My recovery diary

Thanks Bal and Captain46 

Lou x

??? Congratulations on 100 Days GF ???

Proud of you Lou ?????

Aum x 

Thankyou 🙂 i wouldnt have been able to start recovery without the help of gamcare gamstop and stepchange.

Lou x

Hi Lou,

Can I just say how delighted we all are for you and all the work you've put in to get to this point!

So from everyone at Gamcare, congratulations Lou on the 100 days.

Best wishes

ChrisK

Forum Admin

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Hi Lou,

Can I just say how delighted we all are for you and all the work you've put in to get to this point!

So from everyone at Gamcare, congratulations Lou on the 100 days.

Best wishes

ChrisK

Forum Admin

Thankyou and thankyou for having this service as well and to all the gamcare team. I only learnt about blocks etc through gamcare. 

Hi Lou

Good to see you in chat again, you are doing very well. Stepchange have obviously been very good for you. Frustrating not being able to contribute but hopefully I am gaining some value from listening.

Yes stepchange i would recommend to anyone struggling with debt. They were very helpful and have put me on the right path to paying debts and i have no stress from any of the creditors as stepchange do the communicating. 

Thankyou @Captain46 good to see join i hope it at least helps being there.

Lou x

I am not gamble, but today i am feeling fed up. When i was as the height of my gambling being out of control it gave me energy even though i was exhausted and my moods were awful from being up all night gambling..i miss the small buzz and adrenaline it used to give.

It wouldnt give me a buzz now it would just cause anxiety and streas so its not worth it..just part of me wants a quick gamble to get the short term energy it gave i am tired and find it hard to get motivation and often go to lie down and nap often in the day. 

Still remain gamble free..i just wish i could have the energy i had gambling to put into something else 

Lou x

That is an interesting point Lou and reminded me of the times I went without sleep because I was so engrossed in giving my hard earned money to the bookmakers or casino operators.

The so called games of chance are designed by psychologists to distort the victims sense of reason. The chemicals coursing through the body might make one feel euphoric for a period of time but it is often followed by fearfulness and desperation.

With so many thoughts and emotions running riot through our brains and bodies we were bound to feel a sense of alertness but it served no real purpose and just bred confusion in our troubled minds.

Well that is how I see it but we all have our own opinions. The one thing we all agree on though is that the final result was invariably a financial loss for us all.

Take good care of yourself Lou. 

Your courage and understanding are always a source of inspiration to me and I will forever be grateful for the support you give to myself and others.

Aum x 

I agree with you Aum it sounds about right, its true where you said at first euphoric that bit i miss..but then as yoy mentioned it follows the fear and desperation. Its definitely not worth going back too as it makes you more ill.

I just wish i had the focus determination and motivation with other things in life been feeling very fatigued which made me miss thay intial euphoric buzz.

But i know its not worth it. Hopefuly ill get some energy soon just trying to do small tasks each day just keep sleeping a lot which is frustrating as i am wantingto do things i just need the get up and go.

Thanks gor your kind words Aum your also doing amazing 

Lou x

Thanks for popping by on my diary and well done on getting over 100 days! This path we tread is a thin one and the further removed we get from the pain and remorse the easier it is to slip. Stay strong and reach your first goal of October debt free and then set your next one after that ?

Thank you Lou for posting on my diary, I really appreciate your kindness and it really helps motivate me.  You are doing really well yourself and I know full well that's it's always one day at a time.  Keep going and I hope you get your shoulder pain sorted out soon.   Looking forward to chatting in the Chatrooms!

Thankyou both..and yes roch been nice catching up in the chatroom.

Not in a good place tonight..i hate it  thoughts take over and you try not to act on them. Just need to keep strong another night

Lou x 

Keep strong Lou.  Just think... Your shoulder WILL be sorted out soon. There are good times just around the corner. I've resolved not to gamble but just for today. Lets keep strong, just today.

Feeling a bit triggered today, after speaking to an adviser who was very helpful ive decided to download gamban and give it a go, it isnt working yet ive done a seperate post on it.

It helps keeping track of my day count as i dont want to ruin my progress that is what is stopping me today. Remain 107 days gamble free and i dont want to ruin that.

Lou x