So iv realised i always replace a addiction with another, although i am very happy im not gambling i am drinking 70cl vodka every day and the medications i am currently on are not going down well, i wake up every day with no memory and this scares the s**t out of me, with the memory i do have sometimes i have done things like driving after drinking 70cl vodka trying to find a shop open for more booze, in the past i went out "which i never really do after this" and broke my jaw, not knowing anything that happen that night, i was literally asking people in my area for about 2 years after this incedent but unfortunatly never found out what happen, i also faintly remember from drinking i start screaming for no reason, i think this is a fit? But not show as i dont suffer from them, as well as all this im spending literally £15 every day on this alcohol and am finacelly ruining my life, i would defiently drink instead of gambling but its still really effecting me and im really struggling, currently not working and on universal credit where i have to go to a job centre, yet i dont know why this should be happening as if i drink then go into work id probably hurt someone, and also iv realised that if we get sacked we can not get any money up to 3 years, well if i know deep down i can potentialy kill someone as my mentality is not intact then they shouldent force me into a job as i have a background with interaction with others.
Work - The scourge of the drinking classes !
Darren I cant comment on your gambling, but I can see that your drinking is endangering you (and potentially others).
So you have recognised you have an issue, the question is - What are you going to do about it ?
You have both the power and the answer.
Sbb
Hi Darren,
Reading through your story, I am glad to see that you are not gambling but this is a Forum for problem gambling so, I am not sure how this space can help you. If you are struggling with alcohol, it’s best to start using this website, which maybe more helpful to you: http://www.alcoholics-anonymous.org.uk
Also, since you are on medication, it is very dangerous that you consume alcohol. I suggest you make an appointment with your GP and talk about your situation. Of course you can always use this space if you need to share anything about gambling.
Best wishes,
Forum Admin
Bit harsh there Admin, 16 days clean is hardly a non-gambler!
I think I said it elsewhere Darren & apologies but I don't recall the outcome but you really have to try & get back to the mental health support that helped you previously.
GA/AA, they're all the same principle so any meetings would be better than none & trading addictions is textbook stuff.
Your head is a shed @ the minute but you are reaching out and you need to keep doing so.
I know you said your dad bailed you out before, does he know you are struggling? Is there anyway he could take control of your finances to stop the self sabotage whilst you figure out how to break this cycle & move forwards?
Thankyou for the replies, admin has AA got a forum like this? As i find it really supportive?
No one can take control of my finances as i live alone
My doctor has referred me back to the cmht for an assessment but my appointment is like 6 weeks away, phoned them to try and get a sooner appointment but with no luck
Hi Darren118 - yes, I can relate. I gave up gambling and smoked more. I gave up smoking and gambling and drank a lot more. It's like, I put down one bad habit and one more pops up. I was spending hundreds of pounds on alcohol. I liked going out and getting trashed but it was ruining me. I went to AA for a while and found it to be loads better than GA. I drifted away as I started getting judgemental (these people are nutcases etc). These days, I rarely drink and it's fine. I don't smoke and I haven't had a bet in over 180 days.
Good luck!
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