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Hi Suzanne thanks for your post and how welcome you have made me feel being back here your continued support is amazing.would like to wish you and your family a lovely Christmas and a happy n gamble free new year. Best wishes scottyboy xx

Well i cant wait till I get to 605 days. Well done Suzanne, maybe I'll get there one day.
Mba x

Have a lovely Christmas Suzanne and thanks for all the kind words on my journey!

Phil x

Hope you had a safe drive down & are all caught up in the Christmas excitement now! Thanks for all your support & a big fat MERRY CHRISTMAS! Hope Santa brings you some state of the art cleaning stuff...We really must sort out that visit 😉

I wished wrote:

Thanks Paul,Sandra,Alan and bear:))

Good Xmas Eve morning diary,

Last few days have been hectic, but all sorted now and looking sooo forward to seeing son and family today, long drive down but worth it just to,see them all.

Have managed to post on some diaries this morning lol, will post on more later, there are so many dear soldiers I have shared my journey with and I want to thank each and everyone of you, whether you have left the forum or still here.

Wishing everyone a very merry and happy gambling free XMAS EVE

Suzanne xx

Hello Suzanne

Thankyou x 1000 times. Merry Christmas from a soldier in arms.

Tri x

You too Suzanne, hope you've had a good time with the fam. Something to think about for the new year. You are great at giving comforting words and empathizing with fellow addicts, why not take what your good at into 3d. Your friend Dan x

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Merry Christmas Suzanne
Hope it's all you want it to be and everything you deserve

Cheryl xxx

Hey you!

Thanks for Xmas wishes and hope you had great time also

S xx

Thank you all very much for your Christmas messages very much appreciated :)))

Good afternoon diary.

Proud to say 609 days today, and I have been far too busy with family and traveling to even let Mr G, get any where near lol.

What a lovely Christmas I have had, because I did not have this gambling addiction strangling me lol.this has been my second gambling free Xmas, but I have enjoyed it more than I did last year :))

Lovely to see ginge post, and that he is safe and sound, but sad to see Dan day@time leaving us, he has been a big inspiration to me,,and he has opened my eyes even more to what recovery means, I will miss him posting on here. (Maybe he will pop n from time to time:))

Nice chill afternoon and evening on the agenda, watching a lot of catch up TV, and OH has downloaded a couple of new films, as its back to work tomorrow. for us both, hopefully, because the centre of Leeds is somewhat flooded in parts, am glad now that we live on a hill and not near a river.

Wishing everyone a happy relaxing gamble free holiday Monday

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne,

You really are a very lovely human being.

Happy exmas and a very merry new year.

warm regards... S.A 🙂

Hi Suzanne, thanks for popping by I like what you said about it being a strong post reading back it is only because I'm getting stronger and starting to embrace my recovery. Thanks for your support in the past and I'm sure in the future.

Good morning diary,

It's New Year's Eve, and folks will be making alsorts of resolutions, and most of them will sadly not be kept.

It reminds me of this ridiculous addiction, that is gambling, I have not made any New Years resolutions lol, I am going to carry on just plodding through, slow though it is, it is the way I have always approached my recovery, and it is working, I don't want/expect too much for me, I just want to keep my recovery tightly around me, so this addiction won't harm me anymore.

Sadly (well for me anyway) I think most CGs do have to reach their rock bottom in order to start recovery, I think that the main reason CGs have a dabble is because they have available money, because they have the cash and they have not broken their triangle, it really is true, if you take one of the triangle away, it is impossible to play, and if CGs don't do this, I believe they i are not 100% ready to stop.

There is no way a CG can play responsibly, once we win and start chasing that win, (why we chase a win Is ridiculous but we do)

We are hooked and with me, I really did have to reach rock bottom, I stole from my OH, I took PD loans out in his name, I was a total wreck at the end, I sold all my gold, my car, I was in huge debt, (still am but I am in charge of how much I pay. Back) gambling broke my heart at the end, because I had nothing left to give it, I felt suicidal with shame, and yet it was sooo very hard to actually let go. but I did, and I have not once returned, my triangle is permantly kept broken, because obviously Mr G does try it on, and that is why I guess I will always keep it broken. But that is ok.:))

One of my favourite words on here is positivity, that has kept me going, there is always a positive to find from a negative ;)) if we look deep enough, and recovery is about looking deep enough at the bigger picture.

Addiction thrives on negativity, more than any other emotion in my experience, it wants us to feel negative, Infact it will try any thought/emotion going, and that is why we can never underestimate this addiction.

I was thinking about not doing the 2016 challenge, but why stop something that has been a fantastic tool for me, I have already joined Scottys once a month one, I do believe my addiction, thought good she is moving away from this forum, well Mr G I have baffled you today, by signing up to the 2016 challenge, 🙂

Looking soooo forward to seeing the New Year in, and putting this one behind, going to sons girlfriends Dads house to celebrate, jeez must be on my good behaviour lol.:)))

No New Years resolutions, because I know I would break them lol, and my recovery rollercoaster ride does mean itotally honest with myself.

Wishing everyone on this forum, from both sides of the fence, a very happy (gambling thought free) New Year.

Suzanne xx

Beautifully put! Enjoy!

Beautifully put indeed Blondie, and thanks so much for making my 2015 gamble free, I truly feel I would have buckled to Mr gamble without the support from yourself and others.....Juuuuune, Kelly, ODAAT, Sandra, Coo Coo, Ade, and the Guvnor to name but three ;-)) ...forget those resolutions and have a lovely NY party and a few voddies of course to see hopefully another SAS year in ;-))

I wish you and and your family a happy healthy 2016, I hope your lads fine and well after his hospital tests Suzanne.

I've a few little jobs to do around the house and then our daughters and family's are coming to ours this evening ;-)))

Catch you next year Blondie, cheeeeers OAU..Ginger Gaz x

Have a happy New year miss popular , sending you a kiss from Ireland x