It's Not That's Funny Is It

Its far from funny to be honest. If you want to stop you have to put in the blocks. Contact Gamstop now and block yourself from going online. Then contact the bookies and block yourself. Then you need to own up to your wife or! Give your Dad your cards and let him give you money as and when needed but not for gambling. Is it worth losing your wife and kids for? Go read some of the stories on here, it breaks my heart that some are fighting to see their kids because of a broken marriage. So no it's not funny and yes it is your life. But is that buzz really worth missing being married and having your kids in your life hun?

So.. Welcome back to the forum, I ended up coming back after a couple of years. Soon as you become complacent and have a cheeky little flutter it's the start of no return.

Set up a diary love, and set the clock. Start again. You can do this.

Chat soon.
Bella xx

Hi Swordfish,

I cant imagine anyone would find your story funny mate.Im glad youve came back and hope you get all the help and support you need. Please sign up to Gamstop & if you can find a GA meeting.

Good Luck & Stay Strong

AL

Done my first post on here in 2010, bin back and forth, had my account wiped, thinking that I could manage my life with all that goes on in it, there is a hell of a lot gone down, Up and down, the worst, and I’m telling you swordfish, that gambling addiction, addiction, is a major contribution, because it is in you, it’s not in you for the moment, it’s in you for life, you gotta know that, there’s no e***n cure, it doesn’t matter that you had your last gamble 3 months ago, or 3 years ago, you do the same damage, again and again it will have ya, ,, put your foot on it, life is tough, don’t make it tougher, , speak later, moving forward keeping one step ahead guard Up bobbyj/rainman

Alright mate hope you are doing well now, that £5 bet which you said no harm in that was an acceptance as to what you were doing does not do anyone any harm when it does. That buzz you talk about which everyone will know abiut will eventually come back but you have to focus on a goal and achieve it in order to get it, I have quite a few issues with debt my buzz will be when I am debt free and able to focus on improving my home and putting my concentration on that.

Posted by: SwordFish

Hi all, I’m back after a bit of an abscense.

so , was on here couple of years ago, had it real bad before coming on here, for talking to some great people and took this addiction by the horns. As time goes by you lose touch and think your in control of yourself and get cocky. Started having a few bets here and there, and that’s the way it stayed until about 3 months ago when I stopped completely unintentionally believe it or not!! I’ll explain,

few troubles in marriage, I started drinking heavily. Like every night going round my mates or my mates round mine and getting smashed not going to bed till 5 in morning then going to work at 7/8. Obviously this made the issues in the marriage worse.

3 months of what I would call mental breakdown. Kids involved saw lots of mayhem with me and the missus

Anyway so because of all this (I suppose it was a buzz) I had no interest in gambling at all.

I left home went on a 4 day bender and at the end realised I wanted my family.

(4 weeks ago this was) started putting things right, still having a few beers after work but really putting in effort with the family. So, watching the football on tv really chilling out and starting to enjoy my life again, with one thing missing, no buzz anymore, no more getting smashed out my face getting in at crazy hours in morning. So about a week ago had a fiver bet on football, no harm in that? Until it lost and I decided to lose 150 on blackjack online. So I put that down to a blip, still a bit mentally unstable ain’t I so I’m not blaming myself I ain’t got gambling problem no more, then yesterday, on my break at work I went for a pint and played the fruit machine (yes fruit machine and stuck 120 quid in it. Jesus Christ!!! Can’t be having that, went to bookies and blew another 120!! That was all the money I had, I was 33 mile from home no petrol nothing. My missus had money but can’t tell her it would end us I know it would. So I turned to my old man, who not for the first time bailed me out. Now, I’m ok, thanks to him , but I can’t do that again, I need to be normal, none of us are perfect but I can’t live like that. Having to lie to my kissisnwhy in going to be late for work so I can meet my dad to give me cash coz can’t go in bank because she will find out.

So that’s why I’m back , it’s not that funny is it?

Wow, I read this and my life just continues in same spiral..... I’m back btw , day 1?

I’ll elaborate, just got a bit emotional reading that as that date (2019) wasn’t even the worst of our family problems, it extended into 2020 June I think? However what I wrote was true, the gambling really didn’t exist in times of madness, it only comes back when things are ok .... why? Why does it do that, I have no idea , anyway damage done, but not irreparable, it’s not (rock bottom) I have been there many times before , and I am determined not to be there this time