I wish there was a pill you could take to stop this terrible illness/addiction

Morning and day 35, every day feeling better, and no further harm to finances , so all good. Off to work, x

Day 36, still gf. Cannot sleep but no particular reason, don't have any urge to gamble, going to have to try as work soon x

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Hi Anon100

Thanks for the post on my diary. Happy to see you've hit 36 days gamble free that's amazing! Keep on your guard and don't be reeled in by those bonus offers. It's the casinos desperate attempt to get you back because they know you are now winning!

Take care, James

Hi Anon,

Thanks for your kind words on the diary, I must say you seem to be making really good progress too. Ticking off those milestones on a regular basis. Your comment about only noticing your undies were on the wrong way gave me a giggle...I know a few women at work who seem to do that every day!

Ryan x

Thank you James and Ryan, and I do keep looking out for Mr G and some of his ploys to get me back as his slave (pmsl sounds like something out of fifty shades of grey). On a serious note I've read some diaries on here and realise that it could be easy to get drawn in especially during low moments, I keep focusing on the positives and occasionally remind myself of all the negatives about gambling. X

Well day 36 almost over and glad to say it was a much less rush this morning to get dressed. Still gf, walked the dog which helps get rid of the muffin top that only appeared through gambling (another thing to thank Mr G for sitting with him for hours on end). Read some more diaries on here and thank god that I had the strength to decide to stop when I did. I never feel alone anymore on this journey as I get strength from writing on here. I don't know these people I talk to but feel a bond and some of them give so much of their time, help and support to others it really is commendable. I'm going to sleep soon, but feeling happy and pleased that I got through another day x best wishes to all and keep up the fight against gambling x

Hi anon,

Thank you for your kind message the other day. We tend to remember those diarists who are the first to respond huh. I am the same & am so thankful for everyone who jumped in & dragged me out in my darkest hours at the start of this journey ☺...& after my many many slips 🙁 ( lost count :-/)

I see you're doing brilliantly! Very well done and keep it up! You truly can get over mountains and cross all the seas if you put your mind and heart to it...(also a bit of excercise such as power walking 😉 ). Mindset is the main drive in life, what you want - you get. I guess you know that only hard work, patience and dedication can bring your dreams alive.

You're on the right track. Concentrate on you and your surroundings, lil miracles happening just in front of you & ain't we the lucky ones to witness them ☺

No more spinning head alongside the wheels on the screen, more of here & now and an amazing experience of LIFE.

Stay safe & keep being good!

S x

Hi Anon just wanted to drop by and say thank you again for your words of encouragement and how much it helped me. So pleased your doing so well. Stay strong hun Best wishes Lu x

Morning Anon , Just popping by to say hi and well done on your continued success , Love reading your positive posts and the Giggles you provide along the way " Fantastic " :)) , Hope you got your knickers on the right way before Mr G or is it Grey comes visiting , LoL !

Take care xx

Hi and day 37 almost over and still gamble free. Been to work and as usual been really busy but that's good the time flys by. THe weather is cold and dull but in my world it's still bright and sunny as I'm not carrying Mr G around all the time like a monkey on my back! Well these dark nights are not so good when you need to take your dog for a walk in the local park and it's getting dusk so I purchased a flashing Light dog collar, o*g looks so funny when you just see this red collar running around in the dark. I need to eat more healthy and excercise more to get rid of this extra stone and get back down to 8.9. I suppose I carnt blame all of that stone on Mr G some of it would have been from Mr S from when I gave up smoking. Anyway it's do able starting from Monday, one last week end be for the healthy eating, fish and chips tomorrow, Chinese on Saturday . Everything looks so much better x

38 days and today will be another day that I remain gf. 7 days away from target number 2 .

Thanks for the compliment Anon but there's a fine line between giving support and becoming a pest LoL I'm just waiting for restraining orders to start landing on my mat :(( . Those flash dog collars are great , my partner and I have 3 dogs between us and when their out on a dark common running around it's like an out of sync Red Arrows display as they bomb around , it's ok until all the lights come running towards you at speed LoL . Glad to see the positivity strong and shining through :)). Have a great day and take care. Alan x

Hi Anon thanks for post so glad your feeling good it really is great getting rid of that monkey on your back 🙂 your doing great as you said I'm rooting for you too! Lu x

Another day almost over and feeling good. COmpleted another puzzle and bought an adult colouring book, very therapeutic. No urges to gamble and get less and less thoughts pop into my head about it. On the way out of the city tonight leaving work I have to drive past a well known casino and sat in traffic watched a couple of men getting out of their cars on the casino car park and go inside, I just thought to myself poor sods , your more then likely hooked and will come out of their with no money or if they do win it will only be theirs for a while as a cg cannot keep hold of it for very long. So glad I'm not them and once again glad I had the sense to finally stop. X

Evening Anon, I was going to suggest an adult colouring book, I love mine 🙂

Knickers on the wrong way huh...I'm guessing they were ones that Bridget Jones would proudly wear & not those fancy bits of string the kids wear these days 😉

Lots of similarities in our musings, don't stress the lack of urges, just stay on your guard & keep knocking Mr G out - ODAAT