I wish there was a pill you could take to stop this terrible illness/addiction

Hi Anon how are you I've got an adult colouring book too lol love it it's got inspirational quotes in it which you colour in too. Best wishes hun Lu x

Hi I'm late updating today, it's the first time Ive sat down today (apart from in the car) my god how ever did I find the time to sit for hours on end watching some bloody wheel spin around! Well I fancied a lay in this morning, other half got up with the dog so I thought happy days close my peepers and drift off. Big mistake dog decided to bark and scratch at the bedroom door so had to get up. Loaded the washer up for the first wash of the day, 8.30 am took dog over the park returned at 9.45, fed the dog and unbeknown at this point but one of her Jason well beloved dog biscuits must have bounced into the cup I had just placed on the unit, I placed the green tea bag in, drank the majority of it and thought what are those bits in the bottom and then realised I was drinking a dissolved dog biscuit! Cleaned the house from top to bottom, even the cooker which I hate. I have so much more energy since sleeping better and not thinking when I can next see and play with Mr G. WEnt for another walk and noticed what lovely colours there are in the leaves and the different shapes. BEen out shopping now it's bonfire night and my dog is unsettled because of the load noises - is it me getting older or are they getting loader? Any way as my healthy eating hasn't kicked in until Monday I had orange chips today, 2 chocolate bars, crisps and now sharing some pork scratchings with the dog to keep her mind off the fireworks (any excuse). Anyway another day gf and so will tomorrow and the day after that be. NEver going back to that dark place x x

Corrections for the above meant loud not load lol

o*g just seen the advert for the new dyson hairdryer and thought that looks nice until I saw the price 300 quid. But in the past I've blown more than that in one session however I'm still not buying one, cannot justify that amount on a hair dryer. X

Chocolate orange, jellied orange slices (the ones coated in sugar that only come out @ Christmas), orange peel (the stuff that is like glacГ© cherries), orange Opal Fruits, even orange soap (scented, to wash with, not one of your 5 a day...Have tried the bubble gum stuff though, can't recommend it, not for eating) but orange crisps?!? NO! What were you thinking?!

Hi Anon , thanks for the drop by :)).

I was just going to say the same as kelly above , " Orange Chips " w*f are they ? I actually thought you were talking about Sweet potato chips at one point coz their Orange right ? but obviously it's something a lot less heathier than that , nothing wrong with pork scratchings though as High in fat they may be but also low carb so make a brilliant snack for us type 2 diabetics , brazil nuts are good too :)) .

Funny enoiugh I did the same thing on Saturday as you , only not with a dog biscuit , I'd had a few Dorito's got distractyed and put the remaining couple in my pocket ( Don't ask why ) about ten mkinutes later put my hand back in my pocket to retrieve said snacks and quickly stuffed them in my gob only to realise I'd left some beef flavoured Schmako's in there as well , mmh ! mmh ! mmh ! , don't know if youv'e tasted Cheese with gone off beef and just a subtle hint of pooh thrown in for good measure ? Strange taste and one I'm not keen to sample ever again , really can't see what dog's find so great about them TBH ?.

Regards the diet it'll probably take a week of dieting to just burn off what youv'e eaten in the last 24 hrs but good memories eh ?.

Big congratulations on hitting 40 day's though , kinda spurs you on even more doesn't it ? :))

All the best anon xx

Hi, day 40 and another day gf. Today we got up, had breakfast and took the dog for a two hour walk over the local hills so more excercise for me and b**t crunches, (working off all the c**P I ate yesterday). My beagle puppy has sooooo much bloody energy! But love her to bits. Visited my parents, all good there. Now watching some tv and chilling. X

You are doing brilliant and should be proud! Thanks for your support on my diary.xx

Omfg watching X factor, honey g through again, I'm auditioning next time pmsl

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Morning well afternoon now, at work and having a break, never closed off my diary last night as fell asleep in the chair, now I have a sore neck! Well considering I ate so much unhealthy food the weekend managed to loose 2lbs but still have the dilemma of which size clothes do I wear reason being size 8 makes me look pregnant and size 10 is too big, I really need a size 9 but they don't do them. And your probably thinking what is she going on about but bare with me, after I discussed with a friend last week, she told me about some pull me in perk me up tights, hence I bought some, (some women or men (I'm not sexist) may have tried these already and know what I'm talking about). Well I decided to put them on this morning, hence sat here in my office thinking I need to go to the ladies after consuming copious amounts of black coffee but am dreading the fight I'm going to have, must have taken 10 minutes this morning to actually get them passed my knees, then up the rest of the way but hey presto no muffin top (tucked it all in nicely). I'm gamble free, have more money at this point in the month so I can cut the bloody things of and buy some more, back to work now x X

41 days gamble free and your biggest problem today is a particularly stubborn pair of 'pull me in perk me up' tights.

An inspirational post if ever I saw one.

Good diary writing, well done on the 41 days...and counting.

" Pull me in and Perk me up " ??? I actually found that they "Chaffed " quite a bit so had to stop wearing them :)) but have since found pubs that do the same as the name suggest's .

Couldn't help but notice you seem to have many undergarment issues along the way , back to front's last week and now this ? Still anything that distracts the mind from gambling's all good with me :))

Have a good evening anon ! x

Ha ha...I'm crying with laughter...you are one to make me smile. From knickers on wrong way round to your pick up perk pants. Keep smashing Mr G where it hurts hun!! Xxx

evening all, not long got back from work and thank you for those who have written on my diary. Well update on the tights, o*g, had to peel them off me, think they took a layer of skin off me too! I suppose they are good for evening wear for a couple of hours but not for all day wear. The new toy I bought the dog now is in bits all over the floor with blobs of white fluff which was the toys insides, she s also been digging the lawn up and just pxxxxxd off the other half because she put her paws all over his lovely white jumper, trying desperately not to laugh as he tells her off. I now have a big bobble hat, something I probably haven't worn since being a child but in this weather and my age I need to keep warm when walking the dog. I laugh every day, I smile every day, I have my sense of humour back, I'm a better person to be around now and actually listen and look at things differently since being gf. Mr G had parts of my past he's not getting any part of my future . Best wishes to all on this journey of remaining gf X