Day 76
Still restless but still gf
Update: just checked the bank balance. It feels AMAZING to not have any gambling transactions on my account for the last 2 months!! XD
Day 77 - 11 weeks!
One more week and I will have been gamble free for 3 months! There was a time when I never thought I would make it this far. 2 more counselling sessions to go. The OH has been honest to date as far as I know and has said as soon as transactions from his last gambling shame have cleared to self exclude him. I can't be 100% on that one but I know I can 100% say that I have not gambled for 11 weeks and have no plans to do so. 1 day at a time
Day 79
Shattered but made it through the day and counselling (the penultimate!) early night. Still get anxious but don't wake up in a cold sweat anymore! That's the joy of being a non gambler. Just like my life before I started gambling funnily enough 🙂
Day 80!
Always like a round number 🙂 it's finally the wkend and all I could think about to relax with when I got home tonight was a cup of tea and a biscuit! That's the kind of reward that really does make me feel happy 🙂
Just seen a pay day loan advert (actually one this morning and now as soon as I sat down this evening! How do they get away with it?) and felt no shame as I finally don't have one, don't need one and couldn't get one even if I tried as closed that option off 80 days ago! Once you undo the 'brainwashing' that we impart on ourself to justify the gambling, it just seems so illogical. There was a time I never thought I would feel this way again.
And so you should like a round number red 80 of winning:)) Listen I still get those ridiciulous emails, texts , etc for payday loans, what a nasty fxxkibg sick joke as we now see the bigger picture with these pay day loansharks:))
be very proud of yourself , keep the bigger picture in front and keep going.
Suzanne
So proud of you red. Sorry to let you down x
Day 82
Up at 7 ironing shirts ready for the week ahead and been to the gym! OH making me a steak for lunch. That's a Sunday to be feeling good about 🙂
Day 83
Tomorrow will be 3 months since I last gambled. Feeling proud and want to continue my life as a non gambler
Day 84 - 12 weeks = 3 months!!
I did it. This time 3 months ago I had to admit to my OH, Again! That I had maxed out a credit card gambling. Desperately trying to win back my loses which had accumulated over a year. I am still in debt and the bank balance still has a long way to go but I am so happy to be this far as a non gambler. It can be done but something has to change. Counselling was it for me. Last session this week.
Hi, Red,
Glad to hear you're doing well, keep on doing what works.
BW,
CW
Day 85
Wednesday slump. But not feeling drained from guilt and shame of gambling! 🙂
Day 86
OH closed the account he gamble on the other day and I had my last counselling session today. It made me sad because I have gained so much from it. 3 months gamble free and has given me somewhere to talk about the things I was gambling to try and avoid. This is also the reason it made me happy. Because of this change as well as Allen Carr, gamcare and OH support I am a non gambler again 🙂 I hope I can continue to be strong and understand that I cannot win because I cannot stop. Gambling does not solve problems, just causes more problems!
Well done you on 86 days red,:))
Suzanne xxx
Day 88
Exhausted after a long week but the only thing I'm doing to escape is treating myself to a nice coffee and relaxing on the sofa binge watching series 🙂
Rednow wrote:
Day 88
Exhausted after a long week but the only thing I'm doing to escape is treating myself to a nice coffee and relaxing on the sofa binge watching series 🙂
88 n.o 🙂
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