I'm out of control, i can't remember how many 100's bets I've put on over 1.5s in the last few weeks. Win win looooooose so bad. I'm drinking when I'm gambling I'm putting on weight it's really frying me. I'm hoping but putting it down I'll try and make an effort to stop.
All cards are cut up, no online, no gambling through mates. s**t I hate this ffs
Let's just try and be honest on here to start. Day 1 tomorrow, I've been here around 10 years ago why am I still doing it
Lock down started me gambling and drinking may I add terribly. Boredom mostly. I've gone from weeks up xxx to losing all the next week. It can start from waiting for the bookie to open their safe and losing 50nquid to giving over a grand back I'm clearly out of control. What I don't get is why I keep going back to do it. I think its because I've won and lost a lot in minutes. If I'm honest I'm tired of it now it's exhausting and just a merry go round.
2 months ago I was drunk and had a text from an online casino I'm signed up to gamcare to my amazement I could sign up. I was up all night resulting in me winning xxx playing slots. I withdraw thinking I'm happy problems solved. The next morning I check the reviews on four crowns casino o*g they will not pay out and I do not expect it. They are based in curacao I'm not sure if anybody has had similar experience but please do not do it. They've now blocked my account.
Anyway here I am at my wits end, this is it with gambling I need to make a change. Anybody feel free to comment good or bad. I have no cards no access to money I'm sure I can recover but need to get through the next month
Hi Cross,Â
Sorry to say you are a mess. What came first ? the drinking or the gambling. I racked up 20k of gambling debts. The gambling came first, then as I plucked up the courage through alcohol & I took out another loan/credit card trying to convince myself this time would be different.
The THIS TIME NEVER CAME. I racked up more debt whilst everyone around me suffered & all I was doing was more damage to myself. All I know is gambling addiction is more powerful than me. Hand over finances to someone else. Provide receipts for every penny spent. Like any addiction there are withdrawal symptoms, there's no methadone to ease the pain only cold turkey & getting through it is tough.Â
There's more shame in keeping it to yourself than telling someone close that you're powerless over this addiction. Gamblers & money have a toxic relationship. Opening up can be liberating & is often the first step in setting you free from the addictions clutches. Number one priority phone the helpline on here, available 24/7 & reach out for help. Take all advice on how to self exclude & consider counselling.
If you're serious about stopping this isn't going to be a short journey nor an easy one. However it is going to be a worthwhile one. Are you ready for it ?.Â
Best Wishes
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Hello @crossintheroadÂ
I am pleased that you have found the Forum and have taken the first step in Recovery by reaching out for help and support. Problem gambling is cunning, powerful and baffling and without help it is too much.
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