I wish there was a pill you could take to stop this terrible illness/addiction

Nice post anon :)) .

Great to see you enjoying life again with yer Singing and Dancing , Smiling happily and laughing loudly in your back to front Knicks and yer Strap me in for lift off things that stop you breathing ! , My Oh my , what a site and how amused you must be making the neighbours as you do this in yer bobble hat ??? .

Now youv'e given up gambling and saved a little money in the process , perhaps ( if I may be so bold ?) a big set of Blackout Curtains could be added to your next shopping list ? ( Just sayin ) LoL !.

Have a great day tommorow anon :)) xx

Well almost another day over, 4 days to my second target of 45 days to go, then to 60 then to 100. Always on my guard in case the awful Mr G try's to get back into my head, how he used to play the mind games, such as come on play me today it may be your lucky day, only your not lucky if your a cg, the only way your going to win is if you don't gamble. X nite nite

If your still up can you please let me know w*f " Orange chips " are ? , there seems to be much discrepancy around the forum , nothing gambling related anon but as I have a chippy it's more like professional interest and I can't sleep without knowing the truth ?

Hi, they are coated /run through the batter mix prior to frying, some add a dash of paprika x

Morning Anon, let's get one thing straight, he's my husband's dog (unless he's charming the villagers, then & only then is he mine) 😉 He's a working Cocker by name but should be called a playing Cocker & aside from the jumper (hubby isn't allowed white), it could have been our little weasel you were talking about! He's so destructive with toys he has to be very closely supervised except with the black Kongs (deffo worth investing in) & loves unmaking his bed too! His absolute all time favourite is socks though & he can carry one around for days before he gets bored & tries to eat it! They've gotta be a bit cheesy though, which is why he is quite happy to help me empty the washing machine, leaves all the tshirts on the floor when he's pulled them out mind & only brings me the socks & pants!? Latest craze is the little purple cup that goes in the machine...That's his treat for helping, generous to a fault me 😉

Morning day 42 , very cold and frosty but still gf. Can anyone remember worzel gummidge, well today I've got my sensible head on, no pull me in perk me up tights today. But what I've wanted to do for years is sign up and volunteer in one of the soup kitchens in the city for th homeless, always think of it this time of the year but never do it as I've been wrapped up in myself and gambling. So today I'm going to find out about it and finally do it. Off to work now x X

Hi Anon hun thanks for bday wishes! That's great idea soup kitchen I'm looking at volunteering too be good to help out 🙂 still gf but had really strong urges 🙁 best wishes hun Lu x

Well by the time I've finished writing this post I will be 43 days gf. IVe been reflecting and still got my serious head on. FIrstly I researched some of the food kitchens and one of the nearest to me only does them at lunch times which is no good for me as I am at work. I have however signed up to be a volunteer at another one that does evenings and gives out warm clothing and blankets. Just have to renew my DBS clearance which is up for renewal soon anyway. Still no urges to gamble but what I have thought about is all the people I may have been short tempered with over the last few years due to gambling losses, not given them the time I should have done, not been there when friends needed me etc., whilst I could not say sorry to them personally I can on my diary , and that's what I'm doing now. Sorry.

It's raining quite heavy here at the moment and the dog has just walked through the conservatory, kitchen, hall and lounge lovely , mop and bucket time for me in a mo. As I said no gambling urges but I am getting the occasional craving for a ciggy which I haven't had since March 2015 but I'm not giving in to old Mr S either. I have noticed them vape things are getting bigger, sat in traffic someone had one in the bus stop, nearly had to put the fog lights on how much steam come out of it. I think I'd need two hands to hold it, they cannot be good for you. Anyway time for sleepies , work tomorrow and another busy day x

Back from another long day at work to the dog chewing a stick up all over the lounge rug, other half just must have sat right through it! so out come the dust pan and brush followed by the hoover. Still reeling from the new president results but on the plus side I'm still gf. Felt a little blue today nothing related to gambling as I do not miss it at all, Cannot say I even enjoyed it the last several months, might be the dark nights. Tomorrow's another day were i may feel better, but what I am certain of 100per cent is that it will be another gf day x best wishes old and new on this road to recovery x

Hi just back from work and chilling, looked at the John Lewis xmas advert, pmsl high 5 to them I love it but the dog is barking at it x still feel a little flat but gf, cousin just been diagnosed with a secondary cancer, future not looking good for them, very sad only 58. That sad news has made me even more determined that I will not waste another second on that evil addiction. For all those on here staying gamble free best wishes, for those having cravings or thoughts of having a little flutter so to speak, don't waste your life, live it without gambling, spend time with loved ones, you do not know what is around the corner. X

Evening Anon , Sorry to hear your news regarding your cousin very sad , at 58 it's far to early to be thinking of things like that , Ilost my dad to cancer at 47 so can empathise :)).

On a happier note I'm glad all your positivity's still going strong , it's not till we stop we realise what we should be focusing our attention on but at least it's not too late to make up for lost time eh ?.

Not seen the advert yet so must put it on my to do list :)).

Have a great evening :))

Best wishes Alan x

Hi and my second target reached of 45 days, here's to the next which is 60 days and I sure am going to hit it. No urges what so ever but still on my guard incase Mr G shows up and I have to get those boxing gloves out again! Mood a bit better today, had lovely lunch with colleagues in new bistro to celebrate the retirement of a colleague, the legal profession is loosing one of the best. did our two minute silence. Still thinking lots about my cousin, his wife and daughter and what they must be going through. Looking forward to being able to go for a long walk over the week end, burn up some calories, spend time with the dog and hopefully reduce muffin top a bit further! Best wishes to all x

Morning day 46, well it's raining and cold, but thanks to new bobble hat, walking boots, waterproof jacket and thermal vest (o*g have I really bought one of these, but have to say they have improved since I bought one for my nan many years ago) I'm still walking today, dogs still have to have a run around. One of my ways to recovery was to do something nice every day no matter how small in order to like myself again after I'd thumped Mr G out of my life. Yesterday was to let at least 4 cars onto the main road after work from a side street that people always get stuck at. Today I'm going to have a sort out to,what can be donated to a woman's refuge, did you know that sometimes abused women with children leave their homes with nothing but the clothes on their backs? Anyway have to get moving, catch you later , x

Hi Anon great to see days piling up! I've got to get thermal vest lol need it nowadays. That's great idea doing nice stuff, I used to Volunteer at Women's Aid it helped that ivknew exactly how those women felt 🙁 yes it's horrific what happens behind closed doors. Well done to you Hun best wishes Lu x

Morning Anon , Well done on your continuing positivity and on reaching day 46 , your doing so well :)).

Thanks for your post , Yep , tough time when Dad went , I was about 20 at the time and the worst of it was it was a week before I got married , so we had a funeral on a Friday and my wedding the next day , not wonderfull and no way to start Married life but hey it is what it is , Luckily we all worked in a family buisiness so I had the chance to see My old mum more than the average , she past about 4 yrs ago . So that's another reason for you to stay gamble free and enjoy your's every day that you can :)).

I had seen those Kong thing's but have never bought one as my dog doesnt tend to chew things up , she's 12 now and has been through thick and thin with me and is never far away , she even comes to work with me at the shop and has her own heated kennel , whenever I've felt down she always cheers me up and I know it's gonna be tough when she goes :((.

I laughed the other night in your post to Kelly ( ODAAT) and wasn't sure if you were talking about that as I'd never seen a black one ( sorry that sounded wrong ) or weather it was secret Code ? :)) .

I don't drink much to be honest as I work 5 nights a week but even if I have a couple of beers on a weekend the cramp is areal killer , so I think I'll have to not take the statins if I'm havin a beer or two but thank's for the advice MuM :)) LOL !.

You talking about abused women having nothing , It was the same when our foster kids turned up , we opened the door to find a Social worker there with 3 brothers a year old . one of 6 and one of 9 with one small carrier bag of bits ?. It happens that quickly when their removed from home and placed in care , so the first day was rushing out and buying everything new for them , even down to a buggy and cot for the baby , but their doing just fine now :)).

Anyway enough rambling , I hope you enjoy your weekend in your waterproofs and stay gamble free ( I know you will ) .

Take care xx