I wish there was a pill you could take to stop this terrible illness/addiction

Hi another gf day almost over, thanks Alan for your kind words. Been to see my cousin tonight they are thinking of bringing xmas forward he's keeping pretty up beat at the moment. I don't know what's worse in life when your times up, whether it's best to go suddenly or you know your going to go in x amount of weeks, months etc.,

I hope Deano has a big tank of the vape stuff so we can share x X

I'm sure he's got plenty to go around :)) . Regarding your other question about knowing. I think it depends , obviously the family would like to know so they can make the most of the time they have together but it's the person that's I'll who knows there on limited time but if I was suffering I'd rather it be over quicker if possible . My dad was pretty much 6 weeks from diagnosis to passing away but for him I'm glad it was that quick , he didn't do iLL and within a few weeks didn't really k ow what was going on , it's always a difficult time for those left behind whatever happens :(( . I hope you have a better day tommorow anon :)) x

Day 52, today is going to be another gf day.

Hi hun sorry to hear about your rough time at work it must be very hard the only thing I can add to Alan's post is I reckon family will be comforted in a small way having someone who gives that awful news is a person who cares, you. Hope today is better for you take care Lu x

Morning day 53 and today will,be another day gf. Well wanted a lay in this morning after busy stressful work week but the dog had other ideas hence I'm sat here reading recovery diaries to help me stay focused and drinking black coffee to try and keep my peepers open. REading one diary and in error clicked on the mark as abusive button, o*g I'm thinking what have I done how do I change that so I told the person (sorry Alan) of all the people it was your comments and they was far from bad (cannot imagine anyone thinking get that) anyway I will advise admin. Going to have to go and walk the dogs now (have my daughters as well today) hopefully they will calm down later x

Oh !! So that's what you think of me then eh? . Lol , don't worry it happens all the time it's got to the point I don't mention it anymore and admin will realise it's a mistake x. Hope you have a great day anon despite the early start with the dog :((. Take care for now Alan x

Hi Anon hun thank you so much for your kind words and understanding means a lot. I kind of let it out didn't mean to but it was all that was on my mind for that day, I shouldn't have rambled really I couldn't find how to delete it after lol. Well done on your gf days hun that's brill and your doing great. Hope your more awake now lol we don't need alarm clocks with dogs hey lol take care hun and thanks again means a lot. Lu xx

Day 54, 6 days off my next target of 60 days and still remaining gf. Moms famous lamb roast today and a time to catch up on the last week with family. The rest of the day will be house work , boring but has to be done x

Hi hun you'll definitely get to your next target! Well done so pleased for you x bet dinner was nice with family 🙂 know what you mean about housework I've been ferritin away at stuff not done for ages cos of gambling boat has never been so clean lol. Do you wonder how you found time to gamble? I just seem to have little time now lol. Have great Sunday hun despite housework:)) Lu xx

Day 55 still gf and hardly think about it. Just got in from work and battled my way through all the puddles!

Why is it raining in your house then or has the dog P.eed in the hallway ? :))

Thanks for that Anon , LB had already told me enough about the" Hammers and Chisels " so even more.worried now :(( and yes the Surgeon told me about the lovely legwear , so not only am I known as the " Old Duffer" on here I'm also wearing surgical stockings , Deano.s gonna have a field day now and no your not contaminating my shop with yer "Orange chips " , Somethings are just wrong . LoL !

So come on then guy's do your worst ? :(( .

Alan in tights lol and he said orange chip's are weird?
I think they will need a sledge to knock them old thing's out 🙂
Well done on your continued recovery to x

See told you so !!

Alan, I hope your op is on a Monday or Tuesday, I'm saying no more just check out the stats. Did you know that every procedure has a code, one wrong digit and you could be having a whole different operation Alice lol x X

Day 56 , 4 days to next target of 60 and I'm going to make it. Off to national conference today, still raining here but I don't care as I'm gf and my day and future is bright x X best wishes to all for another gf day x