my betting diary

Hi wp,

There will be times when we will all regret the past and you certainly experienced this recently.

But what's really important is that all of this is in the past and we can't do anything about it.

What really matters is the future.

November

Hi wp

Thanks for your post, words of encouragement from someone who had similar gambling habits is always welcomed.

For me that Saturday afternoon thing, C4 racing was always something I absolutely loved.

Have been keen racing bloke all my life and miss it now one hell of a lot.

I so enjoyed watching those races unfold. The skill, the tactics, I can go on.......

But thing is I know now that I can't go near it any more.

Very very difficult but I will do it like you.

47 days for me today, and in that time my resolve has been strong enough to not go anywhere near any temptation.

Keep strong and keep posting, you help a lot of people on here.

David

hi there at last bet free for 5 days so far last bet on 18th Sept 2010, been very hard was betting everyday after work then on the net at night , no more you never win in this game, thanks for help.

wp

Just taking my weekly dose of 25ml of gamcare medicine - thought I'd say "hi" while I'm partaking!!

Good to see that you're still spending so much time helping others.

All the best

Hatch

Hi wp,

Just read through the last few weeks of your diary, you seem to be coping with the obstacles that are put in your way, life’s not easy BUT it’s a hell of a lot easier than when you gamble.

I read the thread in question on OPG it was an eye opener and shows how powerful addiction is.

Thanks for the advice on payday loans the Blackpool sponsor has been my first port of call over the last few months, hopefully next month will be different.

Just to add my message of thanks for the hours you have invested in other people’s recoveries, I imagine that you have got a lot more out of it than the time you invested in gambling.

Keep The Faith

Hi wp!

Enjoy some quality time with the kids mate.

You deserve it.

I know from knowing your diary wp that you would love to see your kids more often(ofcourse)and i know things haven't been the best at times between you and your other half but i want to remind you that the positive steps you have taken to kick this addiction will only work in your favour in the long term.

Stay strong my friend.

Viggo.

With thanks to viggo,tom,hatch,baljit ?? (Dont think ive posted on your diary before but thanks anyway),david,november,unlucky,karmoni and freda...this addiction can really grip you at times...for the past few days the demons have been itching away at me...with the football season into full swing and teams starting to find there form temptations have been there..also the jumps season is just around the corner where in the past ive enjoyed trips to the races and some championship races at that ...today for instance i had a strong urge to get pi ss ed and have a major blow out...it came out of nowhere...i just thought ive got a lifetime to get through this and didnt think i could change for that length of time..!!! .ARGHHH !!! Its a struggle..it was the gambler inside me desperate to get out for the 1st time in a long time..... .what stopped me ?? 1) i was working 2) i dont have a bottomless pit of money but most of all 3 ) saw bairns this morning for little while and the little one said "please dont go daddy"....THAT is WHERE my gambling got me and it certainly hurts but puts it all into perspective ...this is not a cry for help,im just using my diary accordingly...as ive said before im in this fighting on my lonesome and i will beat this...i just have to remind myself i cant win cause i cant stop....For now i need to concentrate on myself,no kidding ive still got a few hard months ahead but ive come this far havent i ???...today i did not bet tomorrow i wont bet....thanks to these diaries we CAN do this folks 🙂

Hi mate...tnx for posts'...Well that is sweet that the kid said don't go...I guess that they really meant it...You must try to make yourself feel really proud of taking the time& listening then sharing the moment with us!... Kids can sense your deepest thoughts without really knowing.......Gambling is a demon that eats away at everything......It is very difficult trying to survive on basic needs......Alcohol, Food, exercise, drugs & GAMBLING, all amount to excesses......I too got really drunk not long ago & boy did I feel depressed and guilty after...Even just earlier I stuffed my face and that doesnt feel to good knowing it was wrong, Knowing after sadly is to late?.....I will try my best not to contemplate all of the above in excess...but most of all Never contemplate gambling...Because! You will not be able to do any of the others correctly in the right mind set.......I think people like us give in to weaknesses to easy.....We have already been there...No need to go again...Dont forget the harm that it has done in the past!

Stay focused!

Fast li£e

Hi wp,

Thanks for your post on my diary.

You took your kid's comment really close to heart. Would you have done this when you were in full gambling swing? This shows how far you have come.

Just keep that one little moment of what your kid said in your head every time those evil gambling thoughts think about returning.

And you will be guaranteed to beat them and win!

Getting there

just popped by to say "hi" and well done for how far you have come. Thank goodness you didnt give into that urge. Time is such a great healer, as everyone was telling me months ago, and it is working, we just cant afford to upend it at any time as we go back further than the last bad point, which takes even longer to repair. This is it for me....forward, and I sense you too wp are going that way. We ARE doing it matey and it IS getting better slowly well done xxx Maddie xxxx

Hi post,

Thought i'd pop in and see how you are getting on.

40 weeks is a great achievement mate, well done!!! You have come so far in your recovery and have shown unbelievable strength to get through some of the tough times you have faced. Persistance will get you where you want to be mate. Keep up the good work.

TIWBTIWBWCDT 🙂

Stay Strong

Steve

Hi wp

Just wanted to echo what everyone else has said really m8 40 weeks is a great achievement and its been great for me working my addiction alongside you.Long may we continue.All the best Jeff.

Hey wp how you doing -) yep Jeffs post on my diary hit the mark. shrug of that monday morning feeling and get on with life. And without gambling what a life that can be.

Keep going and dont worry to much on the jumps season 😉 Stay strong all the best to you Blocked.

Hi wp, I'm sorry that you are struggling at the moment. I appreciate how lucky I am having a wife and kids with me. I can't imagine how difficult this recovery has been for you. You have come this far. I know you won't slip but I do feel for you and the situation you are in. You are having to do this the hardest way possible. Stay strong. Russ

Hi wp,

You are doing fab you really are. Its been a long time for you now, and you can't throw that all away. YOU CAN DO THIS!

I totally agree with the whole 'I can't keep this up forever' thing. When we look too far ahead, its really scary. However, I didn't think I could stay bet free for 3 months and Ive done it. That just proves that we can do more than we realise!

But just stick to keeping yourself out of mischief today mate, worry about tomorrow when it comes 🙂

We CAN do this!

Take care,

f x