My Diary - Day by Day

Day 48 - 23/3/15

Morning All. Was feeling tempted to have a 'little flutter' last night but managed to fight it. Onwards and Upwards xxx

Feeling really tempted lately - dont know why. Thought I would pop on here to remind myself to keep going xxx

Thanks for popping by,

Keep strong now, 48 days, you are nearly at that important milestone, keep busy, focused, and think how you felt after the last time you gambled pure S***e hun.

To gamble is losing, abstaining is winning.

Take care and keep strong.

Suzanne xxx

Thanks really needed that reality check Suzanne 🙂 Feel better soon xxx

Managed to abstain today - kept busy - painted a wall/washed up and read some of my book.

2 days to next target and I can get there

Would have been so easy to give in. OH on nights so home alone and i have money left in the bank (which is amazing this close to payday) Really had to use my will power today. Think this whole week is going to be hard but we can do it!

Keep fighting...This is the last day of hard work before you can wake up & say you reached the next target 🙂 Admittedly then it starts all over again but this is a ODAAT journey & you are doing it 🙂

Day 49 - 24/3/15

Morning - feeling a bit more determined today. Have the hospital today for my last growth scan and the consultant should give me an induction date for baby - exciting and scary.

Thanks ODAAT x 1 more day to my next goal 🙂

Ps - just realised what the acronym stands for and it defo is ODAAT!

Well done you 49 today be very proud, and all goes well with hospital appointment.

Have a great strong day.

Suzanne xx

Didnt really have the response I wanted from the consultant today. They want to put me on metformin which means I will get induced at 38 weeks (19th April) However they are giving me 5 days to see if i can get my fasting sugar down before making a decision. I have been booked in for 19th April but they will change it to 3rd May if they dont have to put me on the metformin. Should find out when they phone on Monday. Really just wanted to have a set decision today not all this messing. 🙁

On a positive note looking forward to buying my Kindle books tomorrow for 50 days gamble free 🙂

That sure is a big fat positive 50 days tomorrow.

Suzanne xxx

Thanks Suzanne i can count on you to make me smile and stay determined! x

Day 50 - 25/3/15

I made it to day 50! Just purchased my Kindle books (reward) for getting this far 🙂 Glad i can now spend money on myself rather than wasting it pressing a button! To the next target (only 2 days away - 2nd payday on here) Started thinking of my next goals already and long term targets with a new gamble free life 🙂

Great work on your 1st half century 🙂 Bottoms up to many many more!

Enjoy those books & keep winning - ODAAT

Thanks ODAAT - i would never have spent over 4 quid on a kindle book before as i would think its a waste which is ridiculous thinking i could press a button for 30 seconds and lose the same amount. Still felt guilty spending nearly 12 quid on 3 books today as my mind frame isnt right yet (although i am getting there) To think i wouldnt worry about wasting 10 times that gambling until i lose and then reality hits. And the books will entertain me a lot longer too!

Look @ you splashing the cash 😉 Doesn't it make you mad how gambling has made us with money :-0 I'm hoping that it starts to get easier with time!