My Diary - Day by Day

Day 63 - 7/4/15

Morning all - nervous about the hospital today. Had a KFC last night which was naughty and gave me a high blood sugar reading so i am going to get told off 🙁 Still not gambling though xxx

Didnt go great at hospital today. They have started me on metformin. Being induced on 19th April. (38 weeks) Getting scared

Congratulations on 63 days, and congrats on the forthcoming arrival!

Babies are much more rewarding than gambling, I can tell you with experience. Lack of sleep is not so great, but still better than gambling.

good luck

Day 64 - 8/4/15

Thanks milkman - I am looking forward to it too 🙂 She is the reason i knew i had to stop! 🙂

Day 65 - 9/4/15

Morning everyone! Only 2 more shifts left at work - woo hoo! (but is being at home going to create more temptation?)

With 65 days under your belt you will be able to fight & win if it does 🙂

Just keep dealing with today - ODAAT

Well done you on 65 days, and with being at home , you will be stronger and more determined now as recovery takes over the urge to gamble.

Even better days to come with abstaining and maintaining.

Take care

Suzanne xxx

Day 66 - 10/4/15

Thanks both for the encouragement 🙂

I am sure i will be way too busy too with a new born - but i was discussing it with the OH yesterday and most of the time i am not really thinking abouit gambling (whereas i used to think about it everyday) so i start to think i am ok but then a situation arises where i used to gamble (being home alone/getting paid/stress etc) and the urges keep flooding back proving i am still at the beginning of my journey and still have to try hard to abstain but i am determined xxxx

Have a great gamble free day all!

Day 67 - 11/2/15

Went for my 10 week reward yesterday (due 14th but due to having the baby early booked it in early) Really nice relaxing massage and facial 🙂

Feeling positive today got a huge amount to do so no time to think about gambling

Kepp it up guys...

Day 68 - 12/4/15

Morning... Last shift for me today (37 weeks and 1 week to go until induction!) Cant wait to finish work. Roll on 4pm

This is a truly inspiring diary,to read of your struggle and how well your doing gives me and others hope. You have had ample opportunity to gamble when you've had a little bit of bad news and sometimes I use that as an excuse to gamble like many others. Your doing fantastically well and with your daughter to keep you occupied you won't have time to gamble lol I like many others are probably still annoyed that your oh continues to gamble but that's him and not you and makes your recovery all the more impressive. Good luck with everything and well done

68 days whoop whoop and last day at work big whoop again lol.

Recognise the changes in your life that are coming one at a time, and be one step ahead and keep winning.

Take care

Suzanne xxx

Day 69 - 13/4/15

Morning - 1st day off 46 weeks leave! Exciting, scary all rolled in 1. 6 days till i go in for baby!!!

Thanks for all the messages guys 🙂

and yes OH still gambling but i am just not going to let it lure me back. He says he wants to stop but doesnt seem to try. Says he will change when our daughter arrives but i will believe it when i see it.

I just have to do this for me and my future regardless of anything else

Have a good one xxx

Six days and it really is a new life,you should be proud of the change and the person you've become. We all have weaknesses and a sense of fragility at times otherwise we wouldn't be on here but it's how we deal with it that counts. After having urges this morning coming on here for a bit definitely helps and I've already changed my plans to make sure I'm not tempted. My partner is due in four weeks so the fog is lifting and I see the bigger picture. It's not just a tenner here or there that could be nappies or formula etc I wish you continued abstinence and success,well done!!!!!

Thanks new beginning - and good luck with your little one too. Felt a bit tempted this evening so popped on here. OH working nights this week so home alone from 8.30pm. Its getting easier to resist but still like to pop on and record my feelings/temptations 🙂