it has shown me some lessons and still made me meet some nice people thru game are. I don't believe in fixed but I believe I can come thru this problem like the many problems I've come thru in life and come out better.....this is the start of a new era, my finances have and are being given to my parents, I have a job and a house, have many fond memories and am for the most part healthy. Thanks for all the continued support its much appreciated

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still going strong, 12 days in

So I'm on day twelve of no gambling apologies for talking about non gambling related subjects but its my diary so going to talk about my recovery from gambling and everything that goes on in my life. Paid all my wages tomy dad today so I don't waste any of it good times. I'm setting an innitial target of new years for not gambling. So

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Can you get yourself to a local GA meeting. I go every week and find it very very helpful.

so on day 19 now i think, last gambled on the 16th october. Ive been spending my money on actual things like lunch and dinner out and about. I had my first drink since i lost the money last night had thee jds and coke. Didnt drink much but felt a bit hungover today. Heres to a successful no gambling this time with christmas coming up id like to make it to then without gambling.

22 days strong nothing to report

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