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So happy for you red, you will get to one month and don't let them urges get the better of you. Life is much better without it. Don't give up. X

Day 19

Thanks everyone, really needed that little boost right now. The urges a thick and fast today for no other reason that I can tell other than just tired.

I will not give up on giving up. This feeling will pass.

Early night tonight I think. Tomorrow is another day and one step closer to my 3 week goal вњ…

Just sending you another little lift red:) because you are soo worth it.

Well done you on 19 hard days Of abstaining and maintaining.

Suzanne xxx

Day 20! One more day till 3 weeks!!! 🙂

Still knackered but no urge to gamble. Looking forward to an evening out tomorrow night but sticking to my gf ways!

Hi Red
Thank you so much for your words of encouragement on my diary, as they say every little helps :0),
How kind of you to say I was the reason you posted but always remember you are the one who took the first step and found the site.
Well done on 3 weeks tomorrow and keep strong
Take care Cheryl xx

WOOP 3 WEEKS!!!!

Day 21

I made it. Just. Managed to log on to an old site last night but had a £10 limit. Gambled and lost the tenner and immediately deleted the account.

I wish I could say I hadn't gambled at all but I'm not going to beat mysel up over this one. I remember giving up smoking and having a cigarette but rather than starting the counter again I used it as an incentive not to let it happen again.

I'm learning to forgive myself for the little things which will hopefully be a step towards not wanting to escape my life which results in a much more extreme self destruct behaviour. I am a good person who is working towards being a happier person 🙂

21 days - 3 weeks - onwards and upwards!

Done it again.

Not really much to say now. 1 day at a time.

Red just came to check in on you - you did really well to get to 3 weeks - now you just start again - take it one day at a time. As much support as anyone can give you - its only you that can do it - try not to dwell on it and dont have a meltdown and blow everything xxxx

Agree with wants to stop red, dust yourself off and carry on,

Keep strong.

Suzanne xx

Just came clean with the OH

Mixed emotions cos I feel good about being honest but bad because it's stressful for him and the trust is broken again (the same trust he has broken before as well but that's no excuse I know)

So complicated and all I have to do is not gamble, sounds easy enough eh?!

Hope we can get past it - hopefully the saying what doesn't kill you makes u stronger will apply soon!

You are right it does sound easy - yet its the hardest thing that we have ever done! One day at a time Red xx

Day 1 again 🙂

Thank you all for your ongoing support, it really means a lot xx

New day, new plan, one day at a time.

Im sorry to hear that, but its a slip so hope you haven't done a major session and lost a lot. Restart and regain your confidence and try look for alternative way of avoid gambling ie setting all the blockers and pass your financial control someone else if you dont trust yourself just yet.

You will get there x

Lucy