Life begins again

At the risk of sounding Towie-esque, o*g! 300 days - wowser! Well done Suzanne, you continue to be an inspiration to us all. Hope the job hunting is going well too!

Rach xx

Hi Suzanne,

Well that long drum roll has now obviously finished and the triumphant trumpets are blasting out the 300 day overture!!!

Well done my inspirational friend.

Keep going strong into your 4th century. ((((((Suzanne)))))))

Ade xx

Morning Suzanne.
What can I say apart from well done on 300 days. I feel so proud to have walked along side of you for virtually your entire journey.
You are truly an amazing person and the time you put in on this forum is just fantastic.
Be proud and have a great day.
Luv Steve xxx

WOW thanks all you night birds Sandra Junnie Rach, Gregg. Dave, (and Ade and of course Steve this morning lol,) your support does

mean alot to me, and is 100% appreciated.xxx

Good Morning diary,

300 days today, jeez that is some number and with all the support I get from my friends on here I have safely reached it,

Not one single penny has been spent, I have starved it for 300 days, and yet I am still not thinking too much of the amount of days I have achieved, I still wake up every day and think today I will choose not to gamble and check in here, my one day at a time is still how I abstain and maintain, because every day is a new day one ( if that makes sense).

My recovery today is soooo much stronger than my addiction, Ofcourse it is, I have gained/ learnt/ experienced so much on this amazing journey, it would simply be utter madness to lose it all on a stupid nasty thought.

I still have not forgotten any of the awful things I did to feed my addiction, but I am slowly beginning to forgive myself, it's not about the money in the end, that can be replaced, it's what you do to your self inside that's hard to forgive, and ofcourse with self destructing your self, you hurt the ones that love you.

My treat to myself and my OH to day, is simple, to abstain and maintain for another day and WIN.

(Ofcourse I will be having a drink or two today lol) because it is a big milestone to reach, and I am chuffed to bits, but I won't count my chickens until they hatch, the only problem is lol, is that these chickens will never hatch, Recovery is ongoing, and I am living along side with my addiction, but I am on the winning side, and am 100% determined to stay on the winning side. and that is sooooo POSITIVE for me because I can see a life gamble free, my life and compared to 300 days ago, it is FANTASTICALLY

Sane/ near normal/ honest/ and I am enjoying my life again, I would not give my recovery up now for anything, no matter what life throws at me. and I am able to achieve this every single day by making that right choice NO gambling today.

Wishing everyone a strong positive and safe gambling free day

Suzanne xx

I will be toasting your 300 days with a drink tonight Suzanne, congratulations for doing so well and thanks for all the support along the way.

Phil

Great job Suzanne!

Hi Suzanne

sorry I'm late for your party, Massive high five for The big 300, I loved your morning post summed up your past, present and what you hope to achieve, the future looks bright for you blondie. you're an inspiration to us all..and a big thank you for spending 93 of those 300 days pushing me onwards and upwards.......Ginger.

Well done on 300 days of success Suzanne. Keep remembering what got you here & adding something else in the times when you feel you least need to.

Dan xx

Hi Suzanne,

Congrats on 300 days! You are so determined to kick this awful addiction and are helping so many more to do the same. It is not easy, yet you persevere. Day after day. Well done on this special day. Enjoy the drinks!

Suzy

Woohoo well done you on the magical 300 days an amazing achievement. So so proud of you.
You have a solid foundation to keep this addiction where it belongs in the gutter.
Take care
Cheryl xxx

suzanne

when you came to the forum you were desparate to find a way to halt the train crash that was impending,quickly you embrassed the forum and truthfully have never looked back.

I remember thinking your journey was very similar to mine regarding recovery,almost at times making it look too easy.

but the truth is I understand how difficult change is,but I also know the positives through the change from active compulsive gambler to recovering compulsive gambler brings a very precious and unrelenting gift,one that is on offer to all who embrace it.

I also understand an important step in recovery is to constantly give recovery away.

You my friend put a great deal of effort into every aspect of recovery.

Enjoy it,keep embracing it,the gift that never stops giving.

I raise my lemsip to you.

your text helped me through a busy day,in which my health has rapidly gone south!!! I am home and put myself to bed.

remember tomorrow has equal importance.

made possible by your choice today,

Abstain and maintain.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Morning Suzanne.
You have smashed through the 300 day barrier. Fantastic job.
301 days is just magnificent.
Have a great day.
Steve xxx

Thanks everyone for your lovely messages, they do really mean a lot and are very much appreciatedxx xxx

Good morning diary,

301 days today, which feels like a good accomplishment, to get a 1 after the 0 lol.

It's Monday again and the last week in February, ( I do hope spring is just around the corner I have had enough of winter now lol).

Had a lovely day yesterday, alcohol, full Sunday roast, and then watched a couple of films my OH had acquired.

My recovery was high on my mind due to reaching that 300 number but it was positive thoughts nothing negative, I would not let those negative thoughts of the past in.

Have Little Man for a few hours today, me thinks yorkie will be getting a long walk, before it snows lol.

So another day of abstaining and maintaining, and another day of winning in every way. How positive is that, very very POSITIVE.

Wishing everyone a strong positive and stressfree gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne,

Thanks for your support x

Looks like you've been busy on the posting today girl!! :0) lol

Is that compulsive behaviour coming out by any chance??....

Ade xx

Hi Suzanne, many thanks for your post this morning, i am still in a dark place as you can see, and I really appreciate the support you are giving me (believe me I need it), its not the urge to gamble I am struggling to control, its the absolute agony of knowing a lifetime's worth of money will never be coming back. Like I said last night, I have finally accepted that gambling will not bring it back - nothing will - it's like 40 years of planning for a happy retirement gone in six years, well 20 months really.

Congrats on your 300 plus days, thats a top achievement, i will be with you on that milestone in Jan' 2016.