My Journey

Hey Lovely Lady,

Hormones bummer :0)

Andy Murry Bummer:0)

Sorry your having a rough time hun,This is one of the hardest time in recovery confronting these demons that youve been trying to hide and escape from.I wont lie it hurts and its hard work,but if you work through them one by one and deal with the pain and hurt you will emerge an even stronger lady than you are now.

As for your daughter maybe it would be an idea to hang back on contacting her until youve dealt with some of the other sludge and your in the right frame of mind to try and talk to her.Maybe explain to your other daughter you will do it but theres some stuff you have to deal with first she may back off abit if she thinks it will happen.

Whatever the outcome you have to do what is right for you hun.This is just my opinon and you are more than welcome to ignore me :0)

Keep the fight going hun your doing great.

Big Hugs ((((((((((S))))))))))

Stay Strong

E xx

My cyber bud E

What you have said is exactly what I have said to my young 'un!

I truly believe if we are ever going to have any kind of relationship again I need to let go of the past. What I don't feel though is that I have to justify myself to her...She thinks I'm someone I am not....That flippin well hurts ...so ...so much!

How can my own flesh and blood not believe me!

Sue x

Hey Hun,

I suspect deep down she knows the truth but when things go on for so long its hard to back down and say i was wrong.

You dont have to justify yourself you tell her your side and leave it at that she will either choose to believe you or carry on not talking to you,as long as you make it clear that your there when she needs you( because one day she will)youve opened the door she has to choose to walk through it.

It will take time but you will get your daughter back.

Stay Strong

E xx

Only thing I can answer to that liz is I flippin hope so!!!

X

Hi Sue,

Just popping in 2 say I hope u have a gr8 day 🙂

Stay strong xx

Hi Diary,

Day 25.......wow nearly at the 4 week mark.

Felt extremely emotional yesterday, understandable I guess, suppose it was after I had written about my personal problems...and to see them in black and white...kinda hits home then!

At least I feel that I am progressing....We don't compulsive gamble just for the sake of it eh?

To recover we need to understand the reasons and then have the tools in place to beat it!

Woke up today feeling quite serene......

Then wham bahm......Had day from hell at work!

Won't go into too many details but a collegue who is quite new was extremely confrontational, rude and agressive toward me...I was prepared to let it go if she appologised but she wouldn't...... and she wouldn't speak to me the rest of the shift!

Oh well even a bad day at work is better than gambling!!!

Sue xx

Hey,

Sounds like a pretty tough day you have had! InterestIng little point at the end that even a bad day at work is better than gambling! Think back tho how often would a bad day lead you to gambling and make the day even worse? The bad day was your trigger and the gambling was the escape! There's prob times where you felt gambling salvaged your day or released you from the stresses of that day! It's only in recovery you realise none of this is true! Your point tells me your recovery is coming along very nicely 🙂

Flagg

Hi Sue,

Just a quick thank u 4 ur support on my diary 2nite, it means alot 🙂

Have a gr8 nite xxxx

Morning Sue,

Just a quick note to say that I hope you are having a better day today at work. I'm all for recycling so I'll get things ready for you in 2 days time! LOL!!!

You are doing fantastically well. Stay strong and keep smiling. 🙂

Dave X

Hi Diary,

Day 26

Not a huge amount to report today......Guess am just starting to lead a normal life !

Work was ok.....nasty woman not working today lol.

Had a lovely call from my babe last night, she had just got back from seeing other grandma in France...went with her b/f (very nice lad)

Got another week off soon and we are making plans for me to visit again....beaming smile!!!!

Day off tomorrow.....looks to the sky...will it rain? My bestie got day off too.

Mmmmmmm lets see...what do 2 besties do on a day off?

Go to the pub!!!!!!!!!!

Very happy Sue xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi ya ,

Pleased that you had a better day than yesterday.

Shame bout yesterday's fall out, makes like uncomfortable at work which I for one do not need .

Hopefully it will have died down by the time you go back.

Nearly three weeks , gosh how quickly the time flys on this site . Think it must have its own time zone lol

So the pub for you tomorrow mrs , enjoy , bunny bunny rabbit rabbit , just like me and my BF , add alcohol into the mix and well no stopping us .

Have a great chill axe day .....

Shiny xxxxxx

Hi Sue, thank u 4 ur kind words on my diary 🙂

It was nice 2 chat 2 u 2nite.... I truly meant every word I said. I can relate 2 everything u were talking about.

Hold ur head up high Sue, i'm soooooo proud of u 🙂

I'm here if u need me, stay strong xxxxxx

hiya Sue...

(my bestie is called Sue...in fact I have 2 Sues... Blondie Sue and Red Sue...hair colour obviously.!!)

Well the pub it is! jobs a goodun.....only stress will be al fresco or inside....and that aint a bad stress.

Don't be smelling of parma violets now....lol..remember those sweets you used to get in the tin.

I Still have nightmares about Aunties kissing me and leaving stinky halitosis Parma on my face....eeewwwwww!

I shall think about you in the pub whilst i'm in the lakes...working ....driving ....working ....NO NO..you enjoy yourself you "Ladies what does lunch" types.

Only kidding Sue...have a good day off and don't worry..meet your fellowmate technophobe.....bring back pens and paper..

hugs

Rach and Doo xxx and congrats on your 4 weeks

Morning Sue!

I hope that you are having a good day. The bunting is in the post so it should arrive in time for your big day tomorrow!! LOL

You are doing brilliantly.

Hugs

Dave X

Hey Sue!

Just checking in with ya!

Hope your sober (only 10:20) hehe.. About work, wouldn't worry about them too much, we all have ppl we don't like working with but just need to be professional and get on with the job.

Anyway enjoy the pub if that's what your doing on your day off..

As usual, be strong you legend 😉 xx