In-between recovery and living.

Hello everyone,

This is a new post for myself and I am happy to say I am 103 days from my last bet but only a moment away from my next one. The crashing reality hit me today while my car was being repaired and I had cash to pay for the repairs once they were done. I had a number of hours in town to kill and all I could remember is all the times I would walk out broke from all the bookies in this town. Fortunately it wasn’t painful because I didn’t gamble but more of a realisation of what living normally is like! Browsing shops looking for new trainers and looking at Valentine cards for my girlfriend. I even took the time to check out jewellery amongst other odds and sods in the shops there.

I went to a pub to have breakfast and they also had slot machines so I nicely sat in a place I couldn’t see them. Ironically in all this online gambling has been my vice but I know bookies, slots and betting shops have been the start of my down falls in the past.

once my car was repaired it was genuinely a nice feeling handing over the money for the repairs. Technically that shouldn’t be a normal feeling for some one but it was for me and the black holes of gambling I have gone through in the past. 

I know many reading this post are in different parts of their journey towards recovery but I assure you that that feeling you get of getting back to your normal self and normal way of thinking and living truely does make it worth it in the long run and abstaining from gambling. Be careful of the mind and how it can flick that switch towards gambling insanity and always been vigilant of the dangers and keep those barriers up at all times and not become complacent.

I guess I just felt like sharing my experience today about this and I hope this gives some new members hope that things do get better.

dave101