Metamorphosis

Couldn't understand a word my grandad said he had such a strong Cumbrian accent and my son in law has lived in the south for fifteen years but I still struggle sometimes to know what he means especially onthe phone.

There is a Cumbrian dictionary and I love this one - Ah knack'd me cleppets when ah landed on yon yat = I caused some injury to my under-carriage as I landed incorrectly when jumping the gate.

Please feel free to make use of it.

Having to wear sandals today as too sizzly hot to walk berefoot on my deck and gangplank yeouch.

Oops guess I brought up the wrong thread. Lol yeah hot here too and finally broke down and turned on the air conditioning. Did drag out the grill though for them Burgers and passed on the sidewalk method. Lol yup they turned out excellent even the ones with buffalo sauce and all.

Hope them gambling days have been a thing of the past.

Hi Dragonfly,

Thanks 4 all ur support on my diary, it means a lot 🙂

U r doing gr8, u support a lot of others here and it helps ppl stay strong. U should be proud of urself 🙂

Have a gr8 day and enjoy the sunshine xx

Everyone wishes to live with as few regrets as possible. And although regrets are inevitable, our goals should be about living and choosing our paths consciously. As each decision we make sets us on a particular path, we often times get swept along by the frenzy of life. But the trick is to hold fast to your true self.

“You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough.” - Mae West

Hey DF

Glad to see you are still buzzing and flying around ....I think a few folks are busy living life to the full right now ....

Think Joan may also be having a well deserved break too ...

One life ...live it ...xxx

Hi Dragonfly

I love the Mae West quote and a sentiment I often say to folk I work with who beat themselves up about mistakes they've made.

I'm pleased to see you flourish and move forward in this new bit of your journey with renewed vigour and strength.

Take care

Irene

x

Thanks peeps but has not been a good day. Just arrived home after 14 hour day, 9 of which were spent in 100 degrees in my tin can car with no air conditioning driving 180 miles to Stansted and back. Two nasty accidents, fire crews cutting someone out, you never leave home thinking this could be my last day.

My ex has gone to the States for a couple of weeks to see his grandchildren before we go away in August and worried about him too, realise how scared I am that anything will happen to him as I know he is not telling me how advanced his cancer is.

Know with family stuff, work and health I am vulnerable and need to try to work out some way of managing all this as there are too many triggers and not enough barriers.

Anyhow suppose as its gone 3.00am I had better try to get some sleep to renew my vigour and strength for a better day tomorrow.

Hello there,

I have to say it seems like you going through a lot of dificulties.It must be very hard, when it looks like everything is happening at once.

But you are on this journey and doing great, every day just makes us stronger, and it's easier to cope with obsticles coming our way.

Me and you know that keeping guard up is not easy, and it seems heavy now and again, but you are stronger than before. Believe in yourself and you will come out the other end.

Just day at a time,

Take care

Sandra x

Hi Dragonfly,

I hear you loud and clear. Stresses and worries and lots of uphill climbing. P is away this week in Cambridge England of all places! Lol. She has been writing to me about the heatwave over there and no air conditioning! That sounds brutal. Now some might say that complaining about no ac is whining but, I have asthma and I know that you struggle as well and the 100 degree heat with heat indexes into the 110s is just too d**n much!!! Hang in there pal. I have been reading all week. Just could not bring myself to write. Was buried with work and taking care of mom. I guess I do sound a little whiny today. lol! Anyway, gambling never solves a d**n thing. You and I both know that much. We always end up feeling worse. Right? Well, enough said then. Thinking of getting naked and running through the sprinkler in the backyard. That would be quite a sight. lol!! joanxxxx

Df

I hope your finding resolve my dear friend as Joan is so right gambling ain't gonna solve anything.

It will use all you woes and in the same breathe the good times to get you back at it.

We know the results of going back at it.

Further destruction and self loathing.

The line is always there, unconditionally.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Keep on keeping on.

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The axewoman cometh.

Howling at the moon tonight.

Hi Dragonfly

I'm hoping thing's have got a bit less difficult this week.

That feeling of rage against gambling is so familiar- luckily I've no access to an axe lol. The rage, I've come to realise, is futile- there will always be gambling around. I just need to keep strong and find other ways to cope with stuff without resorting to those sites.

Oops- that last para should prob be on my diary (sorry!!).

Anyhow, I'm hoping you're doing good, feeling well and keeping cool 🙂

Take care

Irene

x

Hi Dragonfly,

Just skulking around the diaries tonight. Not much to say but, thinking of you and sending you truck loads of well wishes. -joanxxxxx

Hi Dragonfly,

Just skulking around the diaries tonight. Not much to say but, thinking of you and sending you truck loads of well wishes. -joanxxxxx

Thanks Irene and Joan but wearing my invisibility cloak at the moment as too vulnerable to see or be seen.

Overwhelmed by health problems and oversensitive, putting words in others mouths that don't exist but I hear anyway.

Sad and scared and no one knows once the mask is in place each day, would they care if they knew, I think not.

Drained dry by other people and just a low ebb and will fight back as always but feeling threatened and lifeless and joyless which is a danger zone.

Prefer the anger to the sadness as it fits me better so still howling at the moon but seeing its beauty as well.