Life begins again

Hope things improve soon.

CW

Hi Suzanne , just a thought ! Could you not pay one of the Lorry drivers £50 out of the money you saved doing the painting yourself to knock your house down ? At least you could claim the insurance and take it off the market , jobs a goodun but as Paul says if that makes sense ? LOL !

Hai Suzanne,

Just a thought....

If your shrewd with the developer and i dont mean take them on. But be nice and esxplain the hassle your experiencing, you maybe able to wrangle something out of this pollarver. Even if its only your car cleaned once a week or new carpets. They should have a road cleaner after each shift, i'm not sure whether thats law or not or i just worked for a nice company. They will also be signed upto the ' Considerate constractors scheme ', which safe guards local residents.

Take the builders a cake and a hot flask and have a nice chat and the world could be your oyster.. Forget about the council!!

ps, your guilting me with painting the house

Hey Suzanne, You've got a lot on your plate and you're handling it without gambling. You're doing just fine 🙂

I can understand your frustrations with the building work going on. My niece is having the same thing and not only is her place affected by the noise, dirt, dust etc they also keep parking in her parking space! I'm wondering whether you'll be better off waiting to sell until after the work is completed? It can put buyers off when they come and see all the work going on, but when it's all finished and bright and shiny new...well, people are less bothered. There was a big estate of houses put up not a million miles from me a few years ago. We all felt sorry for the houses opposite having to live through it, but in the end the finished houses were so much better than the run down school that was there before that the value of all the other houses around increased. Just a thought 🙂

Keep well. Scream if you have to!

LB x

Hai Suzanne.

Builders are cool. So, sorry will need to decline job. But I know you've got the tools to get them eating out of your hand....

As for your thought.......

Curiosity killed the cat.............. but satisfaction bought it back..

Thanks folks for your messages, very much appreciated as always :))

Good evening diary.

Feel quite light this evening, I have paid one more debt off today from over two years ago, I have just put on on our bed a new duvet and new pillows and a new duvet set, (stupid but it feels good) this time 2 years ago I was scratching for every penny to feed my addiction, by taking loan after loan after loan (what the hell was I doing) I know I was in the grip of this horrendous addiction addiction and the only way out I thought (realise now it was that addiction talking ) was to keep playing, utter utter madness.

I am finding it quite surprising (if that makes sense) to be able to now afford a new duvet, pillows and de vet set and feel like I have really achieved something, hell this time two years ago I was panicking about loo rolls, never mind food, and we were in soo much unctrollable debt, it's quite unbelievable how far I have come on this journey, just being able to afford simple things, without getting into debt is quite amazing to me, hell I was getting into further debt by just buying loo rolls, the interest on all my loans was horrendous, and my OH at that time did not have a clue.

I luv having money to spend on just normal stuff without getting into further debt, and even more I luv my addiction hating thst.

Wishing everyone a calm, positive and safe gambling free evening.

Suzanne xxx

Hey S,

Thanks for dropping in and the hugs....yyuuuppp...I'll take them ☺
Quite emotional recently and guess need to keep walking through the storm and survive with some movies (yep...can get violins out lol) & glass of juice!...ohhh..i didn't drink juice for ages ...besides just found there are many different tastes teas so yup..I'm on the experimental journey here lol

You have told me numerous times about work ..but i ignored...ignored & ignored..now i come here and feel like beaten up to the pulp gal and think - f**k!! This cannot go on..i simply cannot do nights, it takes too much away from me health & mind wise. Not sure if I'm heading into the storm of changes but trying at least take few bits away to help me to push through.

Agggrrr...look at that waffle! Sorry...felt on the edge of tears all day (even on the run) & just maybe my new medicines is playing with my emotions, but really wanted to talk to someone today. I did visit sister & lil boy (cup of brew ☺) and feel a little better now. I know why I'm jumpy, back to work tommorow and gonna have to face the music...sigh...i best get my wrists out and ready for a slap 🙁

Anyway...i see you voicing urself on the house situ! You didn't say you live in a car crash surroundings! :-0...of course i think that's what put buyers off but you need to keep pushing and i think LB suggested to wait a lil longer. Besides, marked usually calms down during this time but spring/summer should open new door hun..i know how much you want it, you will sell it girl and will happily settle down here being my neighbour! ☺..how good is that! I will mk you a brew also 😉

Stay safe, you're doing amazingly well my friend!

S xx

Ps. Money well spend today! Enjoy crispy new sheets 🙂

Thanks Suzanne , worried as she'd gone a bit quiet that's all ! Hope you've had a good day and the builders not causing you too much grief ? . Take care and thanks again x

When you wrote that it was going to take 2 years for the building work to finish, I thought how can it take so long...how slow are those builders? Now I understand...they're spending half their time moving dirt from one part of the site to the other...and then (probably) back again! I really can understand how maddening that must be.

You may not think you have much patience, but I happen to think you've got the patience of a saint 🙂 As you say, not much you can do...que sera, sera. Cheers to you Saint Suzanne!

LB x

Thanks Suzanne , just spoken to the relatives in Cornwall and alls good ! Your piles of dirt sound a bit like clearing out my house sometimes , I seem to move one pile of cra.P into another room and then move it again a couple of days later , the only good news is that it's getting closer to the front door ! Have a great day tomorrow and sweet dreams ! X

Hi,

Thanks for your kind post on my diary recently. Keep up the good work

Best wishes x

Hi Suzanne

It certainly is the simple things in life which can make us happy. I have found that this has been the one positive thing from being troubled by gambling for a period of my life.

I now enjoy so much, just looking into my fridge/freezer and in my cupboards and seeing them full, not to mention, plenty of my favourite wine stocked up!

Sleep well in your comfy bed with its new covers!

Take care.

Feb.

Hey you ☺
Message from Paul since i think he got threads mixed up

Great to see you are still winning at gambling Suzanne - by not gambling.

Paul

& my own 2p worth - you keep rocking and wining the fight!!! Go go go S ☺

Happy Friday 😉

S x

I wished wrote:

Thanks folks for your messages, very much appreciated as always :))

Good evening diary.

Feel quite light this evening, I have paid one more debt off today from over two years ago, I have just put on on our bed a new duvet and new pillows and a new duvet set, (stupid but it feels good) this time 2 years ago I was scratching for every penny to feed my addiction, by taking loan after loan after loan (what the hell was I doing) I know I was in the grip of this horrendous addiction addiction and the only way out I thought (realise now it was that addiction talking ) was to keep playing, utter utter madness.

I am finding it quite surprising (if that makes sense) to be able to now afford a new duvet, pillows and de vet set and feel like I have really achieved something, hell this time two years ago I was panicking about loo rolls, never mind food, and we were in soo much unctrollable debt, it's quite unbelievable how far I have come on this journey, just being able to afford simple things, without getting into debt is quite amazing to me, hell I was getting into further debt by just buying loo rolls, the interest on all my loans was horrendous, and my OH at that time did not have a clue.

I luv having money to spend on just normal stuff without getting into further debt, and even more I luv my addiction hating thst.

Wishing everyone a calm, positive and safe gambling free evening.

Suzanne xxx

Hi S,

Are you sleeping well with that new pillow? Nothing worse is there if you can't.

Well done on doing the basics right. You should be real proud of yourself. Enjoy the smile that should be on your face. Tri

Good afternoon diary,

665 days of having my freedom back, he'll my life back:))

Been busy busy painting the house, hall landing, done, down stairs loo done, kitchen done, lounge next, ohh lol. As theroputic as cleaning bloody Windows lol., but if it's a means to selling our house it's sure worth it, doing the whole house in white, (as that's the latest fashion now everything white lol).

As with cleaning windows:) painting gets me thinking and I have come to the conclusion st this time(my own thoughts and experiences ofcourse ) but I want to write this on my diary.

I had cervical cancer in my 20s, I had a lot of operations (cone biopsys over a period of 10 years) they kept you in hospital for around a week in those days lol, anyway in the end they did a hysterectomy on me st the tender age of 36, was I scared or worried, he'll no, I was young I was a single mum with two strong minded sons to guide and be therefore, I did not for one minute think I might die from this cancer and ofcourse I didn't, I had the ops, treatment and controlled it, still had vault smears every five years.until 10 years ago, got the all clear :)) but I know we all have a gene inside us can be be lighted up at any time.

So this is where my time (as zi call it with cancer) reminds me of this horrible addiction, but don't get me wrong they are so different issues they could not be far enough away from each other and yet, the similarity of my personal inside battle(I guess is worse with this addiction) I don't worry about my cancer coming back but I do worry and stay on guard with this horrendous addiction ((if that makes sense) they cut the cancer out but they can't cut this addiction out, it's all down to me to keep strong, positive and want recovery more than anything else, and do you know what diary I do, jeez the sanity of recovery and facing and dealing with real life

far outweighs by 10000 % of what thst addiction ever did and can do for me, it hates that, I luv it 🙂 no I am not in control of this addiction, I am living along side with it, but I am winning every day because I make that daily simple choice NO, because I am only too aware that I can't play because I can't stop once started, and trust me I bear the deep scars inside on that one, the scars from my ops, are on the outside and can be seen. These addiction scars can't be seen, (and that is what makes this addiction so deadly)

Wishing everyone a strong, positive and calm gambling free evening.

Suzanne xx