I wish there was a pill you could take to stop this terrible illness/addiction

Thank's for the kind offer of your " Pull em in Perk em up's " LoL , but if I were caught wearing them by my OH then that would probably be it ? I'm sure she's gonna phsl with just the normal stockings but that might drive her over the edge ?.

Congrats on your 56 day's of winning for real anon :)) xx

57 days now and still gf. Pay day on Friday so can clear another couple of debts which makes me feel so good. No urges but have done loads of jigsaw puzzles, coloured numerous pictures, and played bejewelled. Caught up with family and friends and cannot believe how good life is, how much time was wasted in the last few years but Mr G has no hold over me now. It's been relatively easy with the blocks, willpower, determination, acceptance and encouragement and support from this site. I feel that it may have been not so easy if you used to go into casinos, bookies and actual machines etc., this was never my area, mine was just online slots so hats off to all the people who used to gamble in those places. Only noticed recently how many of those bloody places there are, driving through one town there seemed to be one on every corner. The government go on about smokers as it damages your health and costs the NHS thousands (I'm an ex smoker ) they also go on about drinking which damages your health what they don't tell you about so much is the statistics on suicide which is gambling/debt related. My point is why the hell are all these places allowed to spring up all over the place because this harms not just the gambler but the families as well. I'm on my soapbox and ranting but do get annoyed. On a more funnier note dress malfunction again today , thought some one had made a voodoo doll of me and was sticking bloody pins in my chest only to find the wire in my bra had popped out and was sticking in me pmsl best wishes to all on this journey x X

Hiya :)) What is it with you and any sort of undergarment eh ? You must be fidgeting all day long :)) LoL ! .

I'd just noticed your post to me on Monday regarding the day I have my op ! , now I'm even more worried , bloody NHS :(( . The last thing I want is tio be woken by a Nurse calling me" Alana" FFS ! .

I was one of those high street gamblers you spoke of and your right there are far too many these day's but it's funny because I've never bothered with anything online gambling related and thought that that must be more difficult to stay away from LOL ! , see what we think about each other ? .

Have a great evening anon

Alana xx

Morning and another day that is going to be gf for me and hopefully for all on this website. Off to work so will catch up later x

Hi anon thanks for your post on my diary 58 days for you as well. Awesome work. Get to 100 the orange chips are on me x

Another day almost over, really concerned over a member on here, brings it home even more how awful this addiction is. I want the Secretary of State for culture and media to read some of the diaries and posts on here, how would they feel if it was their partner, wife, husband, son, daughter, grandchild who was feeling so low they wanted to harm themselves, the devastation on families and broken relationships. The gambling sites, shops that prey on the addicts need stronger regulation and even a higher amount of money paid out to rehab places or homeless shelters for addicts. X

Hi Anon well done on gf days x yes your so right there should be something we can get done because it's so wrong what is legal should be illegal! We need something to change as gambling is wrecking so many lives :(( best wishes hun Lu xx

Hi anon and thanks for your last couple of posts , It's all abit up in the air at the moment regarding our fosterkids and we'll not know of the court's decision until next week when Social services speak with us again .

Not alot we can do unfortunately regarding the poster you mentioned , if he want's help and support it's there uncinditionally but nobody can be forced , so I hope something reaches him to realise ? .and your right about the industry , if it could see what we see on here well ! I think it'll fall on deaf ears if I had a rant so I'll leave it there .

Glad to see your coming up for 2 months tommorow ish ? , so I'll wish yiou well and just say " Well done Girl , you Go " .

Talk to you soon xx.

Hello diary, I'm back after a busy few days, o*g let's start with Friday, payday and I went xmas shopping with son, daughter and youngest grandson. Had lovely breakfast to kick start the day, then went into what felt like every shop in the city but by the end of it had spent hundreds of pounds on xmas presents but still no were near what I would have done if I'd have still had mr g in my life. It felt so good and no stress well apart from all the people that just thought they could walk through me to the pay desk (never realised I had booked Black Friday off work at the time). Saturday had my hair done that was another £100 plus a tip, paid another two pay day loans and paid some off the others which should be clear in 12/14 months. Today looking for a furby, it seems that everyone in the country wants one and had to go miles to get the right colour for one of my grandchildren but managed it. Life is so much better without you mr g, you dominated my life for the last few years and guess what I reached and passed my second target of 60 days so the next is 100 and yes yes yes I'm going to achieve it because I want to beat this so badley. Best wishes to all and stay positive x X

Morning well lunch time, at work and just having a break and checked my bank statements, oh how nice it is to not see all the payments to online gambling sites for the second statement running since being gf. Even when and if mr g tries to lure me back I'm just going to knock his bleeding head off, no one or thing is going to rob me of my future. Catch up later x

Hi hun thanks for post yes 28 days feels amazing still can't quite believe I've come this far, a month ago I was suicidal and just cudnt see way out but that's to this forum I started my recovery. That's great about your bank statements I know exactly what you mean I bank online and I used to blank out seeing all those gambling transactions it made me feel quite ill so used to bury my head. Well done Hun on your gf days. Best wishes Lu xx

Day 63 almost over, not thought about gambling but funny enough still getting urges to smoke but not giving in to that either. I completed yet another jigsaw puzzle tonight. Still really busy at work and will get even busier this time of the year. My cousin is still holding his own. That's all from me today, no dramas or clothes malfunctions. Oh I did get on the scales and I've lost 6lbs so that's good means another 8lbs and muffin top gone which means I don't have to pour and push myself in those bloody Spanx and pull me in tights for xmas party x best wishes all x

Half way through 64 days, at work and need to get back to it x

Evening, another day almost done and I'm still in control of me and not the gambling addiction controlling me, strong urge to have a ciggy again today. Going to have a read of some success stories to keep me strong and positive x

Hello my Orange chip munching freind. Well done on your 65 day's of abstinence. Hopefully you have beaten the cigarette cravings to? X