Life begins again

Morning Suzanne

Keeping adding to the tally of perfect bet free days. Bet you must be wondering by now why on earth you started in the first place!

Managed to get the hair colour changed and like you not a green hair in sight. But then I wasn't brave enough to do it myself lol

Feeling good on the inside and out

The sun is trying to shine which always helps make my day a better one x

Keep going my lovely x

Morning Suzanne.

138 days is excellent. You must be so proud as 138 days ago you probably wondered how you'd ever get here but you have.

Keep abstaining and I look forward to make it 138 days next january

Mba

Cheers again for your support Suzanne.you are doing brilliant yourself.138 day without a bet. 1st class x

Well done Suzanne x

Hi Suzanne

Thanks for the post, always makes me smile x

I think I'm done listening to my heart I'm now listening to what my head says.

Hopefully not long now til I move and get to start all over. Although that's bound to be stressful. So much to organise before hand.

Can't tell you how much I'm looking forward to being settled where I want to be and how I want to be.

So much has changed over the last 12/18 months. The biggest change is in me.

I know I'm going to ride a roller coaster of emotions until I'm finally settled but one thing I know for sure is that this is the most right decision I've ever made.

Xxx

Well done Suzanne thanks for your support as always. Really great to be walking this journey with you x

Good morning diary

139 days today of not spending one single penny on any form of gambling

Felt restless when I came home from work last night, bad day at work, even OH commented and asked me if I was bored but I could feel the pull of addiction trying to take over to relax me but I had a couple of drinks and calmed down

Still feel restless this morning but having family over again for Sunday lunch so that will keep me busy and of course guard up tightly secured

My job at the moment is making me stressed anxious and restless because I still have no conclusion yet to redundancy

Hopefully it will be this week

2 days off now so that feels good

I will turn any negatives into positives today because why would I want to turn my life upside down again

Well I don't

I will not be playing today because I would lose a lot more than just money

Wishing everyone a safe positive and peaceful gambling free day

Suzanne xx

139 days is an amazing achievement. Hope you have a lovely Sunday with your family. That's what it's all about! Life's too short to be chucking money down the drain!

Enjoy.

Steve xxx

Hi Suzanne

Well done on 139 days and I hope you get a decision soon regarding redundancy. Scary to read that you had the pull to gamble but wonderful that you recognised it and have all your gaurds and blocks in place. Keep inspiring people and stay strong. Enjoy your day with the family.

Take care and best wishes

Cheryl xxx

Well done Suzanne! It's easy isn't it to feel that 'pull' when addiction takes over? When we're feeling down we think a quick fix is needed..... it ain't gonna do any good!!! Keep going....stay strong! Helen. X

Hi Suzanne those feelings will always hang around when we feel down as we used gambling for years to feel better when we were down.hope things get better at work soon for you.you have over 100 days away from a bet to loses aswel as hard earned money.how bad would it be going back to day 1. Hope you have good day with family.take care xx

Hi Suzanne,

Recovery is bespoke my friend and we don't know in what mindset we might be getting up to. There is good days and bad days but one thing for sure we never want to make bad day even worse by making the wrong choice.

You are real asset to this forum. Your support is unconditional and very much much appreciated. Just one word can make ones day completely different. .just do not forget to put no.1 in first place.It is you and your recovery is something no one else can have. Special in it's own way.

keep up good work, never stop believing and keep your guard up high, secured and strong on a tough days.

I hope work will deliver only good news, take it as it comes. Do not overthink stuff beforehand. It is so much easier.

All the best and keep up good work. Remember don't let no f****r get you down lol (sorry but i am one ranty b****h on here lol)

B good 🙂

S x

Good evening diary

Had a nice normal family Sunday again today but still feeling a little stressed and out of place if that makes sense

I know my moods and feelings change like the weather so I am just riding through it staying strong

Gambling was my life for 7 years so the void will come back at vulnerable times I realise that

20 whole weeks of being gamble free tomorrow and that is very positive for me to keep abstaining and maintaining one day at a time through the ups and downs of life

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne

I like that word .... normal !

The ups and downs of life were always there during your 7 years of gambling but you are now dealing with them in a 'normal' way. And you don't have the gut-wrenching, soul-destroying, can't sleep at night feelings you had when you were gambling.

You are doing so well and are inspiring to everyone on here.

Well done.

Elfie x

Morning Suzanne.

Congratulations on 20 weeks, That's amazing!

Keep firmly 39 days behind me!

Steve xxx