My diary

Day 2

Thanks Lucy 🙂

Took a significant hit financially so now counting down the days till pay day again. But trying not to dwell and going to focus on looking after myself (get sleep etc) and eventually I'll be able to sort out the mess in s few weeks.

Not giving up

woop day 3!

Day 3 indeed 🙂

Thank you xx

Day 5

Emotional evening. Anxiety and honesty about just how depressed I am about every penny wasted and every poor choice trying to chase the losses.

Apologies for the woe is me moment but finally admitting to myself and confiding in my OH why I have been weak and got myself in to such a bad financial state.

Felt good to show my weakness and feel another step closer to letting it go.

Giving up the chase, not giving up on giving up the game 🙂

It is an emotional rollercoaster - lets stay on it together!

Day 6

Still on board! 🙂

1 week complete again 🙂

Hi,

I gave up about 3 months ago and came straight to my gf and she agreed to help me if I was honest but over the last couple of weeks I've relapsed and now certain cards are above what she thinks they are. I'm struggling on how to tell her. Hardly slept last night

Dale

Hi Dale

Thanks for stopping by. Firstly it's important that you know whatever advice I give is based purely on my own experience and everyone has to deal with the addiction in their own way as we all do it for different reasons. The best advice I can give is - try to figure out the reason/reasons you Personally cant stop gambling? Think about how you felt when you relapsed. I personally have figured out that my Provence is due to 2 things.1) mental escape from my problems and 2) trying to win back losses to dig myself out of the hole I have got myself in to.

The bottom line is, when it's affecting your life it isn't fun anymore and costing you money, time and relashionships. Try to be honest with your gf. It is really hard but try to be calm and try to explain that relapse is very common and actually considered as part of recovery in most cases. And the same with your family, understanding is key. Maybe get them to come in here and read some of the diary ls which you feel are familiar to your problem to help them understand.

Going it alone is so difficult and it always comes out in the end to the ones you love so best get it out the way asap so you can start to repair the damage.

Good luck dale, don't give up 🙂

Day 8

Still here. Still gf

Over a week again - great!

Thinking about pay day a lot and am determind to get past that 21 day mark!

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Day 9

Stressful day today. Money is low and just a lot on at work. Have thought about my situation a lot today. I think mainly just because stress is making me anxious but no urges to gamble.

Double digits tomorrow and this feeling will pass 🙂

Double figures - excellent!