Life begins again

Have a great gamble free weekend Suzanne.

Steve xxx

I love your entry! It made me smile thinking about your positivity! Well done you for getting so far and i hope you are having a lovely day x

Laura x

Your great support for everybody Suzanne keep it up. Stay strong and happy

Hi Suzanne

Well done on 110 days, no mean feat. Enjoy your 2 days off and ty for continued support.

Take care and best wishes

Cheryl xxx

On the 31-12-14 I will have reached 250 days, has you enter the New Year you will also hit that target.

Great incentive for both of us.

Take care Suzanne.

Shaun

Good morning diary

111 days and not even one penny spent on any form of gambling

Day off today son coming round with little man

It's a lovely feeling to know we have enough money to get by now each month and pay those gambling debts of each month

Another PD loan will be finished next pay day so that will be 3 loans paid off and that feels sooo good

I will be smiling again today because I am abstaining and maintaining and in control today

Life is getting easier and saner as each day goes by

And I am beginning to feel optimistic about the future

There certainly is a life after abstaining having money for essentials and bills and food every day now feels like such an achievement for me sounds stupid but it feels great not having to worry where the next penny is coming from

One thing is certain my next penny is definitely not going on gambling

I will not be playing today because it would be utter madness to undo what I have achieved

Wishing everyone a positive strong and peaceful gambling free day

Suzanne xx

I am so happy for you x getting this far is a massive achievement and an inspiration to those of us further back the line.

you deserve to feel proud of where you have got to x

i hope you have a fantastic day, smiling in the knowledge of how well you are doing x

Laura x

Suzanne

Great to see your resolve grows,yes the 'normal' things that folk take for granted are for us achievements we can use to build our resolve.

Life will improve and continue to do so all the time we continue to make the right choice

That choice really does make us winners

Enjoy the rewards of your efforts

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

Good morning diary

112 days which makes 16 whole weeks of not having spent even one penny on any form of gambling

It really does feel a lot longer than 16 weeks and I still feel like my life is somewhat on hold but that beats the hold that gambling had on me any day

It is getting easier andI can now see my debts going Down And I know when the PD loans are cleared I will have such a weight lifted from me I just have to be patient and continue to take one day at a time

It's Monday my day off no little man today the triangle is all there all 3 but I won't be tempted today I am in control today

I will not be playing today because I am in control today

Wishing everyone a happy positive and strong gambling free day

Suzanne xx

16 weeks is awesome Suzanne! I am very Proud to part of your recovery and I am very proud to have you as part of mine!

Like you said it doest get easier but the time that we havent gambled does feel longer.

Keep going and every day you are going to be a winner!

Steve xxx

Suzanne, I am in awe - sixteen weeks. Well done - and thank you so much for your regular messages of support, it means such a lot. Keep going - you should be proud 🙂 xx

Hi Suzanne! You have supported and encouraged me since I joined this site.... Am only on day 3 but hopefully winning! Your achievement to date is brilliant - keep going!!! Main thing is, don't EVER think you're over it....the B*****r will come back and bite you on the a**!! All the best. Helen x

Hi Suzanne,

Well done on 16 weeks, you are an inspiration and such a support to lots on here, onwards and upwards ( downwards with the debt ☺)

Take care and best wishes

Cheryl xxx

Dear diary

Thoughts for today

Quite negative because something at the back of my mind is waiting (if that makes sense ) for the right moment it can be patient but I know it's there waiting I have had no barriers today with the triangle all left open I know I only have cash but it would take me 10 mins to put money on my card

I have just come back from a long walk with doggie bless her she does understand my mood swings and just goes along with it giving me unconditional love

The addiction knows I am in control today ( my god does that even make sense) all I know is it won't matter what frame of mind I am in happy sad depressed stressed whatever it's waiting to pounce I can feel it and it feels horrible because I seriously and sincerely do not want to play it does not interest me at all I have no urges or thoughts to play

Have not had this feeling before it's sort of smouldering at the back ( my OH would not understand this at all) but then neither do I

I feel so stupid even putting this on my diary but I have to put all my gambling thoughts down for me to remember

I will be glad when my Mondays off are happy ones when I am on my own

I am trying to put this down to my moods which I know change everyday and tomorrow is another day and I know I will feel different

Will have a well deserved alcoholic drink or two now while I prepare dinner cos I know The addiction has no chance when I have a drink it knows I have to be in control when playing and I won't be playing

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne

You are doing so well. Your diary is exactly as it should be, your feelings and thoughts. It helps to write things down if only to get the thoughts into some kind of reason. As time goes on, reading back on your thoughts will help as you get stronger and stronger.

16 weeks is amazing Suzanne. I am so proud of you.

Keep on going.

Elfie x